the pic is titled Being Loved.. reflects my joy at havin him in my life..

wanted to post the resident evil 2 pic here but was abit creeped out by the show, so i din.. :p juz finished watchin it with my bro.. itz nice, though i din reallie understand most of it.. i like mila jovovich.. =)


went to bugis with tri n johnson.. johnson wanted to get some stuff.. went to bugis village too.. n guess wat??




I SAW THE CUTE SHOPKEEPER AGAIN!!!!!!!!



n u noe wat??



HE LOOKED STARIGHT AT MI N SMILED!!!!!



haha.. *swoon* almost melted on the spot.. aww.... he's soooo.. cute! slap mi!

anyway, tri's parents r back.. hmm.. shall not comment..

when we were walkin back to my house frm amk mrt, we came across this kitten under a block.. it was soooo adorable!! n it rubbed itself against my leg.. there was a bigger one watching.. den, mi n tri went to buy ice cream n i decided to buy some of the biscuits, used to sandwich the ice cream, to feed the kitten.. the uncle gave 4 pieces of it to mi, FREE!! so nice of him rite? he said it was cheap, n so gave it to mi.. =)

mi n tri went back n tried feedin the kitty by breakin off some pieces off one of the biscuits n placin them in front of it.. it din wanna eat, n so, we finished the rest of the biscuits up.. haha.. :p den, the bigger kitty started trailin us.. n we ended up playin hide-n-seek/ chase with the bigger kitty.. they were so cute! my heart melted at the sight of the smaller kitten.. (+_+) they were juz mewin on n on!! was soo tempted to stroke the smaller kitty but decided against it.. they r strays afterall.. saded.. :p

anyway, thought i lost my key, when i got out the life.. rushed downstairs while callin tri, who came back around.. (he wasn't too far.. he juz got out abit earlier frm the lift afterall) we backtracked all the way to the block where the kitties were.. he even bought a torch frm the provision shop.. so touched!!! when we finally realised dat it had fallen in between the layers of my bag (coz it have 3 layers of cloth to make itz side) frm a hole in the pocket i put it in, he sent mi rite back to my doorstep, again.. =) so sweet of him rite? was so glad dat he was around with mi, to search for my keys.. reallie felt his concern for mi.. (can i break down n cry? i'm dat touched)

n he din even mind mi havin made him walk past the darn fountain near my house, 6 times!!! even though i, myself, was fed up at seein the fountain so many times within 1/2hr.. n though i told him itz alrite dat i walk back home frm there alone, so dat he can reach home earlier, he refused my offer n walked mi home!!! =) i haf such a wonderful n sweet bf!! haha... again, i'm so glad i haf him in my life.. =)

dear, thanx for puttin up with mi, n for being around when i need someone, for bein calm n collected when i'm not.. i reallie appreciate it.. n i'm so gonna miss u when ur parents r around.. :p

it was quite an unlucky dae for mi todae.. but, all this little things simply made it all seem brighter n sweeter.. =)




ps: might do a c&a on Heat, dat is, if anyone wans one.. do tag to tell mi if datz desirable k?


 
CaT cat purred at 11:49 PM
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the pic is titled The Oneness Of Two. felt dat it suited the poem i wrote.. do tell mi ur opinions on my new poem.. =)






Heat

lure of her heat
the skip in her pulse

jumping. jumping.

the scent of her skin
a heady incense

drawing, beckoning

the silk of her skin
each satiny inch
the sheen of moisture

tantalising.

slipping.sliding.

drawing.pushing.

the promise in her eyes
dark
the intent i saw
clear

there was a sigh
i closed her eyes.
fulfilled.



CaT cat purred at 11:42 PM

the above pic was taken usin champion's new hp!! haha... i'm gd at takin pics of myself rite? sweet!! but i look kinda pale.. :p n my bro said this pic doesn't look nice.. =(

hmm... think i'm gonna flop my lit.. (-_-lll die!!! how ah? aiya.. sian..

hated the scene in the hall todae, durin the cca verification thingy.. to mi, it felt like some sort of rat race, as u see ppl tryin to haggle for more points n stuff..

**a pt of clarification - this is not directed at anyone..

i was juz kinda put off by some ppl i saw. i noe they r utter strangers n i shldn't judge them, but they juz seem like they were tryin to haggle for something dat they din deserve in the first place.. itz like tryin to squeeze blood out of a carcass datz already been sucked dry.. (-_-lll yep.. it all looked like an ugly mess to mi..

anyway, i shall not sae more.. :p

 
CaT cat purred at 11:18 PM
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the pic is titled Boundless and Eternal.. nice? kinda reflect my wish for us..

went to skool todae.. not a bad dae, but i'm somehow feelin reallie bushed.. i think i haf a serious problem with skool.. i can't slp well frm sundays to fridays, slp simply deludes mi.. n u realise dat the reason is coz, there's skool the next dae.. n i can slp well on fridays n saturdaes coz, there's no skool tmr!! yep.. datz how badly skool is stressin mi out.. the moment i wake n the thought dat i haf to go to skool sinks in, i feel utterly sapped of energy.. (x_x)

accompanied champion to compass pt to buy her hp after skool todae.. haha.. ended up, she's not 18 yet, so can't register for a line under her name.. we ended up havin lunch while waitin for her mum to come over n sign up the line for her.. :p after dat, i headed down to town to meet tri..

note to champion: ur toblerone might haf to wait awhile.. i'm sorta broke nw.. sufferin frm deficit.. haha..

anyway, met tri in ochard library but the place was crowded.. went to kfc instead.. somehow, both of us were feelin reallie lethargic n tired, so, we ended up not gettin much work done.. we den went to walk around taka before accompanyin him to eat dinner n he sent mi home..

was smilin to myself on the way home.. was in a reallie gd mood, despite being reallie tired.. datz coz i volunteered to walk back frm the mrt by myself, instead of him sendin mi rite to my doorstep as usual.. he looked tired n since he wld haf to go all the way back to orchard, i decided i shld not tire him out so much.. :p n the fact dat i was being a considerate gf to him made mi happie.. =)

saw lots of kids playin with sparklers n candles while walkin back frm the mrt station.. reminded mi of when i was a kid, playin with candles n den scoopin up the dried multicoloured wax pieces.. the colours wld be marbled n they looked like pieces of iridescent jade.. the sparklers also reminded mi of the time tri n i played them by the pool at the basement of his apartment.. haha.. when his sis asked where we went n he told her, she commented dat she din noe he was dat romantic.. haha.. =)

mid autumn festival also reminded mi of my suggestion to benjamin era dat we set his swimmin pool on fire, by pourin oil on the water n den lightin it.. i'm sure it'll be beautiful.. n it'll prove dat fire n water can co-exist.. haha.. dat suggestion was made in sec1.. see wat kind of nonsense my mind can cook up nw? :p

anyway, somehow, i'm feelin rather blissful n contented todae.. maybe it's the afterglow of being a carin gf to him.. haha.. alrite.. "afterglow" seems to carry some sexual connotation to it, but i swear, itz not intended nor implied in this case.. despite all the stress n hassle frm skool, the thought of havin him around, in my life, soothes mi.. =)

 
CaT cat purred at 9:40 PM
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this pic is entitled Liberation, something dat i crave, but can't haf. like the figure there.


CAGED.

anyway, watched New Cop Story with tri todae.. quite nice.. super funnie! at one pt, the whole cinema was laughin.. nicholas tse appears to haf slimmed down, n he provided the most comic relief in the movie.. haha.. did i forget to mention dat he's cute in the show? :p hmm.. next movie i wanna catch is yamakasi-the great challenge! =) was thrilled when i spotted the movie ad in the papers a few weeks back..

i realised dat i'm not reallie one for sweet romantic films, but more of action films, or rather, anything promisin action.. love the slick moves n the tension.. meanwhile, romance sometimes strikes mi as too sappy sweet, unrealistic, overly romanticised etc.. unless they r as movin as Sweet November. dun like stories which remake some fairytales either, like Ella Enchanted n Cinderella Story. juz the name or ad alone is enough for mi to give up n dismiss it as some bimbo-ish show, where fluffy pink clouds n "happily ever after" dominates the whole show.

boy meets girl
they fall in love
conflict arises
can they overcome it?
they did
happily ever after.

sums up the main skeleton, din i? sorie if i'm appearin overly cynical but datz juz how i see these sweet, fairytale-ish films.. i've got nothin against fairytales. in fact, i love them, (esp the original versions, which r normally dark n twisted in some sense) anyone care to pt out dat these spin-offs/ mishmash of fairytales haf got more depth than dat? i shld think dat wld be a rather high order, won't it? :p

 
CaT cat purred at 11:20 PM
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the above pic is abit blurred so, do pardon mi.. well, the guy on the left is the actor frm the show, yamakasi.... his name is Châu Belle Dinh. as for the pics after dat, showin a guy with an extremely buff bod, n the hottie's close-up pic, datz my fren joel!!! haha.. isn't the resemblance uncanny?? =)

anyway, been a borin dae.. finished readin The Crucible.. n was busy fendin of my irritatin younger cousins.. haha.. they r such a riot.. yes. horrible n mean mi did alot of shoutin at them.. (-_-lll but they r all teens, shldn't they be bahavin better already? haha.. self-justification.. =)

anyway, i'm havin a.....













BREAKOUT!!!!!

nw, if my blog was functionin properly, the words above wld be in gigantic, bold red fonts.. :p anyone, someone..

HELP!!!

any tips on clearin the skin besides downin galleons of water?? (x_x)

 
CaT cat purred at 11:55 PM

isn't the kitty cute? datz wat i shld be doin nw.. zzzz-ing.. :p

well.. bloggin so early coz i've juz got home awhile back.. :p hmm.. met tri todae to watch movies but turned out dat the movies i wanna watch were not showin at cineleisure.. n it was positively teemin with ppl in town so, we got lazy n strolled around instead.. we met up with his fren, kenneth, at around 11pm juz nw.. watched them play pool n both of them sent mi back home.. haha.. finished showerin in record time.. think i took less than 10mins? (-_-lll

anyway, i muz make a "things-i-wanna-buy list"

1) concealer (loreal airwear in light claire)
2) powder (loreal airwear in natural peach)
3) blusher (maybelline pureblush)
4) mascara (maybelline lash discovery in very black)
5) lingerie (pierre cardin)
6) heels
7) tops
8) short skirts
9) pedal pushers
10) clearasil
11) redoxon effervesent vit c tablets (30pcs)

too much info somewhere along the line?? :p wanna throw in the Esprit's Captive too but datz not an essential unlike those above.. gosh.. no money!! anyone noes how i can earn cash quick? english tuition anyone?? haha.. think can onli teach pri skool kids.. (x_x) anyway, i shld zzz.... update later...

 
CaT cat purred at 2:41 AM
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hmm.. the neoprints mi n cheryl took.. my personal favourite is the one with the black background.. =) my eyes look bigger in dat pic? haha.. very elegant n classy, thanx to her excellent neoprint designin skills, though we have been so out of touch with such machines.. manda, i noe u r itchin to sae, "letz go n take these some time too!" haha... :p

saw gwen at orchard mrt while i was waitin for cheryl.. she shouted my name across the station.. (-_-lll when i finally noticed her wavin, i waved back.. i den msg her askin how she managed to see mi frm so far.. her reply?




"becoz u r so pink.."



(-_-lll

anyway, we went to walk around town n cheryl bought a dress n a top.. haha.. my feet r achin nw.. n thanx to her n manda (overwhelmin influence) i now feel like buyin a pair of heels n some princessy tops n short skirts..

met a couple of weirdos todae.. one was when i was walkin to far east to meet cheryl there instead of the mrt.. this guy walkin in my direction suddenly headed towards mi n snapped his fingers rite in front of mi, as though tryin to catch my attention.. i thought he was someone i knew, but it wasn't.. or maybe it was but i cldn't recognise? weird..

weird person 2 was at the neoprint shop.. we were waitin in the queue to the neoprint machine when weirdo 2 suddenly flashed this neoprint in my face n asked if it looked nice.. it was a couple of guys topless with their upper torso covered with tattoos.. (x_x) scary!! den he proceeded to ask my name, shook my hand, n intro himself.. forgot his name liao.. oopz! anyway, a couple of mins later, he called my name n i turned to see him topless in the neoprint machine, as he lifted the cloth of the machine n asked if he was fit.. (X_X) wat the... scary!!!!! mi n cheryl were kinda traumatised, as he went on to look over cheryl's shoulder as she was lookin thru the pics in her digicam..

anyway, went to bugis n turned out tri was there.. so walked around bugis junction with him before goin for dinner at simply thai.. their beef noodles is nice! as well as their tomyam noodles.. =) den we went to buy a drink before sittin at some stairs, near bugis mrt, to chat.. =)

nice dae! except i din get to go back to bugis village n see the cute shopkeeper.. (x_x) damn.. haha... n i din buy anything.. haiz..

 
CaT cat purred at 11:52 PM
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well, this pic was taken at bugis todae.. was supposed to have some wonderful lookin lanterns in the background, but, ermz.. as u can see, dat din quite work out as our faces were crowdin the screen abit.. not to mention dark eye rings n eyebags.. guess we've been gd students huh?? haha... (-_-lll


*be warned. this entry is long. read at ur own peril..*

last paper todae!! haha.. i think for prelims, i reallie had a serious case of verbal diarrhoea.. champion, u r CONTAGIOUS!!! haha.. noe y? for lit paper8 todae, i somehow managed to cough out 11 full pages of essay.. (x_x) for 2 qns.. ugh.. n i even had 10mins to slack at the end of the paper while ppl around mi were still furiously scribbling away.. n it turns out, i wrote more than them?? esp with my small scribbly handwritin.. gosh.. think something is seriously wrong with mi.. Help!!!

anyway, met up with manda todae n we went shoppin!!! =) happie.. first, we hit heeren n walked around there before havin lunch at sakae sushi.. =) ate like 7 plates of sushi there between us.. alot? actually not.. :p cld haf eaten more usually.. whahhaa.. the guy workin at basic beauty was reallie cute, in the clean cut way.. :p

next, we went to check out esprit before headin for bugis.. fell in love with their scent, Captive. =) will anyone buy dat for mi? haha... :p we den headed for bugis village.. gosh.. manda went mad shoppin.. (x_x) haha.. she bought 3 tops, $50+ worth of skincare products, n some nail art stuff.. mi? i bought this pink top dat i contemplated over for so long dat manda got frustrated by my hesitation.. haha.. bought a new hp strap too!! cute!! or rather, the guy workin in the shop was cute..

gosh.. pls let mi gush abt the guy workin in the toy shop where i bought my hp strap.. before, when we went up to this second level thingy, i saw him walk past n immediately the word "CUTE!!!!" flashed in my head in bright red, bold fonts.. haha... did i forget to mention the flashin of a million lightbulbs in my head? haha.. (x_x) den later, while manda was lookin at the nailart stuff, he walked past n den i realised he was workin at the toy shop rite beside the nailart shop manda was in.. =) bored with the nailart stuff, i went into the toyshop with the ulterior motive of gettin a gd look at the guy to affirm if he was as cute as wat i thought he was frm my glimpse of him.. so, i was happily browsin at the toys, too embarrassed to take a direct look at him, when i heard this voice beside mi

"hi! lookin for anything?"

stunned, i turned around n guess who??!!! he was there standin juz inches away frm mi.. i mus highlight dat the shop was extremely small n cramped.. :p gosh! he den proceeded to stand behind mi as i looked at the hp accessories, tryin to take in watz before my eyes rather than think abt him standin juz there behind mi.. ermz.. i failed in my attempt.. (-_-lll n so i walked out to see if manda was done.. when she was finally done, i dragged her into the toyshop with mi n asked if i shld buy the hp strap i wanted.. n the guy was there again.. (#_#) my brain simply stopped functionin k??

when we left, i realised dat my face felt warm.. (-_-lll cldn't be sure if i was blushin but, i guess he made mi discover dat, hey! my blood circulation is actually alrite! u mean i can blush??? haha... :p he's soooooo... majorly cute.. tall n lanky, with nice hair.. he looked like those japanese manga character!!! *swoon* the type dat i simply can't resist.. if it wasn't for the fact dat i haf tri, i wld haf asked for his no.. i want!!! haha... shhhh!!! :p

well, i wasn't the only one enamoured with a cute guy.. manda saw this other cute shopkeeper too.. i din catch a gd look at him but frm my impression of wat i did catch of him, he's indeed quite cute.. :p haha.. n i was tryin to get manda to go over again coz she saw this nice top there but she was too embarassed to. (-_-lll so, we were havin this tug-of-war, with her pullin mi away, n vice versa.. while this guy, another shopkeeper, watched on in interest.. (-_-lll wat the.. i ended up with my skin red n sore frm manda's tuggin, while she eventually walked past the guy, went into another shop, promptly fell in love with another blouse, n bought it.. (-_-lll

we were quite dead after bugis n went back to amk jubilee for a drink at the bubble tea shop n chatted, before goin home.. nice dae!!! n i still can't get over how cute the guy is.. damn.. shld haf asked to borrow manda's hp n secretly take a snapshot of him.. (x_x)

meetin cheryl tmr.. wonder if i'll go to bugis village again.. think dat place is simply teemin with cute shopkeepers.. someone, pls, grant mi sanity!! haha.. :p meanwhile, my stomach is growling...

 
CaT cat purred at 11:09 PM
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this pic is titled Red Lover Red.. itz here coz i like the vibrant shade of red used here, so strong dat it seems almost violent.

like violence barely leashed in..

=) rite now, i have a fixation with all things red (preferably bright), like blood. wanted to post Stalker (the pic of the gal sittin in a tunnel of blood dat i sometimes display on msn) actually, due to my attraction to blood n gore now.. but the shade of red wasn't vibrant enough to make a strong visual impact, the way Red Lover Red can.

y the sudden fetish for blood n gore? first, itz not sudden.. always have been sadistic, always had a fascination with blood n the idea of violence.. n now dat i'm feelin particularly moody, due to pms, my attraction to blood simply comes out more strongly than usual..



i'm hungry with nothing to eat,
alone at home with no company.
nothing to do
nothing on tv
my life seems a void
an emptiness yawning
a pathetic nothing
yet how can u describe something that's nothing
a mere non-existence
irrelevance



haha.. dun bother figurin it out.. itz all fragmented pieces of thoughts pieced into a whole. when i can type all dat within 5mins, u noe better than to take it seriously, dun u? mi n my 'hate-mi' mood. again. i'm not being deliberately disturbing or obtuse. i'm juz disturbed, by myself.

i hate myself, when i'm being deliberately difficult towards him, when i say what i dun mean, goad him, push him.
i hate it when i dun tell him what i'm really thinkin, what i really want.
i hate it when i tell him the exact opposite of what i want.
i hate it when i deliberately put him on a mental merry-go-round.
i hate it when i try to slip away from him.
i hate it when i'm being deliberately disturbing to him, telling him my dark dark thoughts, knowing they worry him, knowing they make him uncomfortable.
i hate being at home alone.
i hate evenings, when the sun is setting. it seems like farewell, n 'goodbyes' are too harsh, too final.
i hate darkness, it seems too consuming, too invading, while hiding too much.
i hate my imagination, it is too wild, untamed, it scares me.
i hate, hate, hate.
i hate myself.
and i hate hating myself.
i hate hate.

u muz be thinkin i've gone nutz, but i'm not. i'm juz musing..
the bright n hyper mi is takin a breather. itz hard work being happy.


 
CaT cat purred at 7:02 PM
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came across this pic while lookin thru a photo album.. this is a pic of my mum in her 20s i think.. doesn't she look like some olden days movie star?? haha.. =) she's pretty!! with her small oriental eyes, sharp nose n small mouth.. the classic chinese beauty.. hmm.. her cheeks r much chubbier then, as compared to now, n her skin seems to be much fairer now too..

well, lit was a killer.. believe wat u see...







I"M SO DEAD!!!!!!!!!!



(-_-lll the paper was so tough! n i had nothing to write abt.. in fact, for the last 15mins, i was stonin at my table, tryin to look busy.. oh goodness gracious mi! i'm doomed, dead, vanquished... argh!!!!





*on a brighter note, i did slp for 12 hrs.. haha... =)

anyway, itz rainy weather todae n due to the downpour when i was gettin out of the house to go to skool, i had no choice but to carry an umbrella, something dat i haven't done since sec 2.. (-_-lll n ermz.. sad to sae, due to my extremely childish taste in fashion durin sec 1, i bought a pink, translucent, plastic umbrella back den..



yes.. i haf to confess.. I HAVE A PINK, TRANSLUCENT PLASTIC, BIMBO UMBRELLA!! (-_-lll

i had wanted to simply bury it in some corner of my room, forgotten, but todae, i had no choice but to unearth it coz, i haf no umbrella besides dat one.. =(

imagine my embarassment at carryin a pink, shiny, plasticky bimbo bag with a pink, translucent plastic, bimbo umbrella!! urgh.. (x_x)




yes!




IT WAS THE HORRORS!!



*sobz* i must have looked like i was tryin to give barbie a run for her money.. n gary sure got a big, fat, laugh out of my plight when he saw mi at the bus stop outside skool when we were both waitin for our buses n go home..

ugh!! (-_-lll he started chucklin the moment he saw mi, before finally dissolvin into (hysterical) laughter.. n his comment?



"wah.. sexy sia.. carry pink bag so now must carry pink umbrella.. somemore this kind of see-thru plastic type.. whahhaa.. must blog abt this.."



(x_x) imagine my mortification.. i wanted to spank him with the umbrella-in-question rite den..

but of coz, mi bein the 'sweetie-pie' i am, did not.. haha... :p



note of clarification:

1) i am no barbie wannabe, dressin frm head to toe in pink.. (i dun mind havin a miniscule waist n legs dat go on forever though)
2) pink does not rank among my favourite colours.. (u dun see this blog entirely in varyin shades of pink, do u? dat will indeed be, a nitemare..)
3) i am not an airhead.. (this entry have been reasonably intelligent so far, hasn't it?)

so, verdict is??


CAT = sane, smart, un-barbie-like, non-pinky female!
CAT = BIMBO/ BARBIE WANNABE >> NOT!!!

=)

ps: i may decide to post the pic of my bimbo umbrella later tonite or maybe tmr.. juz for laughs.. :p


 
CaT cat purred at 6:31 PM
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this pic is titled I Dream Peacefully, something which i hope i'm able to do..

tried slpin at 11 last nite, but ended up tossin n turning til 1am, when i finally gave up n called manda to relieve my frustration of not being able to get to slp.. switched on my hp too, n received an sms frm tri rite away, askin if i was aslp.. hmm.. such a coincidence? or telepathy? haha.. :p anyway, he cldn't slp too.. chatted with manda til 3am, until she had to put down the phone.. meanwhile, i continued tossin n turnin til 4+am, before i finally fell aslp n woke up at 5.30am for skool.. hmm.. think i slpt for onli 1hr? saded.. dunnoe y i can't get to slp.. hate the feelin..

i sat thru my econs paper 1 n 2 with juz 1hr of slp!! haha.. i'm amazed by myself.. n the whole dae, i din fall slp either.. =) gosh! i'm wonderin if i'm even human.. champion even said i looked wide awake n rather fresh in the mornin.. (-_-lll





anyway, todae started reallie funnie.. with everyone flabbergasted by my pink "bimbo" bag.. haha.. they were all stunned by itz very pinkness, brightness, n shininess.. haha..



shu's reaction was "omigod.. cat? dat bag is urs?? u carried dat to skool???"

gary's first reaction was: "wah! the bag sooo... sexy ah?" haha.. (x_x) *pengz* n he went on to carry it..



made him look like some drag queen (bear) n everyone was standin around watchin n laughin at the sight.. :p anyway, it was onli this mornin, dat i learned dat the numbers actually carry a very sexual connotation.. (-_-lll gosh.. datz how innocent i am, u ppl!! itz supposed to be some sex move frm the karma sutra? kaoz.. joel, the shop was perfectly respectable lah.. haha.. do i look sleazy to u? (x_x)





met up with tri after the econs paper n went for lunch at BK in heartland mall, along with johnson.. haha.. sat there n talked crap for ages.. super funnie.. johnson's reallie nice n gentlemanly.. very helpful too, esp when things go wrong between mi n tri, he;ll always comfort mi n try to help..

after dat, tri came to my house n helped fix up my com.. taught mi how to play mindsweeper n helped to change my printer ink too! thanx dear! =) haha.. den i cooked instant noodles for us for dinner before he went home.. i noe instant noodles is not the world's best delicacy but datz all i had to offer at home.. (-_-lll anyway, like the feelin of cookin n washin up for him.. as well as eatin dinner in front of the tv with him.. felt blissful.. =)

see! itz the simple things in life dat is truly heartwarmin.. =)



todae was a gd dae! happie! =) how i hope things will always stay this way..


 
CaT cat purred at 9:09 PM
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behold!!! my newly acquired pink n silver bag! =) whahaha... retail therapy works!! feelin hyper now!! gosh.. tell mi itz nice yah? itz supposed to be a metallic candy pink n silver.. but the metallic sheen doesn't show up well in the pic due to the light reflectin off it.. haha..

went n bought it first thing in the morning, rite after i woke up n washed up.. haha.. i'm mad.. (-_-lll but i was so afraid it wld be gone by the time i finally finish my exams n go shoppin, so, hmm...... oopz! the ladyboss was beamin frm ear to ear upon recognisin mi as the customer who asked abt the bag yesterdae, n as manda's fren.. n she gave mi a discount.. nice of her.. =) guess she's must haf been inwardly hopin there'll be more customers like mi.. haha.. i sooo... adore the bag n this is no impulse buyin coz i did contemplate abt it for one whole nite..




*gosh! dat sounds so bimbo...*



anyway, due to my laziness to put on makeup for such a short trip (took mi less than 1/2hr to go to the shop, buy the bag, n get home) i ventured out without it for the first time in 3yrs+.. alrite.. onli a miniscule dab of concealer here n there to hide obvious blemishes n dark eye rings.. (-_-lll i was rather afraid ppl wld think they saw a ghost in broad daylight n get mistaken dat the 7th lunar month is not over yet.. haha.. but guess wat happened?

while waitin for a cab under my blk (due to my reluctance to expose my makeup-less face to the general population of amk), these guys doin some caterin service under my blk n unloadin stuff frm a lorry started chattin mi up.. (-_-lll i was like STUNNED. they were askin whether i was waitin for a cab (like duh, ppl stand along the roadsides for fun izzit?), den they asked for my name n whether we can be frens.. the standard lines.. my reaction?



smile, be nice, turn them down.


excuse?? (in my case, itz a fact)


"sorie, i'm attached."



haha... u can see a drastic expression change, frm one of "open frenliness" to dat of "open eMBA">mbarassment".. quite sad huh.. so, they hastily apologised while i quickly hopped into the safe sanctuary of a cab, for surely, i wld not be beseiged with such advances by a cab-drvin uncle.. (x_x)


yay!! does this mean my makeup-less face is not dat scary afterall?? =) *pops champagne in celebration*


anyway, was helpin my bro write the alphabets for the musical notes on this scoresheet, which they r supposed to learn for a music test. n to repay my kindness, wat did he do???






TORTURE MY POOR EARS WITH HIS HORRID RECORDER PLAYING!!!!!!!!!


kaoz.. *long sufferin sigh* isn't he juz spillin over with gratefulness?? haha... anyway, i told him he shld record the racket n use it as a alarm tone. i'm sure it'll 100% guarantee wake ppl up the moment the racket starts.. whahaha.. :p i'm mean.. but elder sisters r entitled to be mean to their younger bros, aren't they? this is called..



XIANG QING XIANG AI. (in Eng, showin love towards each other)

=)





i realised too, now, dat i haf either a relatively high metabolic rate, or a huge appetite.. guess wat i ate for dinner last nite at 7+pm??


>>a bowl of rice n a bowl of instant noodles.. (-_-lll


guess wat time i felt hungry again??


>>around 11+/12midnite..



kaoz.. huge appetite plus quick metabolic rate? i need to curb my eatin instincts/ hunger n go on a diet!!!! coz y? i ate a packet of crisps to stave off the hunger pangs.. *sob* =(



*n, i dun binge..*



anywae, tmr is the dreaded econs paper 1 n 2.. darn.. i'm so dead.. (-_-lll but, on a brighter note, after tmr, most of the worst will be over!! =)


 
CaT cat purred at 9:21 PM
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this pic is titled Uninspired by itz artist.. n itz how i'm feelin now.. n it looks cool!! blue hair n all.. =)

haven't been slpin well.. eyes burning all dae, headachy.. so poor thing!!

met up with manda n walked around Amk central todae.. bumped into James n realised he juz came out of NS.. hmm.. anyway, walkin around central was kinda boring.. coz everything looks juz the same n we din noe where to go or wat to do.. haha.. but, both of us did not go emptyhanded coz we bought a skirt each frm this little shop tucked away near the polyclinic.. haha.. the ladyboss was sayin manda's dressin is sexy.. haha.. n manda's got enough of her pornstar/rebel vibe.. :p

we den went to this boutique dat she's been tellin mi abt.. the clothes there r all limited to one piece per design, which is super cool coz, who likes wearin clothes dat r common rite? :p n the clothes r all imported frm hong kong i think.. love the skirts there.. fell in love with a bag dat i saw too.. (-_-lll oh gosh.. muz curb my buyin instinct.. the shop also carry shoes, accessories n makeup, all of which r solo pieces too.. n the price range of the clothes r also relatively more affordable than dat in town, despite bein gd in quality n juz as fashionable.. =)

i realise too dat, i'm reallie KIND n SOFTHEARTED.. hahaha... (x_x) can't believe i actually helped manda clear out n tidy up her closet, which was previously burstin at the seams.. (-_-lll Lord save mi.. haha... where before, u see clothes lookin precariously on the verge of fallin out of the closet when u open the door, now, there's actually extra space!!!! all thanx to my superb organisin skills (n the fact dat i'm gd at coordinatin clothes to make space n foldin them) n her Cat-imposed mantra to get rid of clothes she'll never wear again.. if she hadn't steeled her heart against throwin out clothes, think she'll still be sufferin frm a hanger-deficit.. haha.. too bad i forgot to take a "before n after " pic of her closet.. manda also said her mum will be moved to tears upon seein the tidied up closet.. haha.. but, ermz.. we proved it wrong coz dat din happen.. haha.. nw, the onli question in my head is, how long before the closet will get messy again.. (-_-lll







**manda tan ke xin!! even if u dun owe it to urself or ur mum, u owe it to mi, at the very least, to keep it neat k?
if not, i'll go shoppin with u n encourage u to buy so many clothes again dat they wun fit into ur closet n instead cause ur closet to collapse!!**





haha... i'm so "evil"..

hmm.. think i need a wardrobe makeover too.. anyone willin to sponser mi?? heehee.. =)

 
CaT cat purred at 10:59 PM
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well, this is another pic dat i came across while helpin my bro research for his art.. itz actually a steel wire sculpture of a ballerina doin a pirouette.. this pic calls out to mi coz i like dance. also, i think this is a good expression of ballet, a dance form which requires loads of discipline n strength to present the grace n beauty we see in the movements.. so, this sculpture, in my opinion, shows the perfect balance between steely strength n grace.

todae's lit paper was alrite i guess.. think i loads of crap n was merely phrasin the same pts in different ways in my essays.. (-_-lll dun tell mi i can make it coz i was supposedly the top lit student for midyrs.. coz, i still think dat was sheer luck.. haiz.. anyway, hope it'll come out well n dat i can do better for the other 2 lit papers.. even if i dun excel in any other subjects, lit is one which i must do well in, if only for my pride n self-confidence.. :p coz if i can't even do well in it, i might juz lose all confidence in my academic abilities.. lit means dat much to mi.

anyway, met up with tri after our papers.. went for lunch at the mac new heartland mall with his classmates.. after dat, they went their own way n we headed for P.S coz i was in the mood for catchin a movie.. whahaha.. here's the surprise.. guess wat we watched???





















THE GHOST!!!!!!!!!!



haha.. for those who noe mi well enough, u shld noe dat i simply hate horror movies n haf zero immunity to even the mildest horror flick coz it'll juz turn mi into a paranoid wreck for ages, as i jump at even my own shadow.. (-_-lll datz how much i can't stand horror flicks.. due to my hyperactive imagination dat will scare mi more than the movie did.. haha... so, wat made mi agree to watch it upon his request/ fervent pleadin?? (-_-???



i was feelin generous n kind-hearted n so, sad to sae, i relented.. (x_x)

anyway, it "wasn't dat scary", coz i was LISTENING the show n NOT WATCHIN it.. think i watched less than 1/8 of the show n the rest of the time was spent tryin to turn myself into the tightest ball of nerves u can ever, possibly, find on a cinema chair, eyes closed n ears covered by his hands, as my own 2 hands were too busy gripin on to his shirt.. haha... yes, he was feelin threatened coz his shirt felt like it might simply tear, n i was tryin not to pull off his buttons with my death-grip.. =)




imagine the tension.





haha... anyway, dat show must have been quite scary despite mi not thinkin so *ahem*, coz there were screamin all around mi, n even he was abit stunned at some pt.. :p n juz listenin to the soundtrack was enough to make mi jump n grip his shirt tighter as i got tenser n cuddled myself in his side, curled into an even tighter bundle of nerves.. (-_-lll haha.. u can sae we were quite a comical side but no one was bothered coz y? they were too busy, tryin to peek between their fingers n withdrawin in fright, to notice!! haha... oopz! so, anyone who's out for a gd horror flick with loads of scares, this is the one.. no C&A coz i dun understand korean n din wanna read the subtitles coz dat wld mean lookin at the screen n watchin the show.. (-_-lll





anyone still sittin in a state of amazement frm the fact dat i caught a horror flick?? =)

anyway, think i've provided u with enough laughs at my expense.. haha.. so, to conclude, i'll juz sae..


it was quite a gd dae. =)

 
CaT cat purred at 11:25 PM
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for my fellow lit mates, dun u think this pic is reminiscent of Antony & Cleopatra? with itz sheer opulence, decadence n exhitbitionism.. it is excessive n sensual, like a modern representation of Antony & Cleopatra.. well, this is actually the ad for Dior's latest scent, Pure Poison. haha.. =)


hmm.. todae's econs was tantamount to a huge crappin marathon.. (-_-lll n i guess, i've achieved a higher level of crappin, since, for once, i managed to crap so much for it!!! haha... quite funnie.. :p but den i haf a warped sense of humour so u might juz think i'm nuts.. for once, i managed to write at least 4 pgs for each essay qn!! so, dat makes 12pgs of crap rite? since i haf to do 3 qns..











NO!!


it was 13pgs of crap coz for one of the qns, i wrote 5pgs!!! wahhaha.. verbal diarrhoea!!! (this is the correct spellin, coz i checked it in the dictionary) n, wat does this show?? i have the stamina for writin essays, but if i do write less than the full 4 pgs, itz coz i dun haf the content.. oopz! i can now picture Ting's look af sheer agony as she struggles to endure the torture of readin my 13pgs of nonsensical crap.. :p quite poor thing, i haf to admit..


*champion, u noe u'll do fine.. u can't shake my faith in u like dat u noe? haha.. =)


nice weather todae.. it was pouring when i woke up at 11.20.. den tri msged mi askin if i've finished studyin.. ermz.. is dat implyin dat i did actually study?? (O_O) but i dun think i did.. oopz! haha.. anyway, i told him it was raining reallie hard over here n in the end, he took a cab down frm his house to pick mi up before goin for lunch together at heartland.. for those who r thinkin "wat abt wat happened last nite dat got u so devastated??!!" well, the thing is, i'm not gonna bother anymore. i'll juz go with the flow n go with wateva he wans.. i give up tryin to make my point, i give up havin my stand in this relationship. read my lips (*ahem* not literally) FORGET IT. frm now on, anything dat i'm not happie abt, datz my mantra. n for those who wanna restore my faith, give it up. i can see this whole thing crystal clear, in all itz angles. i noe by wat he did todae, it shows he cares. i wun deny dat pt, so no need to remind mi of it n sae i'm too harsh or anything.


enough of the angst.. tmr's lit paper 1.. can anyone tell mi wat lit paper one is?? (x_x) i forgot. oopz! this juz shows wat a "marvellous" student i am rite.. gosh.. i think i stopped n gave up studyin a mth after the dae i entered jc. well nw, itz time to start..

before, i put in the least minimum effort.. nw, itz gotta be my maximum.




the catch/ smallprint?

>>after the prelims.

haha.. =)

 
CaT cat purred at 7:09 PM
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mi n my olive tinted shades.. for a nicer pic *ahem* pls scroll down to view yesterdae's pic............







*gotcha* i juz tricked u into seein another pic of mine!!!! haha.. :p

guess i'm still stuck with my renewed craze with shades.. doesn't it look cool??!!

alrite.. i can see u frantically/ fervently shakin ur head in protest.. guess this 2 pics must haf traumatised u quite abit.. =) wat to do? i'm goin nuts frm everything n wishin i can slip into denial n hopefully get away frm this life.. i want to die. or rather, disappear frm this life n lead a different one for awhile.. like a brand new person, totally different. but, can i? there r too many stuff holdin mi back, boggin mi down.





~my wings are clipped,
the skies not mine to roam
the sights limited for my view.
Yet I yearn,
for what I gave away from myself,
my bonds like a gilded cage,
in which I’m held captive
by myself more than anyone.~




dat was an extract frm a poem i wrote.. n i juz realised dat i haven't posted any of my writings for quite awhile.. did anyone miss readin them?? haha.. for my (supposedly) better works, pls look in my archives under the month of august.. muz scroll rite down though.. coz early august was when i posted most of the poems n one short story.. :p lookin back now, it all seems like so long ago, when in reality, onli a month have passed... but they r still a gd read i guess, emotional n even angsty, as compared to readin the daily events of my life, which can get rather boring n mundane.. i also realised dat i've moved away frm wantin to draw comments with my dark persona to my current lackadaisical yet more natural take on bloggin now.. itz not to sae dat my darker side was a deliberately projected image, but rather, itz not as overwhelmin now.. anyway, if u do read my poems/stuff, pls comment!! haha.. =)

was watchin the sky in the afternoon.. dark skies, thunder, foreboding heavy rain.. there was an ominous quality to it.. dragged my spirits down.. this kind of weather always make mi wish dat i'm cuddled somewhere with him.. i need the companionship or i'll slip into depression.. i can already feel itz claws sinkin in.. the jaws closin in.. grey surrounds mi.

he seems to be comtemplatin goin overseas for his university studies.. i noe i shld not be surprised but the idea never fails to make mi feel unsettled.. i'm so tempted to ask, "wat abt mi? u r happie leavin mi? leavin mi behind by myself?" i can't imagine him not bein around.. n the thought juz saddens mi.. if he does, wat will i do? am i willin to carry on with this relationship, noein how hard it'll get? will he take dat decision away frm mi n sae we shld part? wat will happen? he cldn't even tell mi where he'll be on christmas this yr.. will i be left to my own devices again, while waitin for his return frm wherever he'll be? or will i be grapplin with "us" ended? will i ever get to spemd christmas with him? i'm so fraught with insecurities but he doesn't noe.. n if he noes, will he care? will he reassure mi? will he comfort mi? how long will we last? dat is the ultimate qn.. where r we headed for??


there's a crow restin on the window sill outside my room..
it looks as lonely as i feel..
i look again
alas! it's gone.


 
CaT cat purred at 10:15 PM
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pink shades! haha... my shades always meet with freak accidents!!! kaoz.. nw dun dare to buy anything too expensive coz they'll end up.......................











*crack!*











haha.... :p oh well... hist paper 1 todae... haha.. as horrible as i had envisaged.. :p the 3hrs seemed like centuries!!! can die! (-_-lll super sian.. thank god champion told mi to read on napoleon n i did.. abit anyway.. =) thanx champion! *muackz* shall buy u choc toblerone after the premlims.. in the meanwhile, i shall not jeopardise ur health in case it affects ut performance for prelims.. haha..

was drizzlin when i walked home frm the bus stop.. nice weather!!! i love this kind of weather.. when the sunshine is mild n not glarin.. when there is light drizzle.. when the wind have juz the right mount of chilliness, mussin my hair as i walk.. when the whole world juz seems to glisten with dew (or rather, raindrops) n everything seems so fresh, clean n new! itz refreshin.. esp when u've juz finished a 3hr long killer paper n feel like u r disintegratin as u walk.. :p

alrite! shall not wax lyrical abt rain n nice weather anymore.. can see u rollin ur eyes n goin "yeah rite.. stop actin all fantasy like n dreamy.. this is not some taiwanese drama...".. haha.. :p


anyway, joel gave mi a reallie nice line last nite, bfore chasin mi off msn..
joel: " repeat history dun change it"
haha.. makes sense huh.. shld show this quote to The Terror so he can use on his future history students.. :p

fell aslp in the afternoon.. woke up all groggy n feverish feelin.. guess i haf to eat more fruits n veggie, as well as drink even more water in order not to fall sick.. not to mention cuttin down on late nites.. (-_-lll

 
CaT cat purred at 10:39 PM
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so.. this pic is titled "wake mi up" by itz artist.. which is how i feel now.. if prelims is a bad dream, u can wake mi up now.. i've had enough!!! (-_-lll wanted to put a pic of mi wearin shades to hide my puffy eye, but unfortunately, i din take the pic! oopz.. haha.. i'm sure u r not disappointed though.. :p

oh well.. gp was tough.. the essay qn i chose reads " Findin a suitable life partner is not easy today." Discuss with reference to your society. i wrote a super crappy essay.. n watz more, loads of ppl chose this qn, which means dat to do well, u haf to be reallie outstandin n shine!!! it'll be a miracle if i can still see my name in the fifth position in the cohort for gp this time round.. i was juz lucky durin midyrs.. (-_-lll kill mi pls.. n tmr is my most dreaded subject, history.. imagine sittin there for 3 hrs straight, tryin to churn out 4 essays when ur mind keeps drawin a blank.. esp when juz for one paper, u haf at least 4 lect bks to read n memorise.. misson impossible!! pls, kill mi!!! i juz wanna die..

anyway, went over to tri's house to study.. figured if i stay at home, i'll simply fall aslp.. (-_-lll well, i guess it was a lost battle.. i ended up dozin off quite a few times anyway.. haha.. reminded mi of the time i was tryin to study for hist o'levels.. i was readin the textbk n dozin off every few minutes, onli to wake again abit later to continue where i left off.. watz miraculous was, i managed to get an A despite the way i kept fallin aslp, n dat i onli read thru the textbk once.. amazin huh.. haha.. everyone was stunned.. esp mi.. :p one word to sum it up? madness. haha..

haiz.. he told mi to be more approachable to his family.. but todae, i smiled at his sis when we bumped into her in the lift.. n she sorta glared at mi.. the word "hi" dried up in my throat instantly.. saded..

my eye is much better, thank u very much! =) juz dat itz burnin frm all the smoke caused by the burnin of incense n paper offerings..


tri burned a cd for mi.. n the songs r all those dat i like! haha.. for once.. :p oopz.. but datz the truth lah.. thanx dear! thanx for the effort.. i appreciate it.. =)


n i made a pact with joel last nite.. like the one in My Best Friend's Wedding.. haha.. shall document it here so dat there'll be proof in the future! :p


todae was an okie dae.. but,



i still hope tmr wun come...


 
CaT cat purred at 10:10 PM
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came across this pic when helpin my bro research for his art.. :p liked the words at the base of the sculpture.. meaningful.. =)

gee.. my eyelid is still swollen.. almost cldn't open my right eye this mornin.. manda, i can almost see u tryin to curb urself frm naggin at mi to go see the doc.. haha.. been applyin chrysanthemum on it the whole dae n downed loads of water.. mum even bought a bottle of eyedrops for mi but to no avail.. sheesh.. if itz still swollen tmr, i'll consider wearin shades to skool.. :p cool huh.. haha.. no i'm not kiddin.. i'm a frightful sight..

i hate, hate, hate, eyedrops.. i'm super scared of gettin liquid in my eyes.. esp eyedrops.. mum had a hard time coaxin mi to open my eyes when she was tryin to apply the eyedrops for mi.. yes. i noe i'm actin like a big kid but i can't help it rite.. sheesh.. how wld u react noein dat something is gonna drip into ur eye? u'll blink like mad rite?! n datz wat i did.. whahaha.. nw mum n bro r goin on n on abt mi wastin the eyedrops.. (-_-lll pls kill mi..

hmm.. juz found out dat mum n dad will be goin on holidae sometime next mth.. n wat does dat imply??






HAVOC!!!!!






whahaha.. =) kiddin.. hmm.. prelims start tmr.. die.. i'm so dead.. die-ed.. (-_-lll guess i better go read some notes now.. wish mi luck for my paper n dat i wun look like a lopsided goldfish tmr!

 
CaT cat purred at 9:24 PM
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came across the pics of these dolls while browsin thru a magazine.. cute!!! haha.. will anyone buy them for mi?? :p

woke up todae at 12 noon, with my right eyelid swollen.. *ouchie* argh!! nw my double eyelid is soooo.. deformed.. gee.. i'm a frightful sight.. u can actually see the very big difference between the proportions of my two eyelids.. i hope it'll heal by tmr.. dun wanna scare anyone n affect their gp grades.. =) itz hurts at the slightest touch, when i blink, n even when i dun blink! haha.. i'm statin the obvious, i noe! but take pity on mi k?









n NO! I DIN SEE ANYTHING DAT I SHLDN"T!!! SO, U CAN SCRAP THE IDEA NOW!!!








alrite alrite..
except maybe Joel's (not frm sr!) very nice abs frm the pics he posted online.. oopz.. but he was fully clothed!!!
:p whahaha.. i'm turnin into such a nutcase nowadaes.. itz rather scary..


was watchin "The Next Big Thing" on channel U juz nw.. can anyone tell mi y the candidates had to learn wushu n be judged on it?? watz an idol got to do with wushu?? r u tellin mi dat peeps like Jolin Tsai or even Faye Wong noes wushu??? i reallie can't find a connection.. true, they've got to be talented, but surely they dun haf to be superhumans? i think datz stretchin things abit far.. n i thought the definition for idol/ou xiang is to be reasonably attractive n talented.. guess they haf to add kung fu to their repertoire now.. :p



anyone noes how to get rid of the swellin? i've been downig so much water but it doesn't seem to be workin.. is it an infection?




*gasp*



how am i gonna face the world?!




haha.. datz so bimbotic... :p

n, will anyone buy mi Dior's new perfume- Pure Poison??? =)


 
CaT cat purred at 11:10 PM
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hmm.. the comic character James!! cute! haha... find dat this strip makes quite abit of sense.. =) so, enjoy!

went to orchard library n tried to study.. Tri came to join mi n we had lunch at yoshinoya before headin back to the library.. i still can't sort of settle down to study.. think my prelims will be a flop..








total washout..







champion, i can see the look of sheer horror on ur face nw.. haha.. :p


after we (or, mi rather) got fed up with bein cooped up in the library for hours, we went off n walk around town.. this is only after i sorta lost my temper abit at him.. dun ask y.. dun wanna go into it.. settled down on a bench along the streets outside taka n 'people-watched'.. interestin... =) i like observin ppl.. after, we walked around again before headin to the coffeeshop near my house for dinner.. n news! iman's goin off tmr..

anyway, i wrote a little something for one of my frens last nite.. a very dear fren indeed.. :p manda, see if u can guess frm readin it?? haha.. =)



~soft spot~

u used to be the only one
the vision in her eyes
the single flame dat burns n shines
bright in her life
she could see no one besides u
nobody else but u
but in ur life she was nothin more
than another moth
attracted to light

years pass n u drifted apart
but she holds ur memory dear
though this moth haf found her light
urs remains clear
dimmed though it may be
no longer searing white
the soft glow warms her heart
like a gentle touch
and she sees in there
right on the softest part
a chair standing there
with ur name engraved
u'll always haf
a soft spot in her heart.

nice? =) think itz the only sweet poem i've ever written so far..

 
CaT cat purred at 11:52 PM
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well.. the bearie u see in the this pic is the new addition to the bearie family.. he's supposed to be purple/blue/red/pink.. a mish mash of those colours.. stupid lightin made him seem abit greenish too.. (-_-lll anyway, his name is Goth (due to the label on his side with the word "gothik"..) not a very imaginative name i guess, but itz definitely cooler than "purply" rite? :p


n, itz not ugly, so, keep those words to urself or i'll get mad..

pls scroll down to read my proper post for the dae.. =)


 
CaT cat purred at 8:43 PM

this pic consists of (frm the left) : Goth, Mr Yellow/ Huang Xian Sheng, Te-Li-Yi, n Prince.

Huang Xiang Sheng is named after Tri, n is the first bear he gave mi.. it was for my bdae last yr..
Te-Li-Yi (the winnie the pooh) is also named after Tri, the chinese pronunciation of his name anyway.. :p he was given to mi for Valentines' Dae this yr..
Prince (the blue bear with a crown, duh) was bought for myself to remind mi of him.. i bought a 'Princess' bear for Tri too, so dat the bears make a couple.. =)




wonderin abt the heart with arms??

itz the first gift dat Tri gave mi when we got together.. =)


so, u've been introduced to the bearie family.. aren't they adorable?? (even if u dun think so, shove ur comments. i dun need to noe, nor wanna noe)

juz got home frm meetin up with waifu.. hmm.. wat can i sae? he lost weight.. went to popular with him coz he wanted to buy staionary.. den we went on to NTUC to do a spot of grocery shoppin coz he wanted to find some stuff.. the funnie thing was, we ended up leavin empty handed.. haha.. :p after dat, accompanied him to find this cake shop in amk ave 10.. before we went our own way= home..

it was gd seein him.. think he changed.. lots of jokes dat r so cold, u'll be stunned speechless.. he seems more cheerful now.. not as moody as he was in the past.. i think i still have a soft spot for him, n dat soft spot, i think, will never go away.. i see him, n get reminded of all the possibilities in the past.. at wat can never be.. he brings on the wistfulness dat i thought i've buried, the heartache dat i thought was long gone.. haiz.. i can sae, his future gf, whomever she may be, will be a lady worth my envy.. his ideas, dat he'll only date someone whom he'll want to marry, n his promise to himself dat he wun send any other gals except his gf home (though he's single nw) shows mi juz how special dat gal will be in his heart, when he does find her.. n i can sae. itz not easy to be in his heart.. some can try, but never get there...

=)


 
CaT cat purred at 8:39 PM
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lo and behold!! my wonderful handwritin.. looks abit blurred coz i simply can't sharpen it enough on the scanner.. but still, pls tell mi i haf nice handwritin.. =)
it is a sort of prelude to my post, so, if u can, try to read wat i wrote.. haha..





*manda, stop feelin happie dat there's no pic of a purple bear.. i swear it'll be up tmr, along with the rest of the bearie family, names included.. :p*





haiz.. i seem be to leadin a life TOO full of emotional ups n downs.. itz no fun bein on an emotional rollercoaster ride.. itz no picnic.. =(
can u believe it? we sat at the bench in marina bay mrt station, watchin almost 10 trains pass us by before we got up on one.. it was my choice i guess.. coz i dun relish cryin on the mrt n being seen by so many ppl..

coz as much as i will the tears not to fall, they defy me..

i'm so drained... how much longer can i go on??


~i'm teethering on the edge, between love and hate~

nice line?? haha.. itz mine.. :p



dun ask mi if i'm fine, coz the answer is no.
dun ask mi wat happened, i'm too tired to recount.
dun sae all will turn out fine
dun tell mi wat is already on my mind
i dun wanna noe.....

 
CaT cat purred at 11:47 PM
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