silence.

there's nothin but dat.


despite the festive season, despite all the people around mi constantly, i still feel lonely.

n i'll rather be alone, in my solitude, than to be around ppl yet always reminded dat u r not here.


but u dun noe..

or mayb u juz dun care.

n i've juz abt lost interest in everything.


CaT cat purred at 10:06 PM
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yesterdae was spent last minute shoppin with Manda.

din make it to skool coz, i fought a losin battle with the falsies (fake eyelashes) dat i got n planned to have on when visitin.. so, when i gave up n was clearin up, it was too near to lesson time dat i decided i dun wan to walk in late n made alternative plans instead.

went to get this silver diamante pair of sandals, before headin back to Manda's house to meet her, bail her out on some shoe trouble (she bought too many pairs n her mum threatened to thow away her latest acquirements). den we headed to AMK Central to look for eyelash glue, had dinner at Breeks, n headed for Toa Payoh..

i think she got a high out of readin Korean labels.. -_-lll

there was a kid who ran around cryin n screamin for his mum, abt 3yrs old.. poor thing was lost.. i reallie think parents shldn't bring their kids out if they noe they r gonna be too preoccupied to keep a close watch on their kids.. esp when they noe there r bound to be crowds where they r goin.. kids get flustered in crowds, n as such, easily panick n think they've lost their parents even though their parents r close by.. imagine the claustrophobic-like atmosphere where u r surrounded by giants, amid all the din.. haiz... hope he managed to find his parents without a trip to the police station..

anyway, we got some gd buys.. a maker-like liquid eyeliner that goes on smooth n is rather easy to manage. she got this reallie glittery pink eye liner/ shadow thing dat was reallie pretty. i wun have gotten it, but i was runnin hideously low on money..

it was hard to get a cab, n we ended up takin the bus as we shld have done in the first place.. hahahhaa... she got whistled at by this trio of guys when we walked past n i heard "xiao jie ni hen mei" (miss, you r beautiful) when we've walked right past them without a glance in their direction.. -_-lll think Manda's got some built-in data abt guys like this coz before we even neared the trio, she said we shld act lesbian.. x_x


reunion dinner tonite.. feel oddly bereft.. =(


there were tears as i fell aslp last nite.. i've taken the step, the ball's in his court. but... there's nothin but silence.. am i to spend new yr heartbroken?
CaT cat purred at 12:24 PM
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tears..

i have no need nor desire for them..

but they seem to possess minds of their own, happie to flow n perish in a flurry of tissue paper, than to stay where they should be, hidden.

i've always thought i can be rational enough when it comes to relationships. rational enough to get out when it hurts too much.

i've known since a long time that i was wrong. but i din realise how wrong.


y is it that up til now, all i hope is dat i can turn back the clock, before it's soured. dat up til now, i still can't leave, nor want to leave...


CaT cat purred at 12:45 AM
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A Girl and a Tree.


and the distance seems to grow

with each passing day.
CaT cat purred at 5:49 PM

rite.. been "awhile" since i last updated.. been busy goin to n fro.. n since i'm rottin at home nw, might as well update.

skool's started. think this sem will be super hectic.. like the feelin of goin to skool, though gettin ready for skool everydae is a hassle dat i dread.

been shoppin everydae after skool since Mondae.. -_-lll stressed to get my CNY clothes settled. shopped alone on Mon, coz he bailed out on mi, sayin he was tired. onli came to look for mi after i was done with shoppin. haiz... anyway, bought a pair of jeans on mon, as well as a pair of black, pin-striped knee-length pants.. jeans for skool, the pants for new yr.. shall pair them with black heels.

Tues, brought my Sandy Claws to skool.. the Mr-Skellington-dressed-as-Santa-Claus doll dat Tri got mi for Christmas. Jillian gave mi some Swiss chocs n Ky was sick.. met Manda in Bugis after skool. shopped the entire Bugis market, before we headed for Far East. well, i bought this dark red corset-like tube dat i kinda regret buyin nw.. hahahahaa.. it shall be my motivation to diet. :p anyway, though i din reallie get anything, Manda got quite a couple of stuff..

Weds, went to Far East with Ky after skool coz she was headin to town too, n i was gonna meet Tri later. on the bus to town, she noticed this guy who seems to be takin pics of us with his hp throughout the bus ride. if he was, he's sick. mayb we were over-sensitive? but how high r the chances when we noe dat all the time, the lens were directed in our direction, n there was no one else sittin around us? mayb he was takin pics of the scenery, but, n he whipped out his cam the moment we sat beside him, n den changed seats when we did (coz we had our backs to him?). ugh.. Ky was darn pissed, i was irritated. n i have a qn.

Guys, when this happens to ur gfs, how wld u feel n wat will u do? i'm rather curious.

was supposed to help mi find a suitable top yesterdae. white tops were ruled out by her.. n so was a red one which was perfect except for itz overly bright red.. -_-lll i'm extremely desperate nw.. desperate enuf to risk lookin like i was dressed for a funeral instead, which Ky wun allow. well, she got this velvet cream-coloured Mickey Mouse top, with red sleeves. itz reallie vibrant n unique n i liked it, but i din get coz i think it wun reallie suit mi. so i pointed it out to her, she fell in love with it, n the rest was history. hahahahaa.. one of the fastest purchases made. so, i still have no top for CNY, while the ppl who went shoppin with mi got alot of great purchases.. argh... *bangs wall* i think i'm juz plain jinxed.

met up with Tri for dinner yesterdae, after Ky's fren came to look for her. some unpleasant stuff cropped up but itz been worked out.. i hate bein made to share when i dun wan to. i hate bein made to wait when there were alternatives to waitin..

burnt out for awhile.. the body can't keep up with the mind. :p but i'm likin skool so far, n enjoyin bein in skool. shoppin, i dun mind if i can find the things i wan without so much hassle.
CaT cat purred at 1:29 PM
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adapted frm a comic by Ai Yazawa.itz abt 2 gals who shares the same name, but r in fact direct opposites in their characters. they meet, n frm strangers became fast friends, sharin an apartment n being there for each other, learnin frm each other. at the end of the movie, there weren't any closures dat movies typically uses. they both emerged wiser frm their experiences, a fittin endin for this very simple story.



Acquaintances.

when they first met on the train to Tokyo. Aoi Miyazaki as Komatsu Nana on the left, Mika Nakashima as Osaki Nana on the right.






in the apartment they shared due to their coincidental meetin again when house-huntin.. like havin the table tucked in dat lil' corner. i wan my house decorated like dat too! but think a house with an appropriate space for this is quite hard to find in Singapore, unless deliberately designed.



Opposites.

deliberately chose pics dat shows them in direct juxtaposition. i like Mika Nakashima, who acted as Osaki Nana, a rocker-punk chick. guess i prefer characters with a tough exterior, while being a softie at heart. both r admirable though, since Komatsu Nana also have an amazing streak of steel beneath her soft, candy-coated exterior.

worth watchin. though i dun think it screens in Singapore. :p
CaT cat purred at 5:14 PM
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i look like death warmed over..

*screams*

anyway, i firmly believe dat the rainy daes dat Singapore have been experiencin is our version of winter.. "the-snow-dat'll-never-be" sorta thing.. melted snow yada yada.. y do i sae so? coz this happens every yr? :p see! i have some basis for the things i sae..

been freezin my hands n feet off every dae.. taken to wearin socks when i slp. n somehow, despite all the rain, the air feels dry. might be due to the air conditionin.. but doesn't matter. i've taken to sprayin water into the air in my rm at nite. rosewater, lavender-scented water, tap water.. hope dat helps in addin moisture to the air.. -_-lll

hell.. i'm startin to wonder if the cold weather is slowin dwn my already snail-paced metabolism.. someone, anyone, will u be a kind soul n buy mi evenin primrose oil supplements? heeheeee.. too bad Christmas is over huh?

it doesn't help dat i'm eatin junk everydae.. instant noodles n more instant noodles.. late nite/ early mornins.. dehydration.. i seem to be hell-bent on self-destruction. i believe i'm well on my way to hell. so much for wantin better health this yr.. *sigh*

currently hooked on Mika Nakashima, after watchin the movie NANA. =) i knew she was fantastic before, but nw, WOW..

n i love Anne Stuart's books.. can the kind soul who'll get mi evenin primrose supplements throw in readin glasses n her bks in the grocery list too??? pretty pleaseee.....
CaT cat purred at 3:40 PM
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Memoirs of a Geisha is extremely beautiful. the movie follows relatively close to the bk. =) love it. lil' Sayuri looked incredibly sweet, n bore a uncanny resemblance to Zhang Ziyi. definitely wanna see it again, on the big screen.

anyway, woke up n did some ironin todae (Thurs). went over to Tri's house in the late afternoon n we unwrapped the last of his Xmas pressies frm mi.. :p

went for dinner/ supper at AMK Central, before he sent mi home. =)


can't muster up enough courage n enthusiasm to go shoppin for CNY clothes.. -_-lll
CaT cat purred at 4:29 AM
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rite.. mayb itz coz i'm sufferin frm insufficient slp, mayb itz juz stress.

slpt at abt 6am, n woke up at 9am. cldn't slp earlier, n am forcin my body-clock to reset itself to more earthly hours. figured if i wake early, i'll tire earlier n slp earlier as a result.

somehow, rite nw, i dun think datz gonna work. but, can't sae i din try..

so, Tri came over late mornin to watch the shows dat i dwnloaded for him. den, we went to the library in the late afternoon, before headin for an early dinner. went to get the jacket i wanted for CNY, but, it was gone! not a single one left frm their stocks.. wth.. n i've onli juz seen it last week. darn. nw i'm totally lost as to wat to get... =( i'm hatin the hassles of shoppin n wonderin if i'm a normal female.

anyway, the real reason y i'm stressed is becoz i've juz received the invoice for my skool fees for next sem. took a look at it n went into partial denial for awhile. i hate the knowledge dat i'm placin a heavy burden on my parents shoulders. feel like juz callin it quits n juz start workin, or studyin somethin dat'll cost ALOT LESSER. =( stressed...

feelin so guilt stricken.

slippin..

CaT cat purred at 11:35 PM
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i like wholemeal bread.

rite.. datz actually all i wanna proclaim. but i figured itz quite nonsensical to have a post with juz dat single sentence.

i din wanna have any new yr resolutions, coz i noe i wun stick to them. but, since i have nothin else to blog abt besides how i spent my dae, i figured out a few:

1) be healthier. less meat, more fruit n veggie. n slp earlier at nite.
2) do better in my studies.
3) be a happier person n spread the happiness around.
4) save money. i shall try not to be constantly broke.

think datz enuf for nw.. i'm sure i'll come up with more along the way of 2006.

okie, nw for the borin segment of HOW I SPENT MY DAE. (as if anyone cares.. whahahhaaa..)

i woke at 1.30pm, n proceeded to read the rest of my dae away.


tadaaa!! datz all folks. :p
CaT cat purred at 9:04 PM
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HAPPY 2006 TO EVERYONE!!!!

rite.. y am i up at this hour? datz coz i haven't slpt yet. for all those who's been partyin hard, remember to hydrate urself with loads of H2O n vitamins, as well as get more rest. =)

n though we're barely into 2006, i can recount quite a number of First Times. one being watchin fireworks with Tri for the first time, the other, wld be visitin Geylang. heeeheee...

met up yesterdae evening n Tri n i headed to Marina Square, to avoid the crush in town, as well as to properly explore the place. the foodcourt there boast a wonderful view frm the alfresco section, n itz incredibly hard gettin a table there. but, i think the wait is worthwhile. itz especially pretty frm evenin til dark. frm fairytale to vibrant. =) or mayb it looked fairytale to mi in the evenin due to the slight mist caused by the previous rain showers.

the pizza frm the foodcourt was nice too.

rite. so Tri's fren, Barry, came to join us for dinner at 7+pm. their meetin was startling, to sae the least. ate at this small Japanese ramen shop. the ramen looked gd, though the salads needed gettin used to. after dinner, they played at the arcade for awhile before playin pool. needless to sae, i was like a vase, sittin by the side, TRYIN to look pretty.. -_-lll gee... this went on til around 11.40+, when the place started clearin of the previous crowds, n we decided to go for the countdwn too. managed to get to the open space (rite, not dat open, but still...) before the fireworks started. they were gorgeous, starbursts bloomin in the sky. no pics though, coz i dun think any pics will do them justice. happy dat this time i'm watchin fireowrks, i'm not missin Tri n wishin he was watchin it with mi, coz he was rite by my side.

after the fireworks ended, we walked to Suntec n rested for awhile at Starbucks. i appeared to have an unlimited amount of mineral water last nite. no choice. tryin to be healthy, n nothin quenches thirst like plain water does. after slackin, we tried to think of places to go, n Barry collected his car n we ended up headed for supper at Geylang coz i said i was hungry.

once again, my nationality have been cast in doubt when Barry realised i have never been to Geylang before.. -_-lll wat he doesn't noe is dat i haven't been to alot of other places in Singapore as well, n probably do not noe they exist, or where they exist.. anyway, Geylang looked normal. apart frm bein cluttered n disorganised, it din exactly fit the image of the seedy place i had in mind due to itz reputation as THE red-light district.

after supper, i was sent home, albeit reluctantly.. haiz... i have the naggin suspicion dat..... ugh. anyway, Christmas is over, so is New Year's Dae. i'm dreadin Chinese New Year.. i keep feelin dat itz too early this yr!!!! itz like all the festivals r juz whooshin past in a rush.. i prefer my festivals nicely n evenly spread throughout the yr..

dreadin shoppin for CNY clothes... =(

anyway, datz how i spent New Year's Eve. hope u guys enjoyed urs.. n once again, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ONE N ALL!

*goodnite!*
CaT cat purred at 7:02 AM
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