Lure

i will not succumb to temptations!!!!!!

i'm embarkin on a diet!!! haha.. for the first time in my life so far.. :p frm todae onwards, i'm gonna onli eat food datz cooked by boilin.. at home.. sounds abit scary?? think it shld be healthier as compared to all the oil dat i've been consumin frm all the stir-fried food.. whahha... veggies!!! i'm even contemplatin the idea of goin joggin tmr morning... if i do carry out dat idea, think it'll be the first time i've jogged in the past 1yr.. (x_x)

wonder how long i'll stick to the diet..

anyway, cleared out abit of my closet todae.. gave my cousin a couple of long skirts dat i no longer wear.. well.. n most of those were relatively new.. muz have worn them for at most 3 times each.. (-_-lll hmm.. since they dun look gd on mi anymore... better give them away to someone who might give them more exposure than i will.. :p haha.. dun ask y i bought them in the first place.. anyway, nw dat the old stuff r cleared out, that implies new stuff wld be on the way!!! haha... shoppin!!! after the exams.. =) think datz the first thing dat all girls wanna do after the exams..

he called again juz nw!! =) dunnoe if he'll be callin back coz my dad called halfway thru our short conversation.. n i had no choice but to hang up n hand the phone over to my mum.. darn.. =(

n a correction.. the first thing dat i wanna do after exams is to hang out with him n go any n everywhere.. :p

in the meanwhile... i'll consider if i'll go joggin tmr mornin, n try to stick to my diet..


*i ought to get a weighin scale... (-_-lll




CaT cat purred at 10:49 PM
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GlowWorms..

a tad small but, doesn't this pic give a sense of tranquility n magic, as though someone had sprinkled fairydust over it..

dun think likewise? u've got no finer sense of imagination den.. hahaha.. :p

hmm.. juz got home frm my cousin's chalet again.. my eldest cousin's bdae todae.. went in the noon with my bro n 2 younger cousins.. figured dat if i go, i wun be doin anything by myself.. so, might as well bring them along.. afterall, the more the merrier.. n i think they'll appreciate being able to get out by themselves n have some fun.. haha.. so, i did them the favour.. :p thikn they had alot of fun n quite enjoyed themselves, despite abit of unhappiness when they got back frm Escape.. well, the fact is, it wasn't reallie their fault.. it was juz coz of a single person's selfishness n irresponsibility, despite bein the oldest among their grp, carryin the most authority.. i'm quite aghast at that person's lack of consideration for her younger cousins, n the authority of her elders' decisions, as well as her elder bro's (bdae guy) request..

bought 2 dozens of beer on my cousin's behalf todae.. whahha.. the cashier asked for my identification card, as though half expectin mi to slink away frm guilt dat i'm not of age yet.. OOPZ!!! haha.. i told him i dun have my I/C with mi, n he gave the "i-expected-that" look..den, i fished out my EZlink card instead.. hahah.. did he really think i'll be so bold to buy alcohol when i so obviously dun look 18?? esp since i had my hair in 2 ponytails, at the sides of my head.. i probably looked not a dae older than 15.. (-_-lll

anyway, i realised time have the tendency to pass without you knowin, when at a holidae resort.. itz as though time simply pass u by.. i suppose datz esp so, since u r in a relaxed mode, not expectin to rush anywhere.. i liked the feelin of not havin to frantically rush to do things, to juz do everything at ur own time, leisurely.. i like the feelin of not havin to think abt anything except watz around u, to take in the sights n sounds, the wind in ur hair, the drizzle on ur face, the smell of charcoal burnin, bein able to wander everywher n anywhere, as n when u like it.. there is a sense of carelessness, or rather, carefree-ness, dat is very alluring.. made mi hope dat i'll get to go to a chalet with tri, coz i hope to get the chance to experience dat carefree-ness with him, esp so since we r all stressed up now.. i hope i can go with him, so that i'll get to spend every single minute by his side, sharin the same experiences. i want a bond with him, in a place where we r the onli thing/ ppl we concentrate on, n r concerned abt. i want to go there, n experience how it is to be the centre of his world, his attention.. =)

anyway, glad to noe i've taken considerably good care of my bro n my cousins todae, as well as the fact dat they had fun.. =)




CaT cat purred at 11:55 PM
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whahhaha.... mi n my act cute pic!!! :p

it looks abit blur coz the original one looks kinda grainy, so i blurred it abit to remove the grainy effect.. n my eyes look bluey again.. :p


hmm.. juz got home frm my cousin's bdae chalet.. it was kinda borin coz not alot of ppl went.. hopefully, tmr will be better..


YAY!!!! HE CALLED!!!! =)

wasn't reallie expectin it, though i got the feelin dat he'll call todae.. =) gd instincts huh?! :p haha... happie!! itz not normal for a gf to be so happie juz coz of a phone call frm her bf rite? esp when they've been together for 1yr+.. (-_-lll but i can't help it!! either i'm easily contented or........ haha.. no lah.. he treats mi perfectly fine.. :p

borin dae but gd.. coz he called.. =)



CaT cat purred at 11:58 PM
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Faery Queen.. who are you waiting for?


boring dae at home.. parents came back last nite, or rather this morning, at around 1+am.. :p like i predicted, they came back luggin bottles n bottles of wine.. duty-free shop, "bu mai bai bu mai".. haha.. hmm.. they bought a silver bangle for mi too, with the chinese character for "prosperity" engraved on it. my mum came n put it on for mi.. reminded mi of when i was a kid n my mum wld dress mi up.. =) they also bought lotsa handmade hp accessories, made frm porcelain n stuff.. very exquisite yet cheap. was tellin them dat wat they bought for onli a few cents each could easily fetch abt triple the price here.. :p n my hyperactive business acuement berated them for not buyin back more.. (-_-lll

anyway, gd to noe they had fun.. they stocked the fridge full with persimons.. (x_x) apparently they bought back a crate of it.. my god.. got a shock when i first saw them in the fridge.. apparently i'm not over the trauma of havin to draw persimons for art in sec 2.. haha...

so, had a very borin dae.. i miss him. his parents came back yesterdae too.. so nw, not onli do we not get to meet, even the phone is off bounds.. =( saded.. zero contact at all.. i haven't heard of any gfs who r so cut off frm their bfs before.. have u? i dunnoe whether to be amused at my predicament or get depressed.. guess i'll juz wait it through patiently.. no pt broodin..


Dear, if u r readin this, I MISS YOU!!!! (yes yes, i'm not afraid to let the whole world noe..) =)





n i hope u miss mi too...



though i'm not a faery queen, i'm waitin too..




CaT cat purred at 10:37 PM
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Stalker

another in the line of disturbing pics i've been postin.. =) those who've spoken to mi on msn will be quite familiar with this pic.. wat u wun noe is dat i use it as my display pic onli when i'm in a particularly vengeful, angry n sadistic mood..

well, din sleep a wink last nite.. was up til 6+ this mornin, playing solitaire showdown with him on msn, frm 12+.. :p hahah... incorigible gamblers huh??? haha... was kinda surprised to find dat i wasn't at all tired when he finally decided to go to slp at abt 7.. dat was despite my 7 hrs sleep (onli) yesterdae morning.. :p it was kinda fun to noe dat i've been awake the whole dae, before everyone went to slp, until when they have woken up frm a good nite's slp.. it was reallie nice watchin the pitch black darkness outside my window palin into the brightness of dae. it was interestin hearin the first bus of the dae pull up at the bus stop near my flat, markin the start of a new dae. =) i like bein awake where everyone is aslp. but den, i'm also scared of goin to slp.. afraid i can't get to slp..

anyway, took a short nap frm 7+ to 12+, driftin into slumber to the blanket-muffled sounds of the radio, turned down low. =) n i'm totally awake the whole dae!! seems like i've messed up my biological clock bad. haha.. i dun feel slp deprived!! =) but i woke up to a reallie bad stomach cramp dat lasted the whole of todae.. (x_x)





pain..... (@_@)




hmm.. seems like my parents will be back frm ShenZhen tonite.. i can predict dat my dad will be luggin back bottles of wine.. haha.. can't wait.. =) *rubs hands in anticipation* hmm.. should have asked them to buy a bottle of perfume for mi.. :p





CaT cat purred at 6:55 PM
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Cute Little Dead Girl..

though itz juz a doll, i'm sure itz enough to make u feel uncomfortable.. *evil laughter* i seem to be doin a rather good job of grossin people off frm readin.. as seen frm the decreasin number of tags i'm getttin.. =(

itz been said dat the average life span of a blog is around 9 mths, coz the writer will either get bored, or think dat less n less people are readin n so, lose interest in writin.. but for mi, i dun think i will.. coz y?? i'm too talkative!!! haha... what i dun sae verbally, i think. n my brain has got a limited capacity.. oopz.. so i need this space to unload my thoughts..

went for dinner with my grannie, uncle, and auntie.. hmm.. the dinner emphasised to mi, my estrangement frm my relatives.. there's a gap dat i dunnoe how to close.. but den, y wld i need to close it? the awkwardness dat wld ensue, i dunnoe how to handle.. after all, like my uncle said, i dun noe how to engage in social small talk or niceties..

anyway, i dun need to have alot of people around mi, juz a few dat i need n can always count on. =)




cute little dead girl.. so adorable, so bright n pretty, with her blood n white hair, blank eyes rimmed with red.. red bow n stars. red, red lips, scarlet. white, white face, so dead.



CaT cat purred at 10:35 PM
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does the pic above makes u feel queasy?? yep, u saw right. itz a bonzai kitten, which is essentially, the sculpting of kittens into different forms by squishin them into containers n lettin them take the shape of the container.. to get more info, u can visit http://www.bonsaikitten.com.. the idea is sick, but still, rather interestin..

anyway, finally got to meet up with him!!! =) he had his physics prac todae n so i went to Heartland Mall to wait for him.. after havin lunch at the Mac there, we headed to town n caught a movie. The Manchurian Candidate is a show with depth n suspense.. kk.. i noe.. this is not the time to advertise a movie, nor to go for a movie.. but, we reallie needed to spend the time together after not seein each other for 1 week+.. or rather, mi. dunnoe abt him.. :p figured dat at the most, we'll onli walk around abit before he had to head home.. (house arrest, remember?) so was happie when he suggested we catch a show..

had a nitemare last nite, but have gotten a reassurance. it all seems so fragile to mi, like all i have is a tenuous hold, which can slip anytime. but i'm never lettin go. n the reassurance i got tells mi i wun be alone. =)


 
CaT cat purred at 10:38 PM
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Glass Coffin..

feel so tired n sick.. headachy n nauseous.. =( feel like i've onli slpt for a very short time, though datz not the case.. sian... depressed.. felt abit dizzy last nite, before i went to slp..

the world seems hazy when we r sick.. things seems to pass in a surreal flash of blurry memories.. n itz hard to differentiate where each thought ends.. think i'll have an early nite tonite, n hopefully feel more rested tomorow..

i seem to be rather incoherent..

 
CaT cat purred at 8:08 PM
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Which Depressed Icon Is You? by drunkaholic
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well.. the varied answers dat i got frm this quiz using different parts of my name.. :p i noe i'm abit bo liao by doin this.. haha.. found this frm my fren's zorpia.. interestin.. =) onli pity is dat i can't view the pic for "catherine", so i din put it here.. like the first cartoon.. so cute!!! haha...

CaT cat purred at 10:54 PM

cold touch



i think i have a physical illness. my hands turn cold when i'm upset. it didn't use to be that way. that didn't happen in the past. what have changed?



ambiguity. do you see it?




CaT cat purred at 4:39 AM
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Possessed..

dat is mi when i finally get to work..

n.. i think i'm finally quite awake...

been writin notes on totalitarianism for half the dae.. hope it helps get the facts in my head.. n i'm hopin i can finish writin notes on the lect bk by todae.. even if i might have to go without slp.. i need to call up the workaholic in mi!!

speakin of bein a workaholic, i recall the time i worked in QOO.G at Far East Lvl One.. it was straight after Christmas '02 dat i got the job, after an impromptu walk-in interview where the ladyboss apparently took a likin to mi n hired mi straight away.. :p dat marked my workaholic daes.. havin no workin experience before dat, it was kinda excitin.. but as usual, reality was harsher.. i worked under another gal initially, at one of the branches.. (they had 4 branches in Far East alone, back den) we shared the same name n dat shld have created a bond between us but, i quickly learned my first lesson, not to trust people easily. she was the ladyboss's favourite due to her glib, honeyed tongue. a regular backstabber, i rmbed i was once asked to answer the ladyboss's call n got reprimanded for being too quiet around customers. well, the very stressed out mi headed to the toilet n cried, bein unable to hold back the tears.. i learnt dat being sincere doesn't reallie do the trick, n dat i have to be aggressive in pullin sales. dat got mi so stressed dat for as long as i worked in dat branch, i cldn't slp well. bein under Cat's constant scrutiny, my nerves were raw. thank god for my other 2 colleagues who took care of mi.. nifor my transfer to another branch around the corner, in Feb.. =)

chinese new year '03 came around n people thronged into our shop. endless. my usual workin hours frm 11am-9pm, were stretched to beyond 11, n even 12 at times. one particular saturday, the same dae my mum n bro visited mi at my workplace, i went without food the whole dae, due to the never-endin flow of customers.. needless to sae, i broke down n went to the toilet, callin up manda n sayin i wanna quit, dat i cldn't take it anymore. haha.. she told mi dat i cld quit anytime i wanted, y torture myself? i dun need the money. i was only there to gain experience n spend my time, til we get our O's results. dat was the day i realised dat i shld juz take it easy, n do wat i can. i made the decision to stick around for only as long as i cld take. i wanted to see how far my limits can be pushed.

lots of stuff happened until i had to quit to prepare to enter JC.. shall talk abt them another dae. but the truth was, i pushed myself farther than i thought i could go, while workin there. i was the onli salesgal there who worked for 3 mths, without takin any off daes or leave at all. yesh. dat means i worked for 7daes, every week, for dat 3 mths, full time. 11am-10pm was my average workin hours. amazing as compared to the 6-daes-week dat the other gals worked.. din think i wld stick around dat long, din think i wld miss workin there. din noe i cld be such a workaholic (even manda complained i worked too much..)

thinkin back, i think it was rather scary, crazy n funnie.. but i've got an immense sense of pride abt it!! whahha.. earned quite alot (all spent nw) my style of workin non-stop is nutz!!! (x_x) wat pushed mi on? my stubborness, my wantin to push my own limits, to see what wld make mi break.

hmm.. but if the money wasn't gd, n if it din turn out fun after my transfer to another branch n my (mostly) wonderful colleagues, i think i wld have packed n left much earlier.. =)

my adventures as a workaholic salesgal shall be continued another dae! :p


 
CaT cat purred at 6:54 PM
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Solitude...

to me,

loneliness is but a state of mind. what's the difference between solitude n loneliness? one can sae that solitude is a choice, while loneliness is not. when u r by urself, n u enjoy the personal space dat u have, it means dat what u r experiencin is solitude, not loneliness.

loneliness is something which makes u feel colder than ever, as though u r in a prison of ur own, where u can't get out, nor can people reach u, despite ur need for companionship. u need not be physically alone to feel lonely. u juz have to feel emotionally or intellectually cut off frm everyone else, as though no one understands. loneliness is something much harsher, more biting n most hurtin. people feeling lonely tend to think the world dun care, n that they do not fit in. black is the colour of their depression, as they wonder why people leave them alone, uncaring. they tend to cry during the darker hours, n when itz rainin, think that the heavens are cryin with them too, for the state of loneliness they r in. their world is in a state of blues, greys, n black. they could start to hold a grudge for the world for not acceptin them. or they could change.

solitude is something u enjoy. a time u can use to reflect upon urself, n learn abt urself. when it rains, u'll think that the rain is cleansin the world, makin it brighter. the time spent alone is ur playmate, not ur warden. the world is painted in whimsical colours.

both states of mind stems from being alone. the difference is in the perception.




why does my perception tend towards the darker side? =(



CaT cat purred at 10:07 PM
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One's Own Constraint... love the corsetry.. =)

well, datz how the peeps around mi feel now.. i guess.. trapped by their own aims.

met up with manda todae n accompanied her to Toa Payoh to buy some skincare stuff n cosmetics.. haha.. i'm still eyein the SKII samples.. i'm gonna buy them!! (when i got the dough) =) lets see if all that advertisin is crap or reality.. haha.. in the meanwhile, i bought make-up remover frm Tsiao.. 2 more to go to finish buyin up the products in this range.. heehee..:p

after the shoppin, we went to sakae in toa payoh n ate our fill.. haha.. the manager there kept hoverin around dat we cldn't eat properly at first coz it felt like we were being watched.. *pengz* but still, we managed to 'wolf down' around 17-19 plates of sushi in total.. haha.. not too much rite?? i love the fried tofu there!! n i'm gettin increasingly hooked on wasabi.. (-_-lll manda was kinda sian-ed by my wasabi-eatin.. but u see, i get a kick out of the overpowerin hot-ness ('spiciness' is not even close enough a description). itz so thrillin dat i get a high.. haha.. but i seem to be gainin immunity on wasabi.. (-_-lll so, oopz!

we went to walk around in J8 too.. gosh.. the 2 of us went crazy in muji.. or rather, her. (-_-lll kaoz.. manda tried on so many hats n stuff while i played the maid, carryin the basket of stuff dat she wanted to buy.. okie.. there was onli the plastic case initially, so not dat bad.. but after dat, we added our bags in n gosh! it felt like we had gold bars in the basket.. (x_x) thank god i'm strong. whahhaha.. :p anyway, after all dat, we took a cab n went home.. she was kind enough to drop mi off along the way.. heehee.. =)

parents goin to shenzhen tmr on a tour.. shld i go send them off?? feels weird.. (x_x)

i'm in the backseat of his priorities.. haiz..

last piece of tidbit.. The Terror called mi this morn n i answered the phone half aslp n mumblin.. (-_-lll oopz.. haha... anyway, he was nice lah.. though i cldn't get back to slp after it n is currently sufferin frm slp deficit.. (x_x) coz y?? i was too shocked to slp.. haha.. his call worked better than an alarm clock.. :p

 
CaT cat purred at 10:54 PM
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Behold!! the latest range of skincare products dat i bought todae!! whahaha.. the brand is Tsaio, a Taiwanese product dat was launched by Jolin Tsai a few years back, n nw itz back, after a stop to itz supplies for quite awhile. itz not a very common brand but the price is relatively reasonable n the moisturiser is especially good. wanted to buy the sample size SKII products but decided to give this a try first. =) (manda, think u might be interested.. haha..)

anyway, a boring dae. tri is effectively under house arrest.

haha.. kiddin. itz juz dat his parents have passed the verdict dat he is to stay at home, with no visitors allowed, til after the A's.. (-_-lll gosh.. itz for his good i noe, but on a selfish point, i can't help feelin a distance that this brings up between us. somehow, deep down, i dun think he'll miss mi too much. n dat thought is saddenin.. so much so dat i noe better than to delve into dat train of thought. but i can't help feelin cast aside. =(

i onli hope dat itz true dat absence makes the heart grow fonder, for his case. i noe mine will, sad to sae.

PS: pls kindly use ur name or identifiable initials if u tag.

to "onlooker", i hope u dun ever get so absorbed "onlookin" dat u get knocked down by a bus or something. if u have the guts to criticise, have the guts to show ur name. n even if u wanna criticise, unconstructive criticisms like this, is NOT appreciated. thank you very much.





CaT cat purred at 10:26 PM
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the pic is titled Juicy, n i think it looks like some ad for cosmetics.. haha.. :p

this is the 2nd post for the dae, n it'll be abt food!!

went to the sakae at tiong bahru (manda's recommendation) with tri todae. had their sushi buffet.. =) haha.. nw, my craving for tuna have been temporarily assuaged.. gosh.. we ate so much!! 20+ plates of sushi n stuff.. *sigh of contentment* was so full dat we felt like throwin up after our lunch there!!! n both of us went without dinner.. haha... =) datz the extent of how full we were.. n to think he aimed for us to finish 33 plates.. *pengz* think if we reallie did dat, we wld have died frm indigestion on the spot.. (-_-lll

I LOVE TUNA!! =) whahaha.. n WASABI!!!

anyway, do give some comments for the poem in my first post.. thanx!

note to manda: u do noe mi well.. =)



CaT cat purred at 10:50 PM

the pic is titled Cast Me Aside. very apt.

this will be my first post for todae.


~tears

rivers flow
down her fresh made face.
twin tracks,
white across the rouge,
in wake.
smearing the porcelain,
lilies on cheeks.
they fall.



CaT cat purred at 1:56 PM
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pic is titled Black Session.


boring, boring dae.

 
CaT cat purred at 10:14 PM
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'Yani Got lost'.. adorable pic isn't it?? =)

itz been another downright boring dae n i feel like madame white snake.. (-_-lll





YESH!!! I'M STILL PEELIN!! DOES DAT MAKE U HAPPIE??!!!




oopz.. sorie for the outburst.. i need intense humidity n i need to go on diet.. =( maybe dat will make mi feel better abt myself..
i'm boring todae, ignore mi.. :p



CaT cat purred at 9:36 PM
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the pic here is titled Grand Piano.. isn't it lovely? haha.. by nw, u shld realise dat the pics i like often looks controversial.. :p

my skin is in a mess, n i've decided not to apply moisturiser for the time being.. instead, i shall rely on the moisture provided by the skin itself.. haha.. i give up.. :p anyway, tri keeps tryin to convince mi dat the peelin is gd n dat it allows new skin to surface.. (-_-lll yeah.. i noe ppl pay loads of money to get this effect, but, they peel the skin frm the whole face, not parts of it like mine is doin!! haha.. *pengz*



anyway, i forgot to go for the consultation with ms thiang.. (x_x) kaoz.. horrible rite?? die..



well, went over to his house todae to study.. fell aslp halfway.. oopz.. heehee.. n, i have an insatiable craving for tuna!!! (x_x) omg.. i wan sakae!! haha.. we went for dinner at the breeks in amk.. yummy!! when we wanted to foot the bill, we realised dat they dun accept nets.. n we got not enough cash!! (-_-lll it was kinda funnie.. the waiter was reallie nice abt it though.. =) very smiley.. so, he went to withdraw money at jubilee while i waited for him in breeks.. haha.. abit embarrassin but we laughed it off..

gd dae, juz dat i've got a touch of migraine.. :p muz be the lack of slp coz i slpt late n woke up early.. (-_-lll

 
CaT cat purred at 11:17 PM
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the pic is titled Pelin, which i figured is the name of the faerie.. this pic haf a calmin effect on my nerves, which i desperately need nw.. (-_-lll




argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

boring dae!! =(

stayed at home the whole dae n i'm bored to tears.. but anyway, i din feel like goin out todae coz my skin is in a mess.. (since there's nothing interestin happenin, figured i'll complain..) (-_-lll





"HUH?? AGAIN????" u sae.



"YES!!! AGAIN!!!" =(



my skin is so dry, i feel like a snake.. coz itz all peelin!! *gasp in horror* wat to do??? moisturiser dun seem to work.. or maybe mine is not gd enough..



WAH!!!!!! CRISIS!!!!! n to top it off, there's a breakout!! =( *sobz*


i shld go into hidin until my skin is normal again.. (x_x) n no! i'm not peelin coz i'm sunburnt.. i hate the sun remember?? =(

i feel so bummed..

anyway, i almost forgot to mention dat i committed murder juz nw.. (-_-lll

was helpin my mum iron my dad's shirts juz nw (see! such a dutiful daughter!).. juz when i was ironin a white shirt of his, i discovered a "brown spot" on his shirt, near the chest area..


GUESS WAT IS IT!!!

upon closer inspection, it looked like an ant!! haha.. or rather, a now flattened ant.. :p itz a wonder it wasn't burnt to a crisp.. hahah... gosh.. i told mum that i ironed an ant onto dad's white shirt n she was totally nonchalant abt it.. *pengz* :p hahaha... yep.. n so, the ant remained stuck on the shirt, even when i hung the shirt up.. so funnie!!!

alrite alrite.. i'm sadistic.. fine.. hmmpf! :p

CaT cat purred at 11:22 PM
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to anyone who might have been waitin, here's the 2046 poster pic finally.. =)

anyway. todae's Grad Dae, n a no-show frm mi.. i noe, i noe.. muz be thinkin i'm so heartless rite? wat to do? i onli slpt early this morning, n so cldn't wake up in time.. (-_-lll oopz.. sorie to Grace esp! feel like i've let u down in some way..

Tri got his wisdom tooth extracted todae.. gosh.. it was fast.. but he was in pain the whole dae.. poor thing.. n datz onli the upper one.. there's still the lower one to go.. (x_x) ouch.. had dinner with him at Edo Sushi in Cineleisure.. =) i love tuna n salmon!! haha.. n did i leave out mentionin wasabi?? think i'm gettin the hang of eatin wasabi, such dat, it has little impact on mi nw..

been kinda moody these few daes, i'm sorie dear. i'm tryin to control my mood swings.. reallie.. thanx for being so patient with mi.. love you! =)

well, this have been sufficiently boring.. so, ta~



CaT cat purred at 10:31 PM
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the pic is titled She Dances, a direct contrast to the character in the story below.. irony.. the pic for 2046 shall have to wait. i wan to share a story dat i wrote todae..




~She wasn't one to care about conventions. The things of which people hold in high importance, does not mark her.

Stranger

She couldn't wake up in time. Not again. Senses still blurred by sleep, she thought of her promise to her friend, that she'll be there todae. Mentally cursing herself, the painful reminder of having to collect her notes dragged her out of bed.

Peering into the mirror in her room, she couldn't help but cringe inwardly at the sight of her skin. Marred by blemishes and imperfections, it would take all her ingenuity and skills to conceal them, behind a carefully applied mask. A mask of porcelain and rose. While she used to enjoy the polished look of her masked skin, now, it was all a chore, meant to keep up the skindeep expectations that her world had of her. The illusion that she created, now gets on her nerves. But yet, she couldn't do without that layer of mask, blended so well, it appears welded to her skin.

Gazing at her own reflection, she pondered about her life. The infinite possibilites, thinking of another way out. She is sick of her current existence. She felt she didn't belong. Living a lie, compelled by duties, her empty existence mocks at her. From her past til now, it was as though she had fallen from God's grace.

Getting out of the cab, she was faced by an unfamiliar sight, that of people running around, seemingly having fun. As compared to the sombre atmosphere a week back, the air now seems to be charged with a sort of frantic energy, a vibrancy that was almost palpable. But still, she felt detached from it all. the energy didn't touch her, could not. There seems to be a bubble, encapsulating her, and in it was emptiness, a poor attempt at serenity.

Looking at the people around, she felt like an observer, who had never participated, in this life.




well, some nonsense dat i wrote while waitin for lit lect todae. solitude does this to mi. if u can't make head or tail out of it, itz alrite.. =)



CaT cat purred at 10:56 PM
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this is here to hopefully generate abit of laughs, despite the fact dat i've lost my sense of humour for todae.. for those who've already seen it, gd for u.


i'm so pissed i'm ready to murderlise!!!!!


>> "why?"


coz itz been a horrible dae! n the com is givin mi so many problems, itz gettin on my last nerve!


>> "why?" u ask again.


coz my com have been struck by a virus last nite! received it thru msn last nite, not knowin dat it was a goddamned virus n i opened the file!





BIG MISTAKE!!


it went on to send itself to everyone on my msn list, while i looked on, dumbstruck n wide-eyed as conversation boxes seem to take on a life of their own, openin n closing rapidly on my com screen. n there was nothing i cld do to stop it.. n nw, the virus seems to haf manifested itself in my com, n anyone who tries to speak to mi on msn will receive the virus, after which, i can't approach them at all, to explain wat happened..



to all those whom i've inadvertedly sent the virus to, due to my possessed com, i offer u my deepest, sincerest apologies. i'm reallie sorie. n i hope i din crash ur system, the way mine got crashed..


this morn, i woke up n switched on the com, thinkin dat i've already deleted the virus thingy in the wee hours in the morn..



I WAS WRONG!!!



there it was.. n i cldn't sign onto msn for almost the entire dae. den, juz when i thought i had it settled for the 2nd time, i restarted the com.....



and.........












the virus went "BOO!!!"


damn! so, i had to settle it for the 3rd time, n when i restarted the com in the evenin,














"BOO!!!" AGAIN!






goddamn it! n it went on the afflict anyone in my msn list who comes online. what is wrong with the stupid thing? can't it understand wat is, "go roll over n die?"


NO! but it sure noes how to play dead. FUCK!


nw, i'm at a lost.. com's possessed, wat to do? call a virus exorcist? wat the hell! if i ever get my hands on the person/it who started this (chances r, i wun), i'll tear dat person apart n feast on his/her/itz raw flesh. (did i mention literally 'rubbin salt in the wound' first? so dat he/she/it wld hurt so much, he/she/it will wish for perdition) =)

also, dun ever let mi see the numbers 32 n the words "run", as well as "dll" again.. esp in the same term. as well as the computer logo, n the words "funny" n "tastysoft".. coz y? the virus is shown as a program named "funny", by the company "tastysoft sd", represented by a com logo. dat "comedian-wannabe" virus, created by an "ice-cream-manufacturer-wannabe" company.. grrrrrrrrrr...

n datz not all to my bad dae.. i woke up with a new "unidentified popup" on my face,i tried signin into msn a hundred million times but to no avail, i knocked my arm against the table n scraped abit of skin off, i took a cold shower at nite coz i forgot to switch on the heater, i heard dat my classmate had an accident, along with his mum n sis (i hope u n ur family r fine).. wat more nasty happenings can occur?! i am so not gonna hold my breath n wait, coz for all u noe, i'll juz turn blue in the face n die frm axyphiation!

on a lighter note, i watched 2046. itz nice, except dat the version i dwnloaded was abit lousy.. takuya kimura looked "wow!!" (cheryl, u shld catch it), so did faye wong. but i din reallie understand all of it, so, i shall watch it in the cinema (hopefully).. shall put up the "i like!" version of the posters tmr, maybe..



CaT cat purred at 9:07 PM
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the pic is titled Momentaneous Power II.. :p look at the hair!! seems to be full of vitality, rite? gives the pic a sort of energy..

and speakin of hair, can someone tell mi what exactly is a bad hair dae??


coz, though u might hate mi for this, i dun think i've ever gotten one such dae before..



whahaha... =) i figure itz a dae where u wake up to find ur hair all out of place for the entire dae, untame-able (is there such a word??), no matter wat u do to it.. n for mi, it doesn't happen, esp nw dat i haf short hair.. when i had long hair, the hair was so heavy, they juz hung straight, with abit of waves here n there.. nw dat itz short, everthing juz falls into place with a sweep of the hand.. heehee.. =)




okie okie.. i admit.. i get some frizzies flyin all over the place sometimes...
















alrite alrite! get off my case. everytime! fine? happie nw? :p


n wat do i do to tame the frizzies when i'm goin out, without pilin on the hair stylin products?? here's the secret.. dampen ur hair, den rub abit of skin moisturiser into it, avoidin the roots n scalp.. voila! tamed hair!! n without the heavy, stiff n sticky feelin dat hair stylin products tend to leave.. =)


tell mi i'm such an adorable angel for sharin this secret with u.. whahaha.. *winks*

anyway, somehow ended up slackin the whole dae n doin some ironin for my mum.. (-_-lll can u believe it? i watched Mean Girls for the 5th time!! pls dun laugh.. i noe itz ridiculous but pls, do try to hold ur laughter.. (x_x) n i watched Shark's Tale for the 2nd time. ugh.. kill mi.. n i'm goin to watch Anaconda n the Search for the Blood Orchids for the 2nd time soon, as well as New Police Story for the 3rd time.. (-_-lll i do haf something better to do with my time, but, i juz can't get round to doin those stuff todae.. oopz! (x_x) well, movies!! whee!! pass mi the popcorn! =)


 
CaT cat purred at 6:57 PM
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