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sometimes i hate skool for all the time it consumes, sometimes i'm grateful for it. basically, i just hate the way it looms over my days, n how i have to arrange everything around it.

i hate having someone tell mi that they reallie wan to see mi. n den i get hyped up abt it but end up realising they dun reallie mean it or they'll be rushin to make the date. "wo xiang jian ni" is juz a lie when u r draggin ur feet abt it. *crash*

i like everything to be fast.fast.fast. with minimum time wasting. i simply dun like to drag. when u drag, the interpretation is that u can't reallie be bothered actually.


i'm feeling really blue... deep blue. deep dark blue. deep fuckin dark navy blue.
CaT cat purred at 2:38 PM
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been a hectic week. happily busy in this case.

though i'm not sure now.

i haven't forgotten my agreements with frens to meet up. but things keep poppin up n i'm waiting for a time when i'm not so dirt-poor. coz i have a feelin that my S.O.L (standard of living) is alot lower than most of them. yep.. so i wan to be able to indulge them with their usual standards rather than havin to lower for my sake.



people who thinks waiting is easy haven't really waited, or waited in vain.

CaT cat purred at 7:44 AM
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the movie was TOO SHORT!!! okie okie.. it was 2hrs 30mins long, but itz NOT ENOUGH!!!!! :p n the producers better churn out the 3rd one fast, n it better be worth the wait. lolx...

i'm so happie i watched it when it opened yesterdae, n i have a yen to watch it again. Johnny Depp as Jack Sparrow is too hot to handle. talk about roguish sex appeal and charisma.. *Awwwww.... swoon and melt into a puddle* he's soooo.... sexy. =) how can Elizabeth Swann possibly still want Will Turner after meetin Jack, i have no idea. but if she is able to resist against him, she's mad.

i heart Jack Sparrow. lolx..
CaT cat purred at 10:02 PM
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skin's all blotchy from rashes...

itchy.. itchy... itchy..

i'm itchin all over. the itch is killin mi. the more i itch, the more i'm tempted to scratch. the more i scratch the itch, the more blotches abound n i itch even more!

heeheee... are u itchin now?
CaT cat purred at 9:49 PM
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today is just another day, what did i expect? by hoping, the day moves from ordinary to become worse than usual.

the significance and bubble of hope is one-sided.


Bubbles easily burst.
CaT cat purred at 8:17 PM
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experiencing a heatwave these few days. makin mi sick.

woke up with a rash this mornin, which subsided rather quickly all by itself. the last time i experienced somethin like dat was after a dinner or crabs where i had an unexpected allergic reaction. weird, since i'm not supposed to be allergic to anything really. this time, i have no idea wat caused it. but i'm guessin i have too much toxic in my body, which also explains bad skin and the unhealthily high body temperature?

anyone have any ideas for detoxing? something preferably painless, simple, efficient and inexpensive.
CaT cat purred at 5:00 PM
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Raided the fridge and found a tub of ice cream sitting in the freezer compartment. Raspberry Ripple. Brought back sepia memories of my childhood, since the flavour have always reminded me of old men with their tinkling bells and ice cream carts. Recalled weekends where the entire family had picnics at the beach, and the children will hear the tinkle of the bells signalling the presence of an ice cream cart nearby and hope for an ice cream cone. Sunshine and salty breeze, laughter and a sense of security. Those days seem so far gone now, as the world gets more competitive and parents have to work harder for the upkeep of home and hearth. What used to be a routine became idyllic escapades, became memories.

The ice cream's sweet, so are the memories.
CaT cat purred at 9:40 PM
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seeing that 2 paper/ plastic bags left my hands feeling sore, scraped, red and raw, i've concluded that i'm not cut out for hard labour ever. my skin is in dire need of some pampering!!

i'm lookin for the perfect simple white dress. summery n light, walkin the fine balance between fancy and plain. held by 2 straps, it should end at around knee length, goin perfectly with a white and blue stripped cropped jacket, shiny red heels as well as a long and chunky red necklace to spruce things up. a brown leather handbag of classic design, with a scarf tied to the handles, will be a nice addition.

darn. i'm so specific in my requirements that it's always almost impossible to find exactly what i want.
CaT cat purred at 10:01 PM
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it must be the height of summer now. even sittin still, not moving, with the fan blowing, i can feel the moisture in my body evaporating into the air, while the humidity wraps mi with a sheen of perspiration. the sun blazes and the air conditioner seems to have lost its function.

yet, i'm somehow enjoyin the sweltering heat. mayb coz i'm not out in direct confrontation with the sun. suddenly, perspiring makes mi feel healthy. feel a low-scale urge to do outdoorsy stuff. mayb itz due to the absence of makeup and gunk on my face, being able to splash water on my face as and when i like it. freedom with my body, as i haven't experienced since after secondary school. i'm tossing the strict regimes of my skincare out the window for awhile.

ppl, remember to drink up. PLAIN WATER! lolx...
CaT cat purred at 4:09 PM
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all psyched up to go shoppin, until i think of the weekend crowds and lost the verve. wat a waste, since i haven't bought any clothes since Chinese New Year- a highly irregular and unhealthy behaviour for a female.

so i'm sittin here at home alone.. -_-lll

goin shoppin alone is efficient n i'm all for efficiency. but weaving thru crowds alone holds no appeal for me at all. wth. weaving thru crowds at anytime, alone or not, holds no appeal. i dun like crowds. n i'm most comfortable with myself. n i wonder when i've changed, from always raring to get out n stay out of the house as much as possible, to enjoyin stayin home and feelin uncomfortable with people.

i'm doomed to a lifetime of solitude. lolx..
CaT cat purred at 1:04 PM
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