The Window Shopper
Random
Gentle
Love
Dreamer
(RGLDf)

Loving, hopeful, open. Likely to carry on an romance from afar. You are The Window Shopper.

You take love as opportunities come, which can lead to a high-anxiety, but high-flying romantic life. You're a genuinely sweet person, not saccharine at all, so it's likely that the relationships you have had and will have will be happy ones. You've had a fair amount of love experience for your age, and there'll be much more to come.

Part of why we know this is that, of all female types, you are the most prone to sudden, ferocious crushes. Your results indicate that you're especially capable of obsessing over a guy
you just met. Obviously, passion like this makes for an intense existence. It can also make for soul-destroying letdowns.

Your ideal match is someone who'll love you back with equal fire, and someone you've grown to love slowly. A self-involved or pessimistic man is especially bad. Though you're drawn to them, avoid artists at all costs.

YOUR EXACT OPPOSITE: The Stiletto Deliberate
Brutal
Sex
Master

BEWARE: The Hornivore

CONSIDER: The Gentleman,
The Loverboy,
The Boy Next Door

CaT cat purred at 11:03 PM

i've been on an oyster-omelette rampage lately. kinda having a bout of intense craving for it for the past few days, and this particular stall from Newton Circus is damn gd.. heeheee... i've been eating it everyday for the past few days, and i'm startin to worry about my fat-clogged arteries. would dousing myself with hot chinese tea help?

somehow i dun think so. -_-lll

stress... exams r round the corner n i'm "indulging" in last minute studyin as usual. bah!

oh ya.. my peanut-paste-filled glutinous rice dumplings ended up looking like sick fishballs. thanx to my insistence on a thin glutinous skin, the peanut paste showed through the translucence and lent an gray tinge to the dumplings.. =( "fishballs" with indigestion. lolx..

next experiment: jelly. i can't go wrong with this rite? wat can be so difficult abt adding water?
CaT cat purred at 10:36 PM
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my life is made up by a series of bad choices.
CaT cat purred at 7:42 PM

thanx everyone. but as usual, u guys noe i'll juz do wat i wanna do. logic juz aint strong enuf nowadays. lolx..

can't seem to muster up enuf willpower to pick up the textbooks and start readin. which is not a gd thing.

life is just too full of obligations and duties, and things that we have to do though we don't like to. if only i can just do what i please, when i want, anytime, life will be perfect.
CaT cat purred at 1:29 PM
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i hate that i'm not the kind of adorable girls that guys like. i'm not adorable or lovable in that way, fullstop.

i'm not the kind of girl who is into cutesy stuff or go ga-ga over anything pink or fluffy. i'm not the kind of girl who is docile and sweet, pleasing to everyone. i'm not the kind of girl who stirs others' protective instinct, or even their friendship. i'm not the kind of girl that makes guys wanna tuck into their pockets and take wherever and whenever.

and i hate it. coz that seems to make me exactly everything that is unadorable and unlovable, to you.

and i hate that there's no way i can change myself to be that way, as much as i want to.

and i feel so uncertain of myself..
CaT cat purred at 11:47 PM
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i realised that a lot of distance can be closed with a single phone call, and similarly, a lot of distance can be created with a phone call too.

when both parties are genuinely interested in conversing with the other, distances can be bridged no matter how wide it can be.

when both or one party isn't the least bit interested, distance will spring up no matter how close together they were. in fact, it will be better if both parties were uninterested, rather than just one. because in that case, there'll be no hurt feelings.

i guess it's all in the intent, and how much one matter to the other, for either one to make an effort.

i'm thankful for those people who can always find time to have a gd conversation with me, who takes time to listen to me no matter what.

the rest doesn't bear much speaking of..
CaT cat purred at 9:25 AM
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had a bad scare. still in a state of shock, denial, and disbelief as my mind races through the sketchy images of what happened. i wonder if you are juz puttin on a brave front like i'm doin. i worry about you. i have a feeling that you feel as unsettled as i do.

i guess it's times like this that i really get to see for myself how you try to protect me, us. how you soothe me even though you must have been feeling shaken too. and i feel touched, happy, and yet ashamed coz i'm not, and haven't been, the best for you. i am unworthy, and i am sorry for all the times i've been difficult.

baby, i love you so much, i don't ever want to lose you. i noe i'm not the best for you and i'm thankful that you are in my life.

20.09.2006, 23:39-- edit: reality sank in.
CaT cat purred at 1:08 AM
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Don't tell me you have no time for me due to your work, when you have time for your friends and your games.

Don't tell me you have no time to meet me when you can find time to invite your friends over to your house and play games.

Don't tell me what I did or did not say because I'll know better than anyone what I said. Don't push it on me when you did not hear it because your mind was on on your friends and your games.

Don't tell me you couldn't answer the phone because you were too "busy" playing your games.

Don't tell me I'm your anyone when your actions show that to you, I'm NO ONE.


FUCK YOU AND FUCK ALL OF THEM.

CaT cat purred at 6:08 PM

at home with rashes, and caught is a quandary of sorts.

bad skin all around, wat with breakouts and rashes. -_-lll n a bladder dat seems to be deteriorating too? gee.. the rashes seem to be becoming a monthly affair. lousy slate of health? i think so. though i'm not sure which part of it is lousy.

i have a feeling dat my blood is reallie toxic.
CaT cat purred at 4:25 PM
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wasabi ice cream looks exactly like wasabi, smells exactly like wasabi, n stings exactly like wasabi! imagine eating a cone of it. -_-lll for the unsuspecting only.

tried the uzumaki's wasabi ice cream n hmmm... stings too much for my likin. wasn't expectin it to be hot, since itz ice cream. weird sensation feeling my tongue tingle and burn from eating ice cream. the black sesame sounds gd though. shall try dat next time.

havin a spate of breakout. damn. tot i was over n done with it.

next culinary experiment: making peanut paste filled glutinous rice dumplings.
CaT cat purred at 1:12 PM
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Computer Science's lab is fun! lolx.. itz almost a no-brainer with those step-by-step instructions given by the textbook. (speakin of which, anyone wanna gimme their CSE111 txtbk? lolx.. photocopied ones are alrite)

now.. watz hard's decipherin wat exactly the teacher wan us to submit. :p

n I'M NOT CALLED JENNIFER. geez.. he can rmb my name after juz one meetin but he can't curb the temptation to call mi Jennifer? favourite actress indeed.... HMMPF!
CaT cat purred at 8:54 PM
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quick update:

• the choc cookies turned out sorta alrite. abit too chocolatey coz i melted a whole 12oz packet of hersheys choco-chips into the flour n stuff. not gonna divulge my recipe. no pics coz i'm too lazy.
• i have a mad teacher for Computer Science, who insists on callin mi Jennifer coz he thinks i look like Jennifer Aniston when i had my specs on. -_-lll talk abt out of pt. watz worse is him proclaimin it to half of my class and insistin dat they agree with him. if i could have found a hole, i would have jumped in immediately, or chucked him in fill it over with cement.

CaT cat purred at 9:59 PM
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have a yen to make chocolate cookies, but can't seem to figure out the most foolproof n hassle-free recipe. shit. Manda, we shld have written dwn the ingredients used the last time we made cookies, the perfect chocolate cookies.

arghh... itz givin mi a headache.
CaT cat purred at 10:06 PM
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and what constitutes fidelity? and why are there people who poach?

i realised today that if it boils down to leave or fight, i'll leave. quick and simple. no messy entanglements and hassle for me. why fight and let things turn ugly when you can step down with grace? i guess i'm not much of a challenge for poachers.

i should be happy. but i'm really just confused and hurting. and as illogical or unreasonable as it seems to be, i'm unable to stop the pain.
CaT cat purred at 12:09 AM
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