doin cd review on her album for my music assignment..

at home the whole dae.. feel like i dunnoe wat i want.. restless but tired.. very contradictory..

read my archives n found dat my blog is reallie not worth readin anymore..

dunnoe wat to do with my life, wat i wan in my life, wat there is meaningful in my life.. desolate..

y do i feel this way?



CaT cat purred at 11:32 PM
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The Butterfly Cage

wifey din come skool todae.. she had some stuff to settle at home.. she's got alot on her mind.. weighed down.. life shldn't be this way.. haiz..

my classmate Cheuk Wai came back frm Hong Kong n bought us chocs.. so sweet.. =) she's super cute.. huggin us whenever she see us wearin t-shirts dat she finds cute, with an exclamation "OH!! HOW CUTE!!".. heehee.. n she's always smiling n happie. =)

he's unhappie with mi.. haiz... how can i make everything okie between us?

met up with manda after skool.. waited for her for 1hr+ at Jubilee.. went to browse thru the bks in Popular.. dinner was at the bubble tea shop.. sorta din reallie have any appetite.. onli ate coz i needed to fill up my stomach.. her bdae's comn soon.. time to start savin n thinkin real hard wat to prepare for her bdae..

i think there r onli a couple of ppl's bdae dat i'll reallie reallie place a huge deal of attention to.. Tri, Manda, Wifey, Jillian... any more? think there shld be a couple more.. very little ppl? but enuf for mi to kill a great deal of braincells.. coz those dat i pay attention to, i'll reallie make sure dat wat i prepare for them will be somethin dat they'll like n hopefully find meaningful n worth keepin for all times..

kinda feel like doin things i haven't done n will enjoy.. things dat'll make mi feel free, unencumbered, liberated.. things dat speak of throwin caution into the air n paintin the town red..



CaT cat purred at 11:13 PM
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they make their appearance again..

brought some cookies to skool todae.. some said they tasted like lychee.. itz meant to be honey.. -_-lll

he's goin to start skool soon.. mixed feelings abt dat..

he came over after i finished skool todae.. transferred songs frm my com n cds into his mp3 player.. cooked instant noodles for our dinner.. den we went dwnstairs for him to get dessert.. chatted at the playground after, before he sent mi home..

kinda feel like stayin at home by myself for a few daes.. take a rest.. it seems like my soul is in need of constant solitude to feel balanced n relaxed..



CaT cat purred at 10:26 PM
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The Truth Is

sorta busy dae.. din manage to finish my TWE.. sian.. tired.. went to skool lookin totally pale n tired.. went to Far East after skool.. Wifey wanted to look for a belt.. shld start lookin for jobs.. haiz.. met up with honey after dat.. he had dinner while i watched..

think i've somehow lost my appetite these daes.. not been eatin.. no inclination to eat..

honey din send mi home, coz i wanted to take a cab.. lazy to walk.. oopz.. so dropped him off at his house before headin for my house.. hmm...



CaT cat purred at 11:19 PM
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Milla Jovovich


busy busy.. the thought of hw makes mi feel sick.. the thought of TWE tmr makes mi feel sicker..

throat itches.. feel like rippin it out n givin it a gd scratch..

met up with him after skool.. was supposed to do my hw at the library.. but the place was full.. went to Yoshi instead.. did my work there.. he helped mi finish my maths hw!! yipee!! thanx alot dear! =)

somehow feel like he's distancin frm mi.. haiz..



CaT cat purred at 10:41 PM
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Shy.. Very Shy


juz got home frm watchin The Island with him at Jubilee.. pulse is still racin nw, coz of the show i think.. adrenaline high.. i wonder watz wrong with mi.. n i wonder how i'm gonna get to slp in this state, with my heart is beatin fast.. i'm reallie turnin into an insomniac i think..

throat's been feelin scratchy the whole dae.. think i'm fallin sick.. n my legs' full of mozzies bites.. i feel like throwin up.. like there's a big lump stuck in my throat.. wonder if furballs have this same effect on cats.. feel like my throat's all locked up.. =( can't reallie swallow anything without feelin like throwin it up..

went to Jubilee with him, without makeup.. was bowin my head down all the time.. =(

i feel horrible all over..



CaT cat purred at 10:25 PM

y can't u juz try to understand, itz easy for mi to read ur moods sometimes when ur actions reflect it so clearly.

i noe dat if u reallie wanted to do something, u wun hesitate, u wun waste time.

i noe dat if it reallie means something to u, u'll pay meticulous attention, u wun evade.

u wun need to tell mi "i need some time to rest"

while u ask for company, u dun wan mine.

and datz y my throat's constricted, my skies are grey. i'm not tryin to push u away. i dun wan wan to push u away. i wan u here. but if i tell u dat, u'll come, n it'll be a form of obligation on ur part, a duty u feel u muz take on. n i dun wan us to be this way. i wan it to come frm u, not becoz of mi..

coz dat will onli make us bitter.

i dun wan u here, if ur heart n mind isn't..



CaT cat purred at 1:37 PM
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My Blue Heaven


very startling colours..


met up with him todae.. alot of unhappiness?? haiz..

itz all okie nw.. may it stay dat way..




CaT cat purred at 11:37 PM

Saturday..

u've made mi done nothing but cry..

i went to slp with a heavy heart, fridae nite, knowin u r unhappie. knowin i'll receive no reply for my gdnite msg.

i woke up down. coz wat i suspected the nite before was true. there was no reply. u called, u were cold. how do i warm up to a person who's cold? u hung up.. i went back to my pillow cryin.

ur msges were cold. unwelcomin.. even when i tell u wat i need, how i reallie feel, u dun take them to heart. to u, they r juz words.

when i called u back, it wasn't any better.

i saw u online. i try to pacify u. u disappeared offline in a flash. n i promptly went forgotten for the rest of the noon while u slipped into oblivion. "brb" appears to be a joke, designed to keep fools waitin. i was a fool.

worry.. tears.. relief.. tears..

broke ur promise. u gave ur word.

turned around n got angry with mi.. feel so lonely. i was the one ignored while u preoccupied urself. left hangin on the line.

cold, emotionless, calculatin words meant to make mi hurt. knowin they will hurt but still usin them. anger is my defence, ur offense. u hurt mi.

the whole dae, u've hurt mi. n i hide. i tried to ignore the hurts.. u nv acknowledge them.

u make mi feel unloved, unwanted, unneeded, uncared for. redundant. invisible.

i cry. cold cold tears to keep mi company. that i have to swallow. that even now, is makin mi choke n cough in my attempt to hold them back.

u'll never noe how it feels to have a gapin hole in ur heart, carved out by someone who have the power to light up ur life juz by hopes alone.

u seek oblivion. wat abt mi?

left hurtin..

cold, alone, miserable.


CaT cat purred at 2:59 AM
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backstage..


stayed at home todae.. runnin out of skin medications.. haiz.. super broke.. die le lah!! how??? =(



juz a musing.. strawberry flavored shampoo= "strawberry sensation"


wat abt orange flavor??


"orange orgasm"??? hahhahaa.. :p



CaT cat purred at 9:42 PM
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like the tattoo (??) on her cheek.. very intricate. =)


he came to skool to fetch mi todae!!!! happie..

he had orientation at NUS todae.. so he came over to SIM after his orientation to fetch mi.. hahaha... my classmate, Freddy, said i look like a happie little girl brimmin with excitement.. =) we headed to town with Jillian, who accompanied mi to wait for him.. thx!!

ate a late lunch at Mac in Lucky Plaza, while Jillian went off to meet her frens.. den we headed to his house.. went to sit on the swing by his pool.. some peepz were havin a bbq.. as the evenin gave way to nite, the view of the pool lit n the smell of smoke was reallie nice.. =) there were kids runnin around playin also.. very tranquil n relaxed atmosphere.. n we juz sat there n chatted..

went to Paragon on our way home.. bought drinks frm Coffeebean.. n dat settled our dinner.. -_-lll hahaha.. Wifey is so gonna get it when i next go to skool.. she din go to skool todae coz she was hungover frm last nite.. n i tot she was sick coz someone msged mi on her behalf n said she was vomittin.. gggrrrrrr...


my earrings spoilt!!! =( the ones he bought for mi... how???!!! saded..



CaT cat purred at 11:18 PM
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mi with the earrings he bought for mi. =)


so, how did yesterdae go?



initial idea for his bdae pressie was to make strawberries dipped in choc for him.. but i wanted to give him something useful, as well as somethin he can keep n rmb..


i got him a t-shirt in the end.. it came in a pizza box.



pizza box for the t-shirt




proof dat itz a pizza box


he told mi he wanted a diamond ring.. so i got him 2.. haahha.. :p coz the first one i got din look as gd as the 2nd one dat i saw.. so i bought the 2nd one.. see! i try to give u the best i can get.. hahhaa..




the "diamond" ring i got for him, nestled in satin.. box had to be bought too.. x_x




close up of the humongous "diamond" ring i got for him..


itz reallie big..



real ones? honey, give mi some time k? :p hahahha..


he wanted PSP n hp.. honey, pls be patient with mi.. =)


wanted to buy him racin games for his PS2.. but ex.. haiz.. honey, again, i'll need more time..




the package




the pizza box all wrapped



treated him to lunch at Seoul Garden.. his JC classmate, Yiling, joined us.. last min decision coz she juz took her English Qualifyin Test n called Tri to ask if he took it.. den she asked where he was n when he told her, she asked if she cld join.. n when she got there, she saw mi n said...


"oh.. i din noe u r here with him!"



#@&%@#*$!!!!!!!!!



still feelin upset dat she came.. it was supposed to be mi n my bf!! n he din tell her dat he was with mi.. darn. so i ended up bein the extra one though I AM the gf, n the one payin.. felt horrible havin to "share" him.. even though it was his bdae.. n i was seated across him.. which means she was seated beside him.. they looked more coupley than mi n him did!!!! *sobz* =(




lunch at Seoul Garden



headed for my house after lunch.. NO, Yiling din come OF COZ.


gave him the t-shirt.. wanted to keep the ring for nite, with romantic atmosphere over dinner n all.. :p




him with pressie!!




him wearin the t-shirt dat i bought.. the words sae "Guy Power".. described his chavinism perfectly.. hahhaa..



went to Junction 8 in the evenin.. were still feelin full frm lunch n strolled around first.. we explored the playground at the Open Plaza.. nice place. =) unable to wait any longer, i gave him his diamond ring..




showin off his "diamond" ring dat i planned to give him durin dinner at Swensens, but ended up givin him before it instead.. :p


went to Swensens den.. lament the fact dat unlike the branches at Changi and Thomson, the atmosphere at this outlet was more suitable for family gatherings rather than dates.. n they had D&D dat nite, which means we had to leave by 9pm.. n we sorta rushed thru dinner..




eatin my chicken menieure instead of his own chiken in mixed pepper..




him blowin out the candle of his bdae ice cream after dinner, courtesy of Swensens. =)


i din get him an ice cream cake, though he said he wanted one.. coz we were too full by den, n Swensens was closin soon.. -_-lll wanted to get him one though.. hmm..

went to the playground near my house.. sat there n chatted while watchin kids play badminton. den he sent mi up n went home.. his pressies r still with mi coz he forgot to take them, n i forgot to pass them to him.. was keepin them in my bag for him, so he din have to hold anything..


hope he enjoyed his bdae.. =)

CaT cat purred at 9:52 PM
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HAPPIE BIRTHDAY HONEY!!! =)

met up with him to celebrate.. feelin totally bushed.. pics tmr i guess.

=)

CaT cat purred at 10:57 PM
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no pic for todae..


went around S'pore to find a bdae pressie for Tri.. -_-lll will not reveal wat they r til tmr.. :p

Tri passed his basic theory test!! which means he can drive soon!! (actually, he can drive already.. but he needs to convert his drivin license to a S'porean one)

rather busy wreckin my brains as to wat else i'll need to get for his bdae tmr, how to wrap the pressies, wat to do tmr, where to go etc.. hmm..


came home with my grannie askin mi to drink this rather mysterious concoction.. hahhaa.. my bro was forced to have a boel of it n he cldn't stand it.. totally grossed him out with itz colourless, seemingly innocent jelly-like texture.. it smelt funnie.. n i sorta guessed dat it was frog's eggs.. supposedly highly nutritious n very gd for the skin.. i was grossed out too.. hahaha.. the thing with my bro was dat he din noe wat it was when he first tried abit of it..

he soon found out.. heehee.. i told him!!

n watched his face take on a greenish tinge.. whahahhaa... :p n i wondered aloud if he'll give birth to baby frogs..

he gagged..

=) i'm such a lovable sister..



Tri bought mi a pair of earrings todae!! i cld have asked him to get 2, but felt guilty abt him gettin even 1 pair.. i'll pay him back.. :p



n yes, as grossed out as i am by the frog's eggs.. i'm eatin abit of it.. al in the name of vanity.. x_x


they taste horrible!! pass mi the barf bag..
CaT cat purred at 11:15 PM
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Scattered Society


fallin sick.. =( din help dat i got drenched todae.. accompanied him around S'pore to settle stuff abt his newly bought mp3 player..


i dun trust the sales ppl at Sim Lim.. they r all sales motivated. which means, to clinch the sale, they might not hesitate to lie abt their products.



worried n stressed.. there's alot of stuff datz buggin mi.. =(



CaT cat purred at 9:29 PM
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Gloom


met him in town todae.. started off badly with disagreements.. haiz..

ended okie.. went to have dinner at Suki Sushi.. soft shell crab.. =) finally appeased my cravin for them..

his bdae comin soon.. how? die le lah.. =( i'm broke..


tired.. haven't been slpin well again..



CaT cat purred at 10:00 PM
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In Your Eyes


went to town to meet up with him todae.. he wanted to get an mp3 player.. headed down to the Sony Gallery at Wisma.. gosh.. the crowd todae sure was fierce.. but den, wat can u expect frm a Saturday in Orchard? had dinner at Mos in Taka before headin for Sim Lim to see if there were better deals there.. went into alot of shops to ask..

so, he bought the Sony mp3 player dat he had his eye on since last nite.. new arrival.. guess he's at home tinklin around with his new toy nw..

watz with boys n gadgets? :p



CaT cat purred at 10:53 PM
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Spring In Texas

doesn't look very spring-like in this pic.. always tot spring shld have bright n cheery colours.. :p


went to skool for lunch todae.. with the company of Wifey n Sai Teng.. wahhahahaa... Sai Teng said dat i looked like i've gone for plastic surgery.. but i tot my looks haven't changed abit? x_x he said he kinda cldn't recognise mi..

went to Orchard Library after skool.. accompanied Jillian to Chez Vous to get her hair done.. she din wan mi to go, but out of the want to irritate her, i went in n watched.. :p chatted as i watched the stylists dye her hair.. watchin ppl dye hair is quite a fascinatin process.. anyway, nw she doesn't look like the cute little girl much anymore.. more like wild little partygirl.. hahah.. wanted to take pics of her with her hair caught in all those aluminium foil.. but i think she'll kill mi.. o_O letz juz sae i've seen Jillian as no one in skool have seen her before? hahaha.. quite fun lah.. she's gd company..

went to library by myself after she's done.. coz her mum was upstairs.. picked up a few bks n went home..


*yawnz*



CaT cat purred at 10:20 PM
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Singled Out

i wld hate to be this flower.. to be under such close scrutiny tends to prove unnervin for mi..

went to PS todae, to accompany him to bank his cheque, n to buy rewritable disc.. back hurts frm standin too long.. =( went back to AMK central..n he left early to accompany his parents.. i noe they'll be onli here for awhile, n i shld understand dat he ought to keep them company.. but.. haiz..i kinda reallie wanted his company todae.. abit selfish i noe..

met up with Manda after she finished skool.. accompanied her to look at comics at Tenchi.. kaoz.. she rented so many.. scary.. she spent so long there, i got tired of standin around waitin. (-_-lll went to sit on the ledge outside n waited.. den we went to the bubbletea shop for drinks n snacks.. rather light to be considered dinner..

bah.. itz my dinner no matter how light or heavy it is.. (-_-lll

Wifey called mi halfway thru when i was chattin with Manda.. she said she missed mi.. whahahha.. n dat it feels weird not havin mi around in skool.. :p n dat i missed out alot of "stories".. nvm.. can catch up on them tmr..

Tri called mi too.. =)


gave up on my dark eye rings n used abit of my mum's eyecream.. Anti-shadow huh? letz see if it works.. :p



CaT cat purred at 10:12 PM
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Lapsed


din go skool again.. woke up with my whole body in pain.. even nw, my back, the back of my neck, my shoulders, limbs, r all still achin.. wonder watz wrong with mi..

his parents r comin back tonite.. hmm..

his bdae's comin soon.. n i'm still broke, n still clueless abt gift ideas.. =(

i seem to be unable to save any money lately.. wonder how dat is so..

brain is givin up on mi again.. feel like juz slippin into an eternal slumber.



CaT cat purred at 9:20 PM
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I Hope You Return


din attend skool todae.. felt horrible.. utterly drained..

he came over to burn Bleach frm my com..

think he's kinda unhappy with mi.. or, i dun need to "think".. fairly certain..

dunnoe how to make it alrite, tired to try..

i need some breathin space.


missin..
M
CaT cat purred at 9:40 PM
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You Fill My Heart With Love

like the colours.. looks gd when viewed in full size.. =)


din slp a wink last nite.. causin mi to be dozin off everywhere todae..


met up with him todae.. accompanied him to collect his one dae's pay, n to trim his hair at Ginrich, Heeren.. -_-lll sorta got into a tiff dat cld have ended badly.. but itz alrite nw..


tired beyond my imagination..



CaT cat purred at 9:09 PM
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i like this pic though itz a little small.. frm Howl's Moving Castle.. =)


did chores at home the whole dae..

Tri quit his job.. hahaha.. guess it din suit him.. he's gonna look around somemore i guess..

Marcus goin to Shanghai tmr mornin.. for 3 mths.. hmmm..



contemplatin..



CaT cat purred at 10:29 PM
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no pic for todae.


went to attend Grace's mum's wake.. received a msg frm Limin this mornin, informin mi of it.. got a shock. very sudden.. n i wondered, how Grace was copin.. heart aches for her.. can onli ask her to be strong. felt helpless since i'm not gd at consolin ppl.. was relieved dat she seemed fine.. but i worry whether she's holdin back inside.. feel sad.. n i dunnoe how i can be there for her, wat i can do for her..


Grace, i've reallie missed talkin to u, ur company.. i'll always be here for u k?


i realised dat i miss alot of my frens.. todae made mi realise juz how much i do.. hope the next time i see them again, it'll be for a joyous occasion.



met up with him for dinner.. ate at Delifrance in Paragon before headin back to AMK.. went to Jubilee n watched Fantastic 4 coz he wanted to watch it, though i wasn't too keen initially.. not a bad movie, if u r watchin it for the sake of mindless entertainment.. more suitable for kids.. the guy actin as the Human Torch is reallie hot.. so is Jessica Alba.. think the deepest msgs dat the movie tried to bring across (or managed to bring across) was to accept urself as how u r and dat unity is strength.. (-_-lll




can't help thinkin abt todae, the wake, my frens, n when i was leavin..


M
CaT cat purred at 11:59 PM
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Prelude

his family is comin back tonite..

went to skool early to study for econs.. =) den met Wifey for lunch.. she got up on the wrong side of bed todae.. mayb itz all the fatigue n stress catchin up.. as well as a sense of emotional emptiness.. cld tell dat she was emotionally n mentally drained..

met up with Tri after econs test to accompany him job-huntin.. went to LG at Suntec for some sales promoter trainin thing.. wah.. they bombarded the lot of us with so much info.. n they went on n on.. learnt alot abt LG.. but wasn't interested in the work.. those peeps kinda rubbed mi off the wrong way.. din like them.. think he's gonna start work tmr at Sim Lim.. :p

went to Sakae, at Suntec, for dinner.. whahahhaa... if those other peepz at the trainin saw us. they wld have wondered y we r lookin for work, n yet can afford to eat at Sakae.. :p

tired.. was strugglin to keep my eyes open durin the trainin thing.. think one of the peepz there noe dat Tri n i are a couple, though we sat at the opposite sides of the table. n din tell anyone abt our status.. hahahha.. muz be the looks we exchanged.. =)

i can sae alot abt 2 ppl exchangin looks n chargin the air up with tension.. but i shall not.. =)



CaT cat purred at 11:02 PM
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Amber

bad mornin.. din attend English.. din finish my essay. at a lost abt wat to do.. itz the main source of my stress.. n the terrible thing is, i din even realise i was stressed til i started thinkin abt the reasons behind y i haven't been slpin well.

reached skool after English. met Wifey n Jillian at Megabites.. was halfway thru my salad when i heard

"you look very familiar"

lo n behold! my english teacher.. damnit. think i managed to keep my poker face on despite cringin inwardly.. (x_x) think she deliberately sat at the table in front of mi, while facin mi.. din look at her when she sat there. finished my salad, n we went off to the lounge.. think Wifey was abit worried abt mi this mornin.. coz of english n all.

Happie 22th Mthsary to Us. =) went over to his house after i picked out a small gift frm Chocz at Paragon. very small gift.. hahah.. 2 chocolate pieces in the shape of lips. went for dinner at Taka, where this was this food fair thingy.. shared a murtabak, sushi n hotdogs there, as well as blueberry juice.. not bad.. quite fillin..

his sis told him not to bring his gf home.. meanin mi.. hard not to take it personally when i noe dat his family peepz dun reallie like mi. well, i wun. i have my pride. not gonna go n be some eyesore to her.

freakin stressed over english.. highlight of the dae was when i realised i'd passed my econs test though i did it by luck n noe nutz abt wat i'm writin... phew..

honey, happie mthsary.. =) hope u liked the chocs.



CaT cat purred at 11:00 PM
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ASOS.. their album cover.. very goth.. mayb Wifey can take a few pointers frm them for her future Cosplay costumes..


todae was disastrous.. my tests... haiz..

tmr.. haiz.. essay.. haiz.. die.. haiz..

haven't been slpin well lately.. manifestation of stress? i'm fallin prey to insomnia.. =(



CaT cat purred at 11:12 PM
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White cat under an orange light.


fatigued.. there's music n econs quiz tmr.. gonna flunk both.. =(

din slp well last nite.. felt like i din slp a wink.. muz be coz of the nap.. felt awake the whole nite n kept tossin n turnin, tryin to slip into oblivion.. unsuccessfully.. (-_-lll got up slightly earlier than usual as a result.. payin the price nw.. in a daze.

went back to SR with him to get our A certs.. seniors goin back to the skool nv fails to attract attention.. hahaha.. ppl were lookin curiously everywhere we went.. felt very carefree when i was back there todae.. mayb coz i'm out of dat place n it no longer have any hold over mi.. totally disregarded the rules.. :p


shall try to study for music though i noe i wun succeed.. x_x



CaT cat purred at 9:26 PM
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Da S, Hsu Xi Yuan frm Taiwanese duo ASOS.

juz like this pic.. like the slightly vacant n melancholic look in her eyes.. like a mannequin.


met up with him after skool todae.. was supposed to accompany him to NUS to settle some of his admin stuff.. but we din coz he found out it wasn't neccessary. he wanted to go back to SR to get our A'level cert, but we din, coz todae's Youth Day n the skool wasn't open? had lunch at Mac in Taka before headin for his house.. we slacked around n i fell aslp while he was playin Maple.. woke up at 8+.. can't believe he let mi slp for 2+ hrs.. =) thanks dearie!

was abit grumpy when i woke up.. oopz.. i'm always grumpy when i wake up.. bad habit.. i'll refuse to talk to anyone n brood til i feel more awake/ less disoriented.. sorie honey. i wasn't broodin lah.. though i looked like i was. i was juz not fully awake yet. i'll try to correct this habit k?

dinner was at the coffeeshop near my house.. den he sent mi home. accompanied mi up the lift. =) i realise dat not many guys wld bother n i'm appreciative. nxt time if i get home earlier, i'll flag the cab for u.

still feelin abit cranky, thoughts in disarray. tryin not to think abt my music quizzes n stuff.. tryin not to think abt my english essay.. tryin not to think abt the maths quiz, tryin to forget abt econs quiz..


far frm succeedin.. =(
CaT cat purred at 10:51 PM
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Green Eyes

very fierce lookin cat.. can't sae itz pretty.. :p

went over to his house after i've woken up.. slacked at his house the whole dae, n fell aslp when he started playin Maple Story n chess.. dinner was at Nooch, followed by abit of Tori Q, coz we were sufferin frm meat deficiency due to the dishes we ordered at Nooch.. (-_-lll dessert was hot fudge sundae at Mac for mi, he had McFlurry Oreo.

ran into his fren frm SR when he was sendin mi home.. they chatted for awhile before we each headed our way..

i look like a guy with my hair!!! =( a very cute, girly-lookin guy.. wth! sian-ed..



CaT cat purred at 10:47 PM
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Just Because


home the whole dae.. doin chores, slackin..

i feel a sense of emptiness as i reflect on us nw.. our relationship seems so... barren.. i care for him, but i dun think he can feel it anymore.. as much as i can't feel how much he cares for mi anymore, if he does care dat is.. lookin at how we've been at the start of the relationship til nw, i can't help but wonder how is it dat we've reached this scenario nw. how did we drift so far frm wat we had at the start? i feel a sense of loss, but i can't help thinkin dat there seems to be nothin i can do anymore. i can't help but think dat we r on autopilot modes nw, each waitin to see how far we can go before one of us gives up.

i've never felt so lost before..



CaT cat purred at 10:43 PM
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Fluffy.. Tri's sis's cat..


went to cut my hair before headin to skool todae.. itz abt slightly longer than chin length nw.. =) think it looks okie. not dat gd, nor too bad.

something amusin happened todae.. after class, i was headin to the lift with Wifey n Jillian when i saw the manager of our skool's cafetaria talkin to a staff of the cafetaria along the corridor.. din reallie bother abt them n walked past, when i heard

"Miss! hold on!! my fren told mi to help him ask if he can have ur no!!"

(x_x) huh???!!!

turned out dat the manager of Megabites wanted to get my no.. i was abt to tell the staff dat i'm attached when Wifey said

"tell him dat he's too short."

n den she promptly pulled mi away n walked off, with mi trailin behind happily.. heehee.. Wifey to the rescue.. =) anyway, think i wun dare to step into Megabites for awhile.. thank god itz the weekend.. :p

went over to his house after skool.. felt like i haven't seen him for a long time.. not used to meetin him so little.. =( darn skool n the numerous quizzes, assignments n bad timings.. helped him massage n tried to beat him to a pulp.. whahahhaa.. wanted to loosen up the muscles u see.. so have to knead alot..

honey, make sure dat u stretch more often.. :p



CaT cat purred at 11:49 PM
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