spent the earlier part of my dae tacklin chores.. checked the mail first thing in the mornin, followed by keepin away the crockery at home, n den my duel with the washin machine.. lets juz sae dat i managed to wash the white pile at least 3 times before i realised dat the washin machine did work as it shld n dat the clothes were clean.. the dark pile suffered 2 washes, in my attempt to get them cleaner..

the dark pile was my second attempt as usin the washin machine. n we all noe dat whites n dark coloured clothin shld not mix, for fear dat the dyes shld come off n stain the white pieces.. well, i sure din stain anything, but i forgot to take out the socks dat i washed with the whites.. it was a relief when i din find them streaked blue.. (-_-lll so much for excitedly informin my bro dat my second attempt at washin was successful.. had to eat my words when i realised i forgot the socks.. poor socks muz be feelin very wrung out n motion-sick, havin been spun around in the machine for a grande totale of 5 times at least.. oopz.. no wonder they were all shapeless when i finally fished them out to dry..

so much for bein domesticated huh? hahah...

mum called todae n the first thing i said, before she can get in a word, was "ur washin machine very hard to use leh!" lets choose to ignore the fact dat she's taught mi how to use them, twice, before she went on holidae.. :p


dinner was at my nanny's.. =) haven't tasted her cookin for abt 2 yrs+.. was reluctant to go initially coz noein my bro, we'll be off as soon as we've finished our food.. considerin dat she brought us up, dat behaviour smacked of goin to a diner.. rather awkward.. but if i din go, she might think dat i'm distancin myself n have forgotten her n feel hurt.. tough line to tread..

so, todae saw my foray into keepin house.. quite enjoyed the novelty of it all.. shall vacuum the house n mop the floors tmr.. :p



CaT cat purred at 7:49 PM
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so.. Manda n Simon came over todae after skool.. the 2 of them seems joined at the hips.. hahha.. but in a gd way. =)

same thing.. Manda n i chatted while Simon n my bro listened.. watched some mtvs n variety shows on my com.. out came some pics frm our sec skool times.. n alot of jibing at each other were done, mainly between mi n Manda.. my rm took on the atmosphere of a pub, esp when Manda had on Mariah Carey's new song.. the chill-out vibe was there, with the lights turned low.. guessed the most uncomfortable person in the rm was Simon.. kinda like he din noe where to place himself n felt kinda awkward all the while.. itz rather hard for mi to draw him out n relax..

a pity Manda can't stay with mi for company.. but den, there isn't reallie anything to entertain her in my rm.. so, think i dun reallie make a gd hostess, coz to be one, u have to be able to let everyone feel comfortable n relaxed, while bein entertained. datz my opinion anyway. n i feel bein a gd hostess means dat u muz put ur guests n their needs in top priority, such as food, the taste n quality of their food, n stuff like dat. all their needs n requests shld come before my own, if i am the host. (which explains the pitcher of honeyed water dat i prepared for Manda) yep. for mi, i'll try to find out wat they like n dislike, n den try to cater to those.. thoughtful? hahah... the prerequisites of havin guests over, even if they r longtime frens.. :p

Manda was sayin i'll make gd wife material.. (-_-lll coz i'm rather domesticated.. (nw i do sound like a pet..) hmm.. mayb i shall consider bein a housewife in the future.. mind you. not those kind of haggard-chasin-kids-round-the-house-while juggling-chores kind of housewife.. but rather, the kind dat can whip up dishes in the kitchen, keep the house in perfect order, n yet able to host grand n elegant parties, carry an interestin conversation with any n every kind of ppl, all the while makin it all look effortless.. is dat the kind of wife all guys r lookin for? whahaha.. goddess in the kitchen, sophisticate in public n company, hotter-than-jalapeno-peppers in the bedroom.. :p tall order.. but itz rather challengin.. guess i shld train up my skills in the kitchen den.. bedroom skills?? hmmm.. *look sceptical*

i've found my vocation! hahaha.. i think i wan to be the type of wife in the future, who'll stay at home n wait for the husband while keepin house, n den pamper the husband when he comes home frm work.. n as someone once added to the list, warm the bed too.. =)


List of dae-to-dae to dos/ "10 steps to daily domestic bliss":

1) prepare breakfast for husband

2) send husband off to work

3) start chores

4) pack lunchboxes n send it to husband as surprise

5) get home to prepare dinner

6) anticipate the time husband will return home frm work n run a bath for him

7) set out dinner while he's in the bath

8) light conversation durin dinner n after

9) give husband a light massage while he sorts out his work stuff for tmr

10) jump into bed



sounds gd? think this is kinda like the ideal dat all guys hope for.. esp chauvinistic guys.. hahhaa.. n mi. :p
CaT cat purred at 10:28 PM

i realised dat i keep forgettin dat i've become an auntie, to my niece. my cousin-in-law gave birth to her in Mt Alvernia, the same hospital in which i was borne.

my niece is 3 daes old by todae n her name is Rachelle! =) pretty name.

CaT cat purred at 5:12 PM
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think either my skin will be rubbed red n raw, or my nose will drop off altogether.. burnin eyes n nose. my nose is rubbed raw by tissues.. hurts when i touch it.. how i yearn for slp, momentary bliss, but i can't..

too sick to be awake, too awake to slp.. =(
CaT cat purred at 10:20 PM

scenes frm Dawn Of The Dead flashed thru my mind..



n damn! i'm fallin sick again..



CaT cat purred at 8:59 PM
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Unfortunately, the gloomy moods frm yesterdae followed mi thru todae.. loneliness is reallie seepin in.. n in 30 mins, i'm reallie as gd as alone. i think i wun even have to speak during daytime for the next few daes.. at least not til my bro comes home in the evenin..

wakin up feelin alone, goin to slp feelin alone.. there's a pervadin sense of loneliness dat i can't escape.


an all-encompassin emptiness.



CaT cat purred at 10:03 PM
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i realised dat when my moods r kinda unstable, i tend to drink alot of water.. muz be some subconcious desire to






lll !!!FLUSH!!! lll




it all away..
CaT cat purred at 10:15 PM

been feelin rather unsettled the whole dae.. no idea why.. subconciously worryin abt somethin? hmm.. wonder wat..



CaT cat purred at 10:04 PM
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went to the skin doc at Tampines todae.. the one i recommended to Manda..

brought my previous medication there.. imagine my horror when the doc told mi dat the medication i had been usin was 5 times stronger than wat she prescribed to Manda.. n dat was before i told her i was instructed to wash my face 4 times per dae.. which means, abt 10 times stronger.. since the usual no of times the face shld be washed is 2.

@ #$%*&%$#@

i'm gonna tear down the signboard of the previous doc n feed it to him before choppin him into tiny pieces n feedin the pieces to the dogs.. i'm worried dat the dogs will die frm poisonin.. darn dat doc at Ponggol Clinic!!! if anyone's lookin for a gd skin doc, do not go to him!! ask mi n i'll direct u to a certified DERMATOLOGIST instead of dat "japalang" (in this case it means NONSENSICAL) doc at Ponggol Clinic..

yep.. even i will make a better doc than dat crappy guy.. at least i noe dat if u dry out the skin too much, not onli will it peel, but the skin's oil glands will go into overdrive tryin to produce oil to make up for wat the skin's lost.. n datz wat the crappy doc manage to do.. dry out my skin so much dat juz washin my face once in the mornin will cause so much oil to be produced such dat by the end of the dae, i have a super shiny, oil saturated face.. yes. even when i've rinsed it with water in between.. n when i sae itz super shiny, i mean discoball-like-light-reflectin-shinin-brightly-like-a-beacon type of shiny. *scowls* n did i mention a few zits poppin up all of a sudden n very angry lookin skin?

nw, with my new medication, not onli does my skin feels more comfy, instead of dat feelin of intense tightness i've been experiencin, the new medication smells divine n is personalised, as well as effective.. yes.. i can tell already.. n i can also wear makeup if i wan to. n the doc is nicer, n definitely more qualified..

went over to Manda's house after the doc's.. we ended up wearin the exact same t-shirts todae.. (-_-lll same colour combi too.. black t-shirt with dark grey capris, down to our black slippers.. it so happen dat the t-shirt i wore todae was a gift frm her after her visit to Thailand, n dat she bought a same one for herself.. we sure attracted alot of glances with our matchin outfits todae.. oh manz..

helped her with her mthsary pressie for Simon.. (-_-lll y do i always get roped into her "extra-curricular projects"?? slacked at her house n chatted.. helped her brainstorm for ideas to save money n pack bentos (lunchboxes) dat she can bring to skool..


came home with alot of her bks.. i shall go sit n read, in my perfumed sphere of air.. perfumed due to the divine smellin moisturiser i was prescibed todae.. =)
CaT cat purred at 9:15 PM
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i was very vain as a kid.. hardly surprisin huh? dabblin with my mum's nail polishes n all.. i even tottered around the house on tip toes, tryin to emulate the look of wearin heels.. at the age of 5+, wearin heels was a very grown up thing.. the perpetually tippy-toed Barbie did not help in convincing mi to walk properly either..

i remembered smearin red nail polish on a wall in my rm.. (-_-lll for awhile, the wall looked like some plastic toy had been murdered or comitted suicide there.. can't remeber wat we did to get rid of the stains.. was it nail polish remover? or did we merely paint it over? can't reallie remember.. though i did remember dat the colour was a very vibrant vermilllion.. =) heehee.. n if i look closely enuf, there's a smear dat they missed which is till there..

the adults din worry too much abt my vanity, coz they believed dat children will grow out of things.. i;m rather glad this is true..


yes.. i'm no longer dat vain.. dun believe??


i'm too lazy to polish my nails these years.. direct contrast to my zealous nail paintin efforts as a kid.. hell! i dun even file or anything, nor do i noe how to.. juz plain trimmin for mi will do..
i'm less fussy abt the clothes i wear.. no more dressin up. i try to dress down instead, preferin the casual look most of the time..
dun believe in heels anymore, coz they hurt the feet n i'm more into comfort.
hair? as long as it doesn't look messy, it'll do..


the onli thing dat i'm obsessive abt nw in terms of appearance is my skin.. hahaha.. hardly surprisin, seein as i go thru so much effort to make sure my skin at least LOOK good to ppl.. but even here, i'm slackening.. ya, i'll still try to keep my skin in tip top condition, but i dun think i'll bother with makeup anymore.. alrite.. coz it harms the skin, n also, coz i'm lazy.. n if someone can look gd without makeup, dat shld show dat with makeup, they'll look even better.. i'll rather look like i can look even better, than like i've reached the max.. potentials n possibilites r more intriguin than the end product.. n it leave room for imagination..


i'm not makin much sense, am i?


another lazy dae..



CaT cat purred at 11:04 PM
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there's a new strand of virus goin round.. some Malware thingy.. the one where they give u a link to click on. n when u click on dat link, BAM!!! so ppl, be wary of links dat ur frens show u when on msn.. :p

mayb we shld all play "Track-The-Virus" n see where we can track it all back to.. (-_-lll



CaT cat purred at 8:35 PM
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i noe my blog's been gettin borin.. n i'm not gonna deliberately think of something to type coz, right nw, i dun feel strongly abt anything, nor have my life been interestin.. n i think dat to deliberately think up issues to write abt makes bloggin a tad too contrived for my tastes..




CaT cat purred at 9:20 PM
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right.. this is the first of the pictures related Moulin Rouge dat i'll put up..

the pictures show a very vibrant, albeit gaudy, lifestyle in those daes.. while some might find those cabarat shows a lowly form of entertainment, i like the showiness of it all.. dacadent yet full of splendour..

esp when my life nw is so borin dat i might as well grow mould n die.. (-_-lll




CaT cat purred at 9:48 PM
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Slashheart.. the sketch i came up with todae.. Manda prefer this to itz edited version (featured below).. i prefer the edited version of coz.. more drama, more flair, more vibrant..





Slashheart II. nicer? was scannin the sketch into my com n decided dat the colours frm the original pic were not vibrant n strong enuf for my taste.. wanted something dat'll jump out n catch attention, n keep holdin dat attention.. so, fiddled witth the contrast n brightness til i got this.. rather eye-catchin, with a bit of ruggedness, esp when viewed in full size.. the colours r bright, almost to the point of discomfortin the eyes.. kinda like the gashes in the heart..

life's kinda borin without a bright slash of colour here n there, once in awhile..
CaT cat purred at 9:07 PM
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a pic i took of my bro while he was sittin in front of the com.. the very bright rectangle is my com screen.. kinda look Sadako-ish.. gd thing the screen wasn't filled with static.. go figure where's my bro's cheek.. :p


right.. these 2 daes, or rather, last nite n todae, have been kinda a whirlwind for mi..

last nite, my com got infected by a virus.. so, i resorted to callin Manda, so dat she can help mi ask Simon for help.. (-_-lll the three of us spent almost 2 hrs on the phone together, in a three-way conference call, n helped save my com.. so, as u can see dat i've blogged, my com is out of the red.. =) thrivin rather.. so, many thanx to Simon n Manda!! the 2 of u have my undyin gratitude.. =)

n, as Manda got a haircut dat she regretted, she decided to come over to my house after skool, so dat i can help think of ways to fix her hair.. she got kinda lost for awhile before she found her way to my house.. (-_-lll we ordered KFC for lunch/ dinner.. made her lots of honeyed water.. den, later, Simon decided to join us, under Manda's urging.. so, he came over n Manda "cooked" instant noodles for him while i "helped".. (ya.. i was doin most of the work since itz my house..) made lots of honeyed water for both of them.. washed alot of dishes.. think i went thru alot of water todae.. kept havin to replenish the water jugs in my house..

after dinner, 3 of us went back to my rm to chat.. Simon helped checked my com for any more abnormalities.. the rm was dim due to Manda's insistence at mi to keep the lights low.. (x_x) n we all fell into bed.. whahhahaah!!!! kiddin.. we sat on the floor n chatted.. den Manda tried on a blouse dat i wanted to give her, n found her way to my bed.. n sprawled herself on it.. hahahha.. think she finds my rm rather cosy? my bro started watchin anime n before u noe it, we were all watchin the anime together.. this kind of easy mood is great to relax n chill out in.. learnt todae dat itz quite a gd idea to have a couple of frens over n watch shows together.. coz the house provides a homy, cozy ambience, allowin ppl to relax.. n movies is gd coz it keeps boredom at bay while not bein taxin.. shall think abt havin more of such gatherings, provided Manda's free? coz think she's the onli fren i have who'll be willin to drop by n chill out like dat..

yep.. quite a pleasant dae, except for the fact dat my horrible skin state have been exposed.. =( was given strict instructions by the doc, not to apply any makeup.. so, Manda n Simon saw mi makeup-less.. the horrors.. my mind is still recoilin frm recountin it..


haiz.. vexed..
CaT cat purred at 10:06 PM
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Right... Manda called mi last nite, after seein the sketches i put up yesterdae.. n wat did she wan?



she requested for mi to do a pic depictin a couple, for her n Simon (manda's bf).. being the nice fren dat i am, i agreed..






so, LO N BEHOLD!!!










The Miss.. (-_-lll hahaha.. this pic looks so uninspired!! oh manz.. itz supposedly titled Only Us.. n itz goin straight to NeverEverland (where i wish itz never been drawn, n condemn it so dat it wun ever be seen)..

den.. inspiration struck!




TADAAA!!!!!!

All Else Pales..

=) nice? as u can guess frm the title, itz supposed to mean "all else pales when u r with mi".. datz y the background is left plain, to bring the focus on the figures n the heart. notice there's no clear demarcation between the 2 bodies? itz to represent a bond.. (no, i'm not talkin abt physical/ sexual) the colours? shld be clear lah.. Simon likes blue, Manda likes pink.. itz also a very traditional way of colour delegation between the sexes.. no, i'm not bein discriminatory or anything.. the red? passion.. the yellow? a radiance, a glow, dat lovebirds r often ensconced in..



see!! got depth.. hahahha.. =)




nice?
CaT cat purred at 6:06 PM
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Rainy Day Thoughts..

sketched this todae.. done usin pencil n colour pencils?

meant to portray the loneliness of being alone on a rainy dae, when ur heart feels empty yet leaden.. when u see couples runnin for shelter, n u have an umbrella, but with no one to share it with..




Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head.

another sketch by urs truly.. =) u can see my signature there in a corner of both pics..

again, meant to portray a loneliness, as well as helplessness when u feel u've got nowhere to go, to get shelter, n is left to get soaked by the rain, alone in the big, empty world, with no strength to carry on.


both look better in full view.. =)
CaT cat purred at 5:25 PM
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Healing A Broken Heart


i'm darn gd at it..

was goin thru the old smses i have in my hp.. saw some dat i kept frm our disagreements in the past.. itz a wonder how readin them now, i'll still feel a stab of pain, as fresh as the first time..

but of coz, there were the sweet ones.. n they help to erase the hurts.. =)



CaT cat purred at 10:33 PM
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Fragile Things


he experienced the earth quake todae.. juz a tremor..

Mira, i found ur pri skool pic.. the one with a christmas tree.. =)



CaT cat purred at 9:32 PM
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White Cat

the pretty one dat i desperately tried to take pics of.. very pretty blue eyes dat i din manage to capture in any of the pics..



i'm sick.. i feel like i'm burnin up.. esp my nose!! running nose.. =( n my eyes stings.. n i made a typo dat my bro had to spot for mi!!!

i'm sick.. =(




CaT cat purred at 10:05 PM
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Ananta - Queen Of A Lost World


been up to no good at home todae.. hahaha.. :p

finished the last of the books dat i've borrowed frm Manda.. bored.. i think the one ultimate talent i have is to while time away.. i can stay at home day in day out n still keep myself sane despite the boredom.. i wonder if this means i'm gd at self entertainin.. probably huh? i keep gd company with myself.. i count myself lucky to be able to spend time alone with myself, coz i noe there r ppl who can't live without company.. i think itz rather impt to be able to provide gd company for oneself coz itz impossible to find ppl to surround urself with 24/7.. n after awhile, it will probably get stifling, or a person can get potentially casual with their social relations, strikin up acquaintances everywhere, n yet havin no true frens.. n at the end of the dae, if left alone, the person will probably be graspin at straws, tryin to make peace with his/ her own company..

dinner was roasted black pepper chicken, with pineapple for dessert.. =) with grannie away at my aunt's house n no one to cook dinner, my dinner menu have become decidedly more interestin.. =) not havin to eat rice n limp oily veggie is a blessin.. hahaha.. i'm picky with my food, extremely so. n while i'm grateful dat my grannie cooks dinner for the whole family, i can't help but feel a sense of relief when left to my own devices to rummage up something to eat for dinner..


can't imagine wat i'm gonna do, alone at home, tomorrow..




CaT cat purred at 10:32 PM
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Window To The Soul..



a quiz dat i did todae..

Your dating personality profile: Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life. Romantic - You know exactly how to melt your date's heart. Romance comes naturally to you and is an important component of any relationship you have. Sensual - You are not particularly shy when it comes to your sexuality. You know what you like and do not feel inhibited.

Your date match profile: Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living. Romantic - You need someone with a traditional understanding of romance. A true romantic is a must-have in any potential date. Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Adventurous 2. Romantic 3. Sensual 4. Practical 5. Wealthy/Ambitious 6. Liberal 7. Traditional 8. Outgoing 9. Stylish 10. Big-Hearted

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Practical 2. Romantic 3. Adventurous 4. Traditional 5. Shy 6. Sensual 7. Conservative 8. Big-Hearted 9. Intellectual 10. Wealthy/Ambitious

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CaT cat purred at 10:17 PM
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Panther


i think amanda tan wans to kill mi for temptin her with the notion of pizzas for lunch todae..

the death threat as quoted frm her frm our msn chat..

":.*manda.:*:.angelitous*.: lovin u [copycat queen] says:
murderin u will be nice"


she wans to murder mi for invitin her to pizza when she had to go to skool.. (-_-lll but i was onli being kind!! hahaha.. it din help dat she was hungry.. :p


see.. when i get bored frm being cooped up at home, i bait my frens..


n i tried to eat 2 regular pizzas (10") by myself, for lunch.. (o_O) yes.. i can see ur look of horror.. to my utter consternation (n no doubt ur relief), i cldn't.. wat was i thinkin? dat i was hungry enough to finish both off? ya. think dat was the misunderstandin i had with my stomach.. i did manage to finish one though.. whahhahaa.. one 10 inch pizza in one sittin.. ur cue to go "wow".. hahaha.. i din eat the crusts so itz not dat frightenin? ermz.. finishin a pizza by urself, in one sittin, makes for a sense of ill-being.. itz sickenin!! oh manz.. i'm so sick of pizza nw.. (serves mi rite. i heard..)


bein alone at home with my imagination for company is a terrible thing. not slpin well is also high on my list of troubles..
CaT cat purred at 10:12 PM

yay!! first post of the dae!! check out the time! n i juz woke up!!


(-_-lll i'm so bo liao..
CaT cat purred at 4:03 AM
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Creative Lust


nothing comes to mind todae.



CaT cat purred at 11:09 PM
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took some quizzes.. for ppl familiar with the anime Naruto, the characters below can probably be recognised easily..


this character below, Gaara, is supposed to represent my evil personality.

You're not very stable up there and you're quite a psychopath. But you weren't always like that. Long ago, you innocently searched for love but people feared you as you could not control the power in you. You lost all hopes of receiving love when even your most precious person tried to assasinate you... Now living only for yourself, you are Gaara of the Sand. Oh yah, your best friend is probably a gourd.
In real life you have a great affinity with sand and metal. You love the beach and loved playing with sand since young. You like building sand castles at the beach and most possibily you might be a gourd maker when you retire. You are also likely to be in the construction industry or you will be involve with metal works.


n below, is my love compatibiity test.. (-_-lll i'm supposed to be attracted to the character, Uchiha Itachi..

You love danger which is why you'll be drawn to this bad boy. You just love the mystery that shrouds him and you love not knowing whether he'll love you one moment and suddenly turn around and whisk you into a timewarp zone to torture you the next. The dangerous activities of the secret society that he joins excites you as well. All in all, you love playing the anxious girlfriend who lives each exciting day fearing and loving him.



i've gotta admit, Itachi looks cute, for a cartoon character.. =) n dat he's my favourite character in dat anime.. heehee..


oh well.. :p





CaT cat purred at 9:41 PM
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Ophelia


wakin up with inadequate, as well as insufficient, slp makes mi feel grumpy!!

esp when i wake up expectin to receive a gdnite msg frm him for last nite. n get none. =( arrgghhh!!!

so much for goin to slp early.. slpt at 11+pm, woke up n tossed n turned at 3+am, got pissed off n gave up slpin at 6+am.. snapped at my mum coz of some stupid stuff.. bad dae to come.. :p watz the pt of slpin early if i get a restless slp n wake up feelin worse?


n how come he din reply my msgs? damnit..


i called him last nite, juz to alert him to his hp so dat he'll reply my msgs faster, n to my horror/ delight, he answered..



horror? coz i thought abt the hp bill i'm gonna receive, n my mum's reaction.. overseas call.. die.. (-_-lll

delight? coz i haven't heard his voice for a long time...



he better come back soon coz i feel like i'm forgettin how it is being with him..distance makes the heart grow weaker?



CaT cat purred at 9:21 PM
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Unlock


i think i muz be the onli one among my ex jc classmates not workin.. right now, i'm sort of revellin (yes, still revellin) in the freedom of bein able to do anything i wan, anytime, or not doin anything at all. bliss.. this is the real kind of break i'm talkin abt.. the kind where u have nowhere to rush to, no deadlines, no nothing. i set my own rules.. yay!!

but i wonder, is this some kind of bad influence on my bro.. it juz dawned on mi dat i might actually be a reason y he's not workin as hard as he shld be at his studies.. is it coz he sees mi at home everydae, doin nothing? n the lazy vibe juz kinda rubbed off on him? coz he din do too well for his tests, n i keep wonderin how come he doesn't seem to have homework to do, or revision.. this is bad.. surely he realises itz coz i have no skool anymore? or at least for the time being.. (-_-lll think i reallie gotta do somethin to make sure he studies the way he shld..

coz as much as i din put in effort on my studies before, dat doesn't mean he can do the same.. coz my minimal is more than his.. n i wan him to be able to do better than mi, go further than mi, have more options..

*sigh* the burdens of being a sister.. hahha..



todae is the 7th.. i've been with Tri since 7th Sept 2003.. do the maths urself.. anyway, happy monthsary to us.. i onli lament dat he's not here..




CaT cat purred at 10:16 PM
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The Secret Room


poor Tri is still sufferin frm stomach cramp-like pain.. food poisonin.. haiz.. i wonder abt the doc's incompetence.. nw, if i can do anything at all, which i can't, i'll probably fuss over him n pamper him til he's fine.. n i'll probably impose strict hygiene regulations on the food he eats.. so all i can do now is to soothe any frazzled nerves he might have frm the pain.. haiz.. if words can work any magic, i need dat magic nw. n tmr's our mthsary again.. haiz..


n.. coz my mind's empty, i shall post the horror story dat i've previously mentioned. saved it specifically for a dae when i'm out of things to write.. :p


right.. i'm not too gd at this, so i wun be surprised if no one gets scared.. (-_-lll i'm merely recountin the story afterall..


~

there was this girl, who's apartment is on the fifth floor of the buildin she lives in. she's not the sort who likes to go out often, but when she has to, she wld need to take the lift to the first floor, n the same way, to get home.

the lift, is what we have installed in our buildings nowadaes, the type dat stops at every floor..

now, whenever she's in the lift, n passes by the 3rd floor, she'll always feel dat there's a strange atmosphere there. particularly at dat floor. it is almost like the atmosphere in the air changes, is different on the 3rd floor. the 3rd floor was always quiet, n the air somehow charged with a kind of peculiar creepy tension.

one dae, the girl's mum decided to pay her a visit n the girl went down to pick up her mum.. on the way home, she told her mum dat there's something strange abt the atmosphere whenever she goes pass the 3rd floor while in the lift. it makes the hair lift off the back of her neck..

so, mother and daughter got into the lift, n den the lift reaches the 3rd floor. the girl faced her mum n asked if she felt the strange atmosphere there..

and her mum looked at her n said,

"i am not your mother."

~


arrghh... imagine u r the girl, n u r in the lift with ur mum possesed. someone u r close to, someone u trust, someone u rely upon, n is important to u.. turnin to u, possesed by something alien, look u in the eye n tell u dat u've got the wrong person?! itz like sayin "ur mum is not here in this body anymore." n who noes wat might result frm this.. oh manz.. while u might not feel anything abt this story, it still gives mi the creeps no matter how many times i recount it.. (x_x)



CaT cat purred at 9:09 PM
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Psst


so, i'm back to stayin at home again, after helpin out with Manda yesterdae..

my skin seems be lookin better todae.. finally the medication is workin? hahah.. after all ths skin i've been sheddin, it better improve. or else, as i told my cousin, i'll go to the clinic, take off their signboard, break it in two, n feed it to the doc.. whahhahaa.. :p

there's a new hp at home, supposedly belongin to mi.. coz i've juz updated my mobile plan..

received the letter dat i've been waitin for frm SIM. dat is, my application went thru. so, nw, i'll juz have to pay the fee for the first semester, to secure the place. if i do, i'll be statin classes on 9th May. itz like i'll spend abt 3 hrs in classes, a dae, MAX. WOW!! itz like such a big difference after sec skool n jc.. so slack?!! *disbelieving* yep.. but the fee is like a whoopin 6688.50 for one semester.. wat if my application to either NUS or NTU goes thru too? haiz.. n the fee is abit much for my family, so i'm still wonderin wat to do, though i think no matter wat, i'll have to pay the fee for SIM first. n i think once i've entered SIM, i wun be switchin skools anymore.. coz to be frank, i'm not too interested in NUS or NTU anymore, though enterin either wld be slightly better than SIM in terms of fees.. n where Tri will be is an aspect dat i consider too.. hmm.. my mind is reallie in quite a fix nw.. (Manda, see.. this is probably one of the reason there's an increase of lines in my palms..)

Tri had food poisonin.. poor thing.. hope he'll be alrite by tmr..



CaT cat purred at 9:31 PM
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The Sanctuary

home is my sanctuary, where i can live with my bad skin peacefully without fear of appearin ugly to ppl.. :p

woke up at 7+am this mornin to accompany Manda to the skin clinic in Tampines.. letz juz sae dat the skin doc there is more professional n kinder than the one i went to, though more expensive.. anyone interested can tag n ask mi abt it. this was the first in a very long time she's seen mi make-up-less..feel slitghly comforted when she said my skin doesn't look as bad as i claimed it to be.. phew.. Manda, pls keep to not wearin makeup as long n as much as possible.

after the doc's, we went to the NTUC in AMK to buy cookie mix.. she was gonna make choc chip cookies for her Simon.. n, she needed help.. so we went over to her house after gettin all the stuff we needed, to try our hands at the cookie mix.. experimented with quite a few variations of the ingredients used before we hit the perfect one.. when we finally had it all baked, i had to help wrap the gift!! (x_x) lets sae i did all the wrappin todae? n helped with some foldin, as well as givin suggestions.. in return, i borrowed a stack of bks frm her to tide mi thru all the daes i'm gonna spend at home..

quite a tirin dae.. felt very carefree this mornin, after i've gotten over exposin my bare face to ppl.. this is a long time in awhile where i did not have to spend hrs in front of the mirror perfectin my makeup.. preparin to go out onli took 15 mins n a change of clothes.

tryin my best not the scratch or even touch my skin..


i miss you, but u will never realise how much.



CaT cat purred at 10:48 PM

why do people stay in a relationship that they consciously know is bad for them?

CaT cat purred at 12:31 AM
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Secret Keeper

hmm.. din sleep at all yesterdae (woke up at 10+ yesterdae mornin), or rather, last nite. coz i had to go tomb sweepin at 4.30am n decided dat i din dare to slp.. yes.. itz rather pathetic dat i dun even dare to slp in my own rm nwadaes.. hahaha..

so, wat did i do to keep myself awake the whole nite, n keep the things dat go bump at nite away? called manda n confessed.. whahhaha..

confession? dat i went to the skin doc without her!! coz i cldn't reallie bear to let anyone see mi makeup-less, so i got up last weds, don a cap, wore super plain clothes so as to not attract any attention to myself, n boarded a cab to the clinic.. kept my head down the whole way, Jay Chou style.. (-_-lll arrrgghh.. so embarrassing.. skipped onto a cab home too.. was so paranoid dat when i sense someone comin close, i wun let them catch even a glipse of my face! heehee.. muz have looked reallie suspicious.. so, anyway, i'm livin in dry, flaky, itchy, agony everydae nw, coz the medication is juz harsh.. =( n so, tmr i'll accompany her to the other skin clinc in Tampines to absolve myself of the last remnants of guilt.. hahha.. :p

we chatted til 4.40am, n den i had to go wash up.. chatted abt alot of stuff.. things dat we've never told each other before, came out into the open.. learnt alot of things dat i've never suspected.. dun misunderstand, there's no deep dark secret, hidden bodies or scandals. juz tiny revelations.. n i scared us silly by recountin the ghost stories dat i heard while watchin Entertainment 100% (taiwanese entertainment programme).. oopz.. i'm sorie, but i din mean to scare anyone.. but the stories reallie gave mi goosebumps, n nw i dun even dare to slp!! mayb i'll type out the stories n post it here sometime soon..

Manda, i guess i shall accompany u to NTUC as well huh? den mayb we can practice bakin together in ur kitchen while ur mum tries to give us advice, or decide to ignore us altogether.. hahaha..

we r swearin off cosmetics.. mayb a dab or two of concealer to mask dark eye rings, n mascara, since it wun affect the skin, n datz the max.. dun wanna dabble with makeup again, unless itz on someone else's skin.. afterall, i've once considered the prospects of being a makeup artist.. =)


came home frm the tomb sweepin n watched Bleach (Japanese anime) til i realised dat i'm tired.. realised? coz i was simply bouncin off walls with adrenaline while we were prayin.. :p took a snooze while my bro continued watchin Bleach.. so, todae, u'll see all my family members driftin around n drapin themselves on any available surface, to catch a rest or a snooze.. hahaha.. everyone looks half dazed at home!! n ya..

n, Bleach is a reallie nice anime.. =)



CaT cat purred at 9:09 PM
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Don't Catch Me When I Fall


want something deep? here's something.

Chatted with my mum.. started discussin our relatives, n our discussion fell to the marriage between my cousin n my cousin-in-law.. i voiced out this question datz been buggin mi for a long time.

Did my cousin marry her out of love? or out of the need to be responsible for the baby in her? as much as i'm happie dat my cousin's married, n dat i'll have a niece soon, i can't help wonderin.. n i think dat this is a typical question dat'll be raised in such circumstances, no?

i can't help thinkin dat itz out of a certain convenience, to juz settle down with someone nw, as well as shoulder the responsibilty for the baby, rather than to stay single, look around somemore, n to jave someone get an abortion or something.. i can't help thinkin dat itz not of love. coz when i see their exchanges, it seems to lack a certain sparkle dat i somehow expect to see in ppl who r in love. n dat sparkle is present, in alot of the couples dat i've seen together.. itz like a luminence dat'll instantly have the person light up at their beloved's mention or presence. but i dun see dat.. their relationship somehow smacks of a certain lackadaisical manner, like they juz happen to be together at dat place n time. how sad..

right.. maybe itz not so sad, coz this rather friendship like behaviour will probably relieve them of jealous pangs n disagreements stemmin frm it. this might probably also mean dat they'll not be clingy of each other n thus enable their marriage to be a harmonious one due to a want for peace to be kept between them.. maybe love, the kind of companionable type, may blossom between them i the yrs to come.. this is not to sae they dun love each other nw.. itz juz dat, i think itz rather more of the friendship kind of love.. but den, i'm onli a bystander in all this, so my opnion will not be accurate..

but i can't help questionin though, wat is the point of marriage, if u do not love in the til-death-do-us-part, i-can't-live-without-you, type of love? the romantic kind.. mayb i'm too idealistic, but i think i'll never settle for something less than dat.. even for relationship, dat is the case. unless i'm sure i absolutely love someone, i wun enter into a relationship with dat person, not even a chance will be given, let alone marriage.. when i enter a relationship (onli one, the current one, so far), i already bring with mi a conviction dat this is the person i want n love, i'll want n love, present, future. before dat, i'll get to know the person before i decide if i'll love him, n whether i can see any future in it.. dat is before i even lapse into a relationship.. some may think "hey! think so much for wat? juz enjoy the glow, the feelin of being in a romance, while it lasts" but for mi, i'll feel dat if i can't see a future, i dun wan to waste anyone's time, n if i do enter into one, i'll devote to it wholeheartedly, n wan the same. perfectionistic? maybe. but i dun see y anyone can settle for less than dat.. itz like shortchangin urself. for mi, i wan something lastin, passionate yet tender, something dat juz feels right. i dun wan easy, though i've wished for it sometimes, but love is never easy, so if i have something easy, how do i know if itz for real?

right.. i'm so highly idealistic. but i think secretly, everyone, whether they r concious of it or not, have wanted something like dat, sometime in their life.. if i ever had to settle for something less, please at least let mi have experienced wat i wan, once in my life. but the truth is, once i've had it, i'll probably never settle for something less than dat ever. i rmb this watch advert in the past "bu zai hu tian chang di jiu, zhi zai hu cheng jing yong you" (doesn't matter if itz for eternity, wat matters is u've once had it). i wan both, greedy but yes. n the "eternity" can be my life span. i wan to "young you" (have) for "tian chang di jiu" (eternity)..


which brings mi back to the naggin question.. did they marry for love? or MOSTLY out of convenience? not discountin dat there might in fact be some degree of love, else they wun be in a relationship or have a baby in the first place. i'm rather tempted to ask..




CaT cat purred at 9:59 PM
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Spring Flamenco

in keepin with the spirit of todae..


Happy April Fool's Dae to all.. =)


din pull any pranks on anyone todae.. have been absolutely proper.. :p

i rmb the first time i've realised there's such a dae was in kindergarten.. our teacher told us after skool dat the principal wanted to see our whole class coz we've been naughty.. needless to sae, the whole class of us kindergarten 1 kids (6 yrs old) lined up properly n shook in our places as we imagined the scoldin we'll get.. (-_-lll meanie teacher.. we waited for a long time outside the principal's office til we cldn't stand the suspense anymore, knocked on our principal's door n went in.. i shall juz sae dat she wasn't informed we had to see her, n was juz as surprised as us.. she passed out candy for the whole class n there was an audible sigh of relief when we realised we've been had.. n dat was the first April Fool's prank i've experienced.. (-_-lll

frm den on, i've had quite a few pranks played on mi on April Fool's dae, but dat was all in Kindergarten n Primary school.. can't rmb any frm Secondary school, n other than the one i've written abt above, i can't reallie recall wat other pranks were played on mi..

so anyway, datz all for todae.. =)




CaT cat purred at 9:55 PM
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