juz finished showerin.. muahaha.. sense of achievement.. actually managed to do so within 8 minutes!! n i'm absolutely clean k??!!

went back to pri skool todae.. haha.. 'lihua-turned-anderson' pri.. okie.. lame.. was surprised dat mrs yeo n ms ng (nw a mrs....) cld recognise mi.. (x_x) tot i've changed alot, but to them, apparently not so.. :p n it was gd seein the peeps.. peng cheng was super funnie lah.. n nice.. despite his deadpan humour n sacarsm sometimes.. he's cute (as in gestures, not looks), when he's all fuzzy brained frm havin juz woke up n rushin to meet mi.. muahaha.. thanx to mi n the fact dat i din call to wake him up before.. oopz..

went to meet tri after dat.. or rather, him n his fren, kenneth.. was bored out of my mind for 5+ hrs, watchin them play cs n pool..finally got away when kenneth's frens came.. din feel comfortable abt askin tri to go initially.. but i was at the end of my patience n cld feel anger n frustration risin.. i told him dat i dun share my bf with other ppl.. n datz the truth.. maybe i'm possessive.. alrite.. i am. but, i did curb my possessive tendencies in exchange for 5+hrs of boredom, din i?

watched nitemare before christmas juz nw!! haha.. i can nw proclaim dat my likin for jack skellington has been further reinforced after watchin the show.. he's super adorable n cool!! only gripe is dat his frame kinda reminded mi of The Terror.. weird, but i seem to haf an inclination towards darker cartoon characters such as jack skellington n emily the strange.. soo.. adore emily the strange.. she's soo... cool! haha.. darkness in humanity simply appeals to mi huh?

alrite.. i'm gettin tiresome.. chattin wif a dear fren of mine.. quite heart-rending to noe how he's tryin to forget abt his crush.. hmm.. some things, u'll never noe if u never try.. but, for everything, there is a price to pay.. n the cost, only u can decide whether u r willin to shoulder it.. u can spend ur lifetime wonderin, or u can be cautious..

CaT cat purred at 11:53 PM
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hmm.. was readin grace's zorpia n realised dat i'm smart!! muahaha.. knew dat poem was abt cleopatra! sorie guys!! i'm more intelligent/ preceptive.. :p haha.. kiddin.. i shall act dumb n bimbotic.. champion!! dat was a nice poem!! i so totally adore n idolise u!! *batts eyelashes n smile coyly*

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ewww.. yucks! the whole bimbo thing is sooo... not for mi.. (-_-lll

alrite.. helped grannie burn paper offerings before meetin tri todae.. i'm a gd grand-daughter k? ended up havin lunch n dinner with him n iman.. :p met up with tri to go study, but he had to get something frm iman so i ended up meetin both of them.. after lunch at nooch, iman headed off to meet his frens.. den, around 8+, iman called tri n asked us to join him for dinner with his frens at cafe cartel.. gosh.. they ordered so much food! *faints* think iman sorta burned a hole in his pocket todae.. (x_x) feel rather bad abt it.. k.. i noe this sounds like a borin dae, but datz onli coz i'm deliberately makin it sound boring.. muahaha.. secrets.. secrets.. :p

juz received a bdae card frm lily.. thanx!! =) n no, i din receive thousand-and-one presents.. *sulks* haha.. find dat itz super sweet of her to send a card, mayb coz this is the onli bdae card i received!! (-_-lll haha.. oopz.. but still, the gesture was sweet, reallie.. =) brightened up my dae..

meetin up with pri skool frens to go back to my pri skool.. no idea y i'm goin back coz i've given up the gesture of goin back to visit my ex-skools since sec 1.. strange.. haha.. kinda stupid, goin to 'li hua pri - turned - anderson pri'.. sudden wave of nostalgia? maybe..

CaT cat purred at 11:45 PM
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hmm.. juz got home frm my bdae celebration with tri.. =) happie! had a gd dae.. he got mi a bouquet of red roses!! haha.. guess i wun haf to wait til i'm dead before i'll receive flowers frm him afterall.. n i wore the blouse i bought yesterdae.. hmm.. stunned him i think.. :p

we went for lunch at the foodcourt in cineleisure before catchin to Stepford Wives.. haha.. saw Mr Godwin Pang there! he seemed abit stunned to see us n the bouquet i was holdin.. he's nice lah.. waved to us when we went off, though before, all i did was smile at him.. oopz! the show was quite funnie.. haha.. as for CnA-ing? all i'll sae is dat, the theme is like dat of The Village.. the creation of a utopia, where the idea was flawed to begin with.. not gonna spoil the show further coz i noe quite alot of ppl wanna watch it.. :p

went to walk around in Heeren after the movie.. can see the envy of the gals around mi when they saw the bouquet.. guys, the verdict is, no matter how many times a gal can sae dat they dun need to receive flowers coz itz old-fashioned, it can still brighten a gal's dae n help in meltin her heart when she does receive them.. itz almost a sure thing.. then, we took a bus to nowhere, landin us in outram, before we took another bus back to town..

bought a small cake frm Breadtalk at Paragon, before bringin it over to his place to eat it, n so dat he can listen to the F.I.R's album.. :p opened the pressie dat he got mi at his place.. haha.. itz this giant milk bottle filled to the brim with this "Confetti Rafishly Chocolate".. so sweet!! (both literally n figuratively).. he also burned Jay Chou's latest album for mi coz he knew i wanted it.. gosh.. all the effort he went to for mi.. super touched!! he din buy the album for mi coz he's kinda broke nw, but the chocolates n everything else din come cheap either.. feel kinda guilty dat he spent so much coz of mi.. hmm... flowers? chocolates? seems like i'm reallie quite an old-fashioned gal at heart, where romance is concerned..

dinner was on mi.. haha.. ate at the Swenson's near Heeren.. nice ambience, nice decor.. but inefficient service?? note: unless u r only after the ambience, or r super patient/ not hungry, dun go there!! (-_-lll try somewhere less crowded.. after dinner was home.. he had to send mi home fast or he wun be able to catch the last train.. so we were speed walkin.. haha..

a tirin dae.. but very nice, ya? thanx dear! love u lots!! thanx for all the trouble u went to for mi.. =) i reallie do appreciate it!! so much so dat i haf no words to describe the extent of it.. all i can tell u is, thank you very much for makin my dae! i love you!! =)

CaT cat purred at 11:54 PM

28 August (The Book of Birthdays- Russell Grant)

They exude sex appeal, sometimes so powerfully that August 28 wishes it would go away, but in later years when it does, they wish it hadn't. This individual gets on his star-spangled motorbike and when he speeds into town knocks everyone for six. They could wear a paper bag over their heads and it wouldn't diminish the magnetic field force.

Blessed with slender, sinuous good looks, these usually dark-haired conqueror of the night often have their eye on other things than love. Clever too, they'd as soon discuss a new project in weekly morning meeting without admirers fawning to agree. And they dread being told to pair off with a colleague and work out the details. It always ends with attempted hand-holding, sometimes in a furious rumpus and rarely in romance, because August 28 truly madly deeply does not want want to have an office affair. What happens when it's over but you've still got to work with an ex-lover, while they glare across the room - or sob? Most probably he or she has a steady partner anyway, waiting to meet for dinner.

Nevertheless, sexuality is not entirely an unwanted cloak. They can spend whole days siting at their desk thinking about last night and the night to come. Spot them gazing into the distance in a golden haze of contentment. Both men and women enjoy complete surrender to lust. The female is easily aroused by stroking the insides of her wrists, and the delicate skin at the backs of the knees. And the men give in to pleasure as deft fingers stroke their hair and broad shoulderblades.

Many of these people are seriously creative. Find them as soloists in classical music or rock bands, and in the sort of graphic design departments which churn out award winning CD covers and advertisments. They'll decorate your house with original murals, and play a child a lullaby on their 17th century violin.

~I'm at the age where food has taken the place of sex in my life. I've just had a mirror put over my kitchen table. (Rodney Dangerfield)

am i really dat attractive?? haha.. sex kitten=moi?? dun think so.. dun see this happenin at all.. or maybe itz over before it even happened.. haha.. :p n, happie bdae to mi!! thanx to all who wished mi happie bdae! reallie touched dat u guys remembered! *muackz*

CaT cat purred at 12:00 AM
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hmm.. celebrated my bdae with my nanny todae.. ordered pizza n ate with their whole family.. how nice.. itz sorta a "family tradition" for mi to order pizza n celebrate with them on my bdae.. been doin this since sec 1 i think.. =) n they even bought a cake for mi!! so sweet! miz the daes where i'll head for my nanny's house everydae after skool n go home onli at nite.. i miz the time i've spent there, which is, an entire 16 yrs of my life, frm the moment i'm one month old.. she was more like my mum than my actual mum, for the reason dat she was the one who spent more time takin care of mi, though she's paid.. even nw, i still call her 'mummy' coz, itz a ard habit to break, and also coz, i noe it makes her happie to hear it.. =) reallie gotta thank her for takin such gd care for mi in the past n her concern for mi even nw.. aww.. nw i feel like cryin..
her son, (whom i address as kor kor) bought mi the F.I.R's album coz he heard mi casually mention dat i wan it when the ad was showin on tv.. feel abit embarrassed at havin him buy it for mi coz he's someone who wun buy cds for himself n dat he's not exactly dat rich as he's juz started workin for not too long n haf to shoulder alot of the bills at home.. oopz.. :p in all, he is like the elder brother dat i never had, n my nanny's daughter, like the elder sis i've never had.. the whole family is very dear to mi.. coz without them, there wun be mi todae, as i am nw.. so, i'm gonna keep up this "family tradition" for as long as possible.. =)

CaT cat purred at 11:45 PM

I HATE ME.

CaT cat purred at 1:24 AM
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hmm.. watched my very first episode of Singapore Idol todae.. haha.. dun look so incredulous! i'm serious.. yes i noe.. cat, get a life. :p hmm.. n i realised something abt 2 of the contestants..

the first?

benjamin eio was frm the s'pore boyband, echoboyz!! fine.. start rollin ur eyes n proclaim datz old news.. (x_x) n no, i din buy their album or was enamoured with any of them.. i simply haf a gd memory (selective)..

n second??

the guy, dwayne tan, looks like sunny (or howeva itz/his name is spelt) frm i.robots! haha.. okie.. i'm mean.. dun slam mi for it..
anyway, i like olinda cho.. she's really cute n bubbly, n she's damn smooth.. datz wat i'll call an individual.. =) n no, i dun haf any lesbianic inclinations.. no offence to anyone..

other than this, itz been a borin dae, cooped up at home.. tri's so sweet!! he's plannin to buy loads of small pressies for mi.. n actin all secretive.. haha.. cute.. =) thanx dear! u r the best pressie u can give mi.. but oopz, u r already mine.. haha.. ppl, pls do try to stop gaggin.. but i really appreciate the effort he's puttin in.. hope he wun spend too much.. (x_x)
n actually, if he can juz give mi a single, real, fresh, deep red rose, i'll be happie enough.. coz i've never received real flowers frm him before.. n he seems oddly uncomfortable with the idea of gettin mi real flowers.. strange huh? haha.. the rose thingy is kinda reminiscent of beauty n the beast..

~They say every star is a wish made a million years ago.

CaT cat purred at 11:44 PM
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hmm.. went to skool todae.. main purpose? give out the cards to my darlin classmates n to attend lit.. wonderin if i shld go after skool on fridae to get any notes dat i might haf.. anyone so kind as to collect mi stuff for moi?? or shld i not trouble u guys? dunnoe lah.. kinda rather celebrate on my bdae's eve.. :p
grace, u've had a rough dae.. take it easy n be strong k? it'll blow over soon.. n those ppl deserve wateva criticisms they've got.. to those tattletales, dun u understand the meanin of JOURNAL?? if not, den let mi tell u. itz a regular recordin of events, n itz mostly private. n private is such a simple word, i'm sure u guys r smart enuf to understand the definition.. yep? or do u guys need to go to dictionary.com to check it out?? hmmpf.. n noe dat nobody will admire the sneakiness of ur actions, coz, absolutely no one admires underhanded measures like carryin tales, n u'll get absolutely no respect frm ppl for doin this.. so, stop hittin below the belt n stoopin so low.. u r givin urself a bad name.. esp when this is done juz to suck up to ppl.. despicable.. dun u haf better things to do? get a life.
okie.. cool down.. watched twin effects 2 todae.. the story haf got absolutely nothin to do with dat of twin effects.. n those watchin for the sake of edison chen will be like mi.. =dissatisfied.. haha.. watch it n u'll noe y.. :p nevertheless, the show is full of eye candy.. =) the onli link between the shows was the attempt for baddies to reverse the natural order in life.. super funnie n highly entertainin.. not very deep though.. u'll haf to look way under the surface before u can find stuff worthy for CnA-ing.. but there r pts u can think abt dat will help u better understand the significance of stuff employed in the show.. like the yin yang elements n how they r represented.. the balance in life n how it can be disrupted.. yep.. plot boils down to a love story.. :p
enough.. think i'm spoilin the show.. oopz.. sorie guys.. =)


CaT cat purred at 10:55 PM
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hmm.. went n bought stuff at ps todae.. =) he accompanied mi.. poor thing had to wait for mi for almost half an hr coz he was already on his way there before askin if i wanted his company.. so, i wasn't deliberately late or anything.. :p innocent!! hmm.. went to his house n did some handicraft while watchin sweet november.. i love the show!! itz so touchin.. can't believe i ended up cryin though it was the 2nd time i was watchin it.. but it was reallie nice.. heartbreakin endin but, datz the reason y itz so poignant.. so, dun juz diss the sad endin ya? coz datz wat makes the story sweet n memorable..
watched killbill after sweet november.. haha.. itz nice!! violent but nice.. itz very sublime.. surreal even.. haha.. all the slashin n fountains of blood is right up my alley.. love the fightin.. yes, itz R21. yes, i'm sadistic!! haha.. some might find it gory but, hmm.. guess i juz haf a fascination with slashin swords n spillin blood? =) oopz.. am i scarin anyone here? hmm.. love lucy liu in the kimonos.. she looked super elegant.. liked the slickness of her movements when she decapitated the guy who opposed her.. those who watched shld noe.. =)
i'm such a violent person... gosh.. see how fast my moods can fluctuate nw??

CaT cat purred at 10:55 PM

try as i might, i can't stop hurtin.. the moment i hear his voice, i get reminded of all the harsh words he said to mi last nite.. n though i noe he regrets them, it doesn't erase the hurt.. each time i recall the whole conversation, it stings.. n yet, despite how much i wanna forget it n leave it behind, i can't.. it juz refuses to remain with the cobwebs in my mind, n keeps poppin up like some stupid pop-up ad.. n god noes i hate those stuff.. i haf no idea how to erase the pain, how to deal with it.. i try to ignore it.. but my defense mechanism is makin mi retaliate when i talk to him.. i'm havin a hard time suppressin it.. i dun wanna hurt him back.. datz the last thing i wanna do ever.. or rather, that'll nv make it to the list of things dat i wanna do.. haiz.. i dun wanna worry him.. but i've lost alot of confidence in myself, where this relationship is concerned.. am i gd for him? am i gd enough for him? will i ever be?

CaT cat purred at 12:32 AM
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so, this was wat awaited mi when i checked my frenster msg box.. amazin huh?? was kinda stunned by the idea..(x_x) find it hard to believe but it did crack mi n my bro up.. i thought april was long over?? hmm.. :p n no, i'm not gonna join.. (-_-lll cannot make it.. haha.. but, anyone else interested in joinin the Ms Venus popularity contest?? pls tell mi n i'll nominate u ya? =)




CaT cat purred at 1:27 PM

to YOU..

i should just learn, to live by YOUR rules.. less heartaches that way..
i don't want to feel like a wounded animal anymore.
i don't want to cry anymore.


CaT cat purred at 1:03 AM
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sometimes, i think, reality really like to come around n bite mi in the butt, each time i think that things r goin fine.. look at my previous post.. nw i think, dat my opinion of us bein a pretty gd match, is probably wishful thinkin? the illusion dat a delusional mind whipped up, to bring ur hopes up, before reality strikes n brings it all crashin down..
had a disagreement with him.. n datz a mild term.. diamonds formin in my eyes.. splashin as they fall.. no, i'm not happie.. ppl think i'm sweet, dat i make a gd gf.. but do i? am i? i think, in his eyes, not. i'm not sweet, not gd.. no. i'm irritatin, i give him headaches.. that's wat he told mi, n askin mi, dun i think so?? so there. ppl, nw u noe.. i'm not a gd gf.. no, i'm not.. dun mistake mi for one.. coz to him, i'm not. apparently.. he told mi so, didn't he? he told mi so....
itz time i think i learn, or relearn , coz i tend to forget the lesson, not to get my hopes up.. coz it'll only come crashin down, provin all dat i believed, unreal.. n the fall, is all the greater, due to the existence of hope.. i'm no good.. he told mi...

CaT cat purred at 10:54 PM

an love analysis on virgo?? hmm.. wonder how much of it is applicable for mi.. :p

Virgo

In love, you come across as detached or remote, but yours is the sign of service, so with the right partner you're more attentive to the needs of the other than any other sign. In your squeaky mind, cleanliness is next to Godliness, so anyone who wants to capture your attention would do well to decorate the recently dusted and polished love nest with crisp, clean fabrics. Earthy Capricorn and tidy, touchable Taurus make excellent love mates for you. Pisces provides a journey into characteristics that are in opposition to your sign, but worth exploring. Pisces people have the ability to calm the nervousness that's born in your fidgety soul. Long sessions of lovemaking with a long period of foreplay are the norm for you. This activity combined with your intention to serve and please your partner, along with a tendency to focus on small details, make you a desirable love mate. Shower gels and massage lotions are necessary accessories in your bath. Though you may not be heard saying "I love you" on a daily or even monthly basis, you'll show this feeling in frequent useful deeds.

well.. i'm with a cancerian.. =) not any of the above-mentioned.. n i happen to think we r a pretty gd match.. haha.. how true?? u decide.. :p

CaT cat purred at 4:19 PM

dedicated to: him

deteriorating friendship, how close were we as friends anyway? for a moment, we seemed close, now it all seems unreal.. like i was never part of your world, and you were never part of mine.. nobody, nothing seems to be missed.. where once we were in constant contact, it now seems so far away.
we are like strangers.. and in a way we are.. strangers whose path crossed for awhile, before going our way again.. nothing deep seems to have been forged in that short period of time, despite what i'll like to think.. nothing which seems worthwhile for you to hold on to.
were we friends? or merely strangers who masqueraded as friends? and now that the ball is over, the sparks are gone, we take off our masks, and go our own way.
do you hope that it would all be forgotten? the dance we shared in the masquerade. the promises made. the words exchanged.
can we continue as friends? even though the masks are off, the lights no longer low, and we are no longer alone.
what is it gonna be?
the beautiful, fleeting, fantasy-like memory of strangers dancin, masquerading as friends?
or the shared future of ups and downs, unknown but more real?

~once upon a dream
I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream
I know you, the gleam in your eyes is so familiar a gleam
Yet I know it's true that visions are seldom all they seem...

CaT cat purred at 2:08 AM
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here's a list of 'i want'.. haha.. juz to remind myself of the things i wan n organise them before i set abt gettin them.. :p (in no particular order)~

movies:
house of flyin daggers
stepford wives
the notebook
twin effects 2
the bourne supremacy

shows:
nitemare before christmas
catch mi if you can

albums:
F.I.R's
vivian hsu's
jolin tsai's castle
jay chou's qi li xiang (cd+vcd)
energy's
maksim's
karen mok's

i wanna get new clothes, bks to read, shoes, skin stuff.. loads of stuff.. i want/need an overhaul.. :p

CaT cat purred at 4:17 PM
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new template.. thanx shu!! =) still adjustin to the idea of green.. haha.. but, ignore mi!! i appreciate the trouble coz i'm someone who is at a lost abt all this n to mi, itz a big hassle.. so, thanx for helpin mi settle the 'hassle'.. haha.. i'm not makin much sense rite?? :p manda, hope u dun mind.. do u?? oopz..
hmm.. went over to his place after skool juz nw.. wanted to buy vcd to watch with him but cldn't find anything dat wld suit both our tastes.. n anyway, he was busy studyin, so i was left to my own devices.. which was disturbin him!! i'm so horrible!! argh.. dear, i'm sorie.. i'll try to refrain frm ticklin u the next time i'm bored n u r studyin.. (-_-lll
we went for dinner at the coffeeshop near my house.. n surprise!! saw ruizhen, yiwen n cheeseng.. the last time i saw them was last christmas eve.. :p haha.. it was gd seein them.. not much changes in their appearance, though ruizhen almost cldn't recognise mi in short hair.. ruizhen said i look better in short hair coz itz cool.. hmm.. maybe i shld keep my hair short den? will consider.. pls peepz, give mi ur opinions.. haha.. =)

CaT cat purred at 11:59 PM

i am
anger barely leashed
violence barely reined
wildness prowls on my edges
fire barely banked.
this is
the darker side of me.

CaT cat purred at 7:37 PM
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hmm.. gary's bdae todae, so shall wish him, happie bdae!! =) nw, i shall wait for mine.. (reminder, everyone, itz 28th aug!!) haha.. yes, u can pretend not to see dat.. :p todae is a gd dae.. no ting, no tay.. yay!! but, i was a lil' moody.. oopz..
sometimes i juz hate myself for bein so temperamental.. got really moody todae when i was with him.. couple my temperament with pms.. gosh.. fatal combination.. i'm so selfish sometimes, i hate myself for it.. dear, i'm sorry.. n thank u for ur tolerance n patience with mi.. i'll keep workin on bein a better gf for u..
i also realised dat i haf compulsive behaviours. horrors!! haha.. i realised dat when i'm upset, i'll start to clear things away or put things into order, packin, tidyin, cleanin.. or, i'll look for something to lash out at, physically.. when both fails or are unavailable, i end up clenchin my hands into fists.. the pain of feelin my nails dig into my palms.. red cresents.. itz to rein in my emotions i guess.. n to remind myself dat i haf to control.. painful? morbid? haha.. welcome to my darker side dat ppl dun usually see or understand.. coz i keep it hidden n dun explain it, except nw.. guess i juz haf a tendency to self abuse?? haha.. dun worry, i dun cut myself.. nor do i hurt ppl physically. itz onli myself..
my wrist is actin up again.. it hurts more than ever.. somebody, pls come n chop it off?? :p haha..

CaT cat purred at 10:10 PM
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she

there's an emptiness in my heart
each time he crosses my mind
n each time i see his name
my heart gets in a twist
how did i get myself
enmeshed in this fix
i should remember
i'm not the one on his mind
she is
not mi.

juz to relieve u guys frm the monotony..

CaT cat purred at 9:19 PM

well.. here to bug ppl again.. was plannin to sorta do a CnA (comment n appreciation) on The Village but decided against it coz i'm lazy.. n i dun think anyone will appreciate it.. haha.. dun wanna spoil the show for anyone..
the movie was good i guess.. really deep.. those who thought it was lame (mi included, but i've been converted!), i can tell u, itz not!! u juz din think deep enough n consider all the implications n msgs dat the show was tryin to convey.. :p haha.. i thought it was some sorta horror show initially, but nw, i do see Ms G's pt on all the literary devices n stuff employed in the show.. nevertheless, the show still managed to creep fainthearted mi out a fair bit.. (x_x) oopz.. it was tough tryin to see everything frm a literature pt of view when, half the time i was feelin tense abt watz gonna jump out.. the sacrifices i've made for lit.. muahaha.. okie okie.. *raises hands in surrender* i'll stop the theatrics already.. :p the blatant violence of noah's stabbin of lucius, my god... sheesh.. n it was so sad when i thought lucius was dead.. it was heartbreakin seein ivy's grief.. one moment, they were so blissful, the next.. BOOM! he's at death's door.. itz like the happiness had build up to such a pt n u expect them to get happier, but den u dun get it.. coz their happiness comes crashin down, plungin so suddenly, so violently, into nothing, but grief..
but i can't believe i got teary eyed.. think when/if i do watch The Notebook, i'm gonna cry buckets of tears!! (-_-lll yes.. i do noe itz nothing to be proud of.. but at least i'm not emotionless, ya? (unlike wat loads of ppl wld like to believe) yep.. shall keep this short n sweet.. no CnA.. =)

CaT cat purred at 8:33 PM
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hmm.. feelin kinda dumb coz i cldn't figure out the blogger nav bar until like nw, which is almost 10mins later.. i'm not normally this dumb.. onli when it comes to computers coz i haf this perpetual fear of doin something dat might crash the com.. (x_x)
juz came back frm tri's house.. went over n watched catwoman again coz he hasn't seen it.. i shall not wax lyrical abt the show again.. (yes dears, u all can sigh in relief) on our way to orchard mrt, i think i saw xiaxue.. haha.. the infamous blogger dat lots of ppl haf already taken notice of.. if it was her, den all i haf to sae is, she's really petite.. i'm taller than her!! hahaha... :p
the highlight of the dae however, is not xiaxue, but a tiny black kitten dat i saw todae.. she's so adorable!! i saw her at basement 1 of tri's flat (is callin it a flat appropriate?? when itz much grander.. x_x ) she was hiddin among the trees, in this secluded path when i seeked her out.. she appeared really scared but came out after awhile. dat was when i saw dat she was really tiny.. n all black.. haha.. we fed her chachos coz we had nothin else to offer n she ate the chips up hungrily.. tri suggested dat we go up n get proper food for her n so we did.. the poor thing was mewin away when she saw us leavin.. so heartbreakin!!
when we came back down, it was with tri's sis n their maid in tow.. tri's sister is an cat-lover!! thank god for her.. we fed the kitty n apparently she hasn't eaten for one week, accordin to tri's sis.. how they noe, is a long story.. the kitty really warmed up to us.. =) so happie!! felt like we've done somethin kind n meaningful.. the kitty's so pretty n adorable.. *sigh* how i wish i can keep cats.. :p whoever abandoned it was heartless.. i hope the kitty is warm, safe n not hungry, at least for nw..

CaT cat purred at 10:14 PM
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hmm.. juz watched catwoman.. she's soooo.... HOT. halle berry makes the perfect catwoman.. hot bod, pretty face, slick moves, sexy. she does the character to perfection, encapsulatin the essence of a feline woman, one of the greatest sex symbols in the comic world.. though the plot isn't anything much to talk abt, itz worth watchin if u wanna see the way a catwoman is supposed to be.. the fightin is slick, the moves r smooth.. the way she walks n talks.. wow! n sharon stone looked darn good too.. itz a toss up on who looks better in the show.. hmm.. not much of a catfight (pun intended) featured though.. u'll noe wat i'm talkin abt when u do watch it.. but this is one cool package.. overall, the show is packed full of raw sexuality n style.. the cats featured can be pretty unnerving but, they do haf beautiful eyes, even though they r kinda eerie.. noein abit of old egyptian beliefs helps u understand the show abit better, coz in the show, how catwoman came about was largely based on bast, one of the egyptian cat goddesses.. :p hmm.. i'm not a feminist, n i'm not fanatic abt cats.. but i do like this show n itz catwoman, discountin the plot of coz.. =) meeow..

CaT cat purred at 6:52 PM

exam timetable

13/9 (mon)------gp paper1 n 2---------0800-1130
14/9 (tues)------hist paper 1-----------0800-1100
16/9 (thu)-------econs paper 3---------1400-1615
17/9 (fri)--------lit paper 1-------------0800-1100
20/9 (mon)------econs paper1 n 2-----0800-1115
21/9 (tues)------lit paper 2-------------1400-1700
22/9 (wed)------hist paper 2-----------0800-1100
23/9 (thu)-------lit paper 8-------------0800-1100

reality is closin in on mi.. i can see its jaws snappin, sharp fangs glintin, threatenin to swallow mi in, threatenin mi with the blackness within, the emptiness, nothing. is there light at the end of the tunnel? or have the journey already ended? tell mi how can i keep things at bay.. is there somewhere where these can't touch mi? can't reach mi?

CaT cat purred at 3:09 PM
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hmm.. realised something.. my link still consists of onli manda!! oopz.. juz to explain.. itz like dat coz, oh well, i haven't figured out how to add links!! (x_x) can someone pls kindly teach mi n stuff?? haha.. thanx! n pardon this pc illiterate mi.. :p

CaT cat purred at 3:14 PM

i seem to be on an unlucky streak nwadaes:
met up with tri n planned on goin to orchard library todae to study.. but the most unexpected thing happened.. or rather, we saw wat we least expected.. before goin, i went to the toilet while tri waited outside for mi.. when i came out, he told mi something dat stunned mi.. he saw mr tay!! n he went to the gents, rite after i entered the ladies.. oh my.. i was rather hopin dat my luck couldn't be dat bad as to bump into The Terror even in town, so, we sat on a bench n waited to see if it was him. dread filled mi as i saw the much familiar stick figure walkin.. n to add to my horror, in our direction instead of the library!! oh dear.. so, i upped n walked away frm the bench without lookin back.. n tri said The Terror nodded at him when he walked past tri, who was still sittin at the bench.. oopz! i nw pray to heaven above dat he didn't recognise my back view..
well, it was quite surprisin to see The Terror there in town.. muahaha.. tri said he looked weird.. :p anyway, we went back to the library later n dat place was packed as usual.. to complete my list of unlucky happenings, i woke up with no breakfast, got caught in a traffic jam on my way to town, hit my arm against the metal tic bin when alightin frm the bus to P.S n nw haf a bruise.. *ouch!!* tried to get tics for twin effect 2 but the queue was super long, n so we din get it.. hmm.. this is like a list of grievances n unlucky happenings!! haha.. but it was overall a gd dae.. n i did a gd deed!! happie! gave $1 to this auntie coz she was askin ppl for help as she was a dollar short for the train fare needed for her to visit her mother at the hospital.. u muz be thinkin i'm nutz n all dat but, i'll rather haf been cheated of dat $1 than to have ignored someone who really needed dat bit of help which i could afford to give.. =) n news!! iman's back!! he'll be around for a mth before he goes back to canada in sept..
msg: honey, sorie i was abit moody todae.. thanx for bein patient n not gettin fed up with mi.. i simply adore u to bits! =)
n the rest who r readin, stop gaggin... i dun do this often k? :p

CaT cat purred at 12:20 AM
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oh well.. itz been a long dae, dat started off horribly.. the story?? here goes..
draggin my feet towards skool this morning, i was walkin towards the assembly area when this malay teacher told mi to tuck in my blouse more.. i was like "okie.. so she still managed to see though i'm coverin the front of my blouse by holdin a sweater huh?" so i told her.. "okie, i will.." but no!! i muz settle it on the spot!! so there i was tryin to tuck in my blouse there on the sheltered path, blockin everyone's way n bein a public nuisance.. n guess wat??!! she decided dat my skirt was SHORT!! can u believe it??!! this is the first time i've been caught for wearin a 'short skirt'.. lady, r u blind? have u got zero sense of proportion?? do u haf a perception problem??? is ur sense of measurements really so off???? goodness gracious mi! later, i went around askin all my frens if my skirt was short n nobody thinks so.. itz perfectly knee-length n acceptable can??!! wat the.. guess she'll onli be satisfied if all the gals wear skool skirts 'baju kurung style' like her huh.. bytch!! hmmpf!
n datz not all.. she insisted dat i had on makeup, claimin insistently dat i had my eyebrows drawn.. wat the.. i dun even noe how to, can??! n neither do i need to!! i think i need more trimmin rather than drawin coz i've got more than enough!! bet she's jealous i haf nice, beautifully arched, thick n 100% NATURAL eyebrows.. :p hmmpf!!
n so, i ended up havin to haf my ic scanned by dat tan yee sze or wateva his name is.. n darn, do i hate him?? even if itz juz for the way he looks, walks n talks?? this skool kicks a big fuss over the smallest matters.. r they so brainless to think dat our minds n studies will be affected by how we dress n stuff?? it will onli be dat case if we r uncomfortable in wat we wear n ironically, dat seems to be wat they've resolved to do!! i already hate comin to skool.. nw, seein the teachers every mornin, prowlin round the gates like hyenas with bloodlust in their eyes onli makes it worst! n i was tellin janice dat if my gettin caught at the gates was an indication of how unlucky i'll be todae, i'd better go home to kill the risk of gettin into more trouble.. (-_-lll
okie.. finished bitchin.. =) met up with tri n watched i-robot todae.. finally!! haha.. it was gd.. super funny, with all the irony n dead-panned humour in their dialogues.. n the car will smith was drivin in the show is like soo.. lust-worthy!! i haf a weakness for cool, sleek, racin machines, though i can't identify the different models for nuts.. oopz.. n our outin was gd todae, coz there were no disagreements or stuff.. everything was fine n dandy.. phew!! basically, we had fun n it was like the past again, when everything was bright n pretty.. =)
well.. this entry haf been sufficiently bimbotic n rantin.. but i really needed to blow off some steam.. esp since i curbed myself yesterday.. so, shall end here for nw n save my rantings abt break outs for another dae.. muahaha.. groan in anguish if u wan to..

CaT cat purred at 11:26 PM
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slumberland

Drifting off to slumberland
my mind too tired from yesterday
where all the thoughts running through my head
is more than what i can take
Drifting off to slumberland
where everything will be perfect
a fairytale land, built on air
complete with wonderful castles
Drifting off to slumberland
a place of escape
reality too real
harsh with all it's angles
Drifting off to slumberland
leaving everything behind
i'll be in perfect solitude
no worries about anything
Drifting off to slumberland
where time is on my side
and i can do what i like
not a care in the world
Drifting off to slumberland
hoping i will never wake
unlike the fairytale princess
i need to escape.

CaT cat purred at 11:09 PM

oh well, i'm sorta yearnin for my bed.. juz got home awhile ago.. went studyin with tri.. so tirin.. had a bad dae in skool.. first thing in the mornin somemore.. well, i'm partly to blame but seriously, i'll prefer it if she'll juz ignore my presence in class.. since she said it'll be better for her anyway.. i can sae i totally agree with her on dat, so, will she juz leave mi alone?? i dun care if i roll over n die, curled up in a ditch somewhere.. it'll be my own problem, she can always not care.. n dun tell mi to relax coz i'm relaxed.. half the peeps readin this i can assure, haf never seen mi when i'm truly angry.. n i intend to keep it dat way.. but do stop tellin mi to relax k? no offence.. i appreciate dat u guys care.. =) i can promise i wun bash her up, n will show her, at the very least, the minimum mark of respect owed to a teacher, no matter wat happens or how mad i am at everything.. n so, i bring this issue to closure.. (grace, i can almost hear ur sigh of relief dat there'll be no angsty posts.. haha..)
there r alot of things on my mind nw.. so much dat i can't sort them out nw.. i juz feel like i haf loads of stuff waitin for mi to complete.. well, datz probably the case.. but i can't care anymore.. i'm sick n tired of this worryin n stressin out.. i think itz time i stop tryin to please ppl n meet up to their expectations but rather, satisfy myself.. obeisance n meekness?? not anymore, no way.. i'm no genuflectin geisha..

CaT cat purred at 10:48 PM
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i was so tempted to start this blog with the f-word but decided against it.. damn it.. something's wrong with the system at singtel n i couldn't come online! damn!! n so i typed this on my wordpad before copyin n pastin it.. okie.. nw dat i've vented my frustration on this issue, let mi start off in the way i intended this post to start.. be warned that there are even more gripings on the way though.. i'm in a very bad mood (like duh.. itz obvious)
came home without buyin the stir-fried hokkien prawn noodles for dinner coz i was havin a headache by the time i reached amk frm tjc.. decided to drink loads of water instead.. on the mrt, there was this pregnant lady standin in front of mi, carryin some paperbags, n she stood all the way frm somerset until amk, before a seat was finally available.. nw, bet u r wonderin y i'm 'sayin' all this rite?? coz i can't stand how all the passengers who r seated can be so blind n oblivious to the fact dat, hey!! the lady is pregnant n deserves to have a seat so she can rest n not overtax herself!!! but amazingly, no one noticed n chose to give up their seats.. wat r they? blind?? how do they answer to their conscience?? (i'm assumin they haf one in the first place) it strikes mi how selfish some people can be.. all dat bullshit abt cme n bein educated n thus refined have obviously come to naught if those people can juz conveniently ignore dat someone who needs a seat more than them is so obviously standin while those people r happily ensconced in their seat 'mindin their own bloody business'..
n nw, u muz be wonderin who or wat gave mi the right to criticise?? well, at least i can safely sae dat i do give up my seat when i see ppl who needs them more than mi.. n i do choose to stand sometimes coz i dun wan to be one of the 'selfish' ppl.. i'm not tryin to show off, i'm not tryin to be all self-righteous n portray myself as some saint coz i'm not, n i do realise dat some ppl had a hard dae at work n needs to sit down n rest before they fall over, but hello?? the rest out there, think of all the wat ifs dat can happen to the pregnant lady if some accident crop up.. *touch wood* but think. n if u do haf a heart, maybe u can prove dat itz still warm, alive n beatin by showin some human compassion?? n this does not juz apply to helpin pregnant ladies.. maybe next time, if i see the same thing happenin, i shld seriously ask the ppl if they need the seat before decidin on which unlucky person i shld ask to give up their seats for someone who needs it more.. coz these r watz happenin around us dat makes mi wonder, where is the sense of human compassion dat we r supposed to haf n show? n as asked in the black eyed peas' song, where indeed is the love?

CaT cat purred at 7:52 PM
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hmm.. here's some stuff abt mi for u to ponder abt.. :p forget abt the sex skill thing.. have yet to try it so dunnoe if the results r accurate.. muahaha.. but for the rest, u can tell mi how true u think they r.. =)

CaT cat purred at 12:07 PM

CaT cat purred at 12:03 PM

How to make a catherine

Ingredients: 5 parts anger 5 parts arrogance 3 parts leadership

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Serve with a slice of wisdom and a pinch of salt. Yum!