finally got some stuff off my chest, some stuff dat i cldn't hold in to myself anymore. n it goes a long way towards makin mi feel betta in my current state.

though most of us come to this world alone, n will probably leave this world alone too, itz a choice when it comes to living life. n itz becoz i noe i'm not alone, dat makes mi a stronger person that i thought i could be.

i'm strong. n i will be, and can be, stronger than anyone will think or expect mi to ever be. datz wat i gotta believe- dat i can do anything if i truly desire to.

n despite everything todae, i'm happie. =)
CaT cat purred at 8:37 PM
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yay!! juz finished a big brimming bowl of beehoon soup n i feel so much betta now. all filled up n settled n comfy. i've found my comfort food!

cooked it myself n chances r, if i eat this for the rest of my life, or at least for 1 month, i'll be skinny like hell. lolx.. itz like at least 85% oil free, almost 75% salt free, with no preservatives n stuff.

let mi share the recipe:

throw some dried ikan bilis into a pot of water n bring to a boil.

after the water have boiled for awhile, scoop out the ikan bilis n throw them away. they r onli for flavoring the water/ creating a soup stock.

put in veggies to the boiling water. this is so that the soup will be infused with the sweetness of fresh veggie, without the need for too much seasonin.

add a sprinkle of salt to the boilin soup n veggie

put the beehoon into the boilin soup n veggie. this shld calm the water down.

when beehoon soup is boilin again, add in some slices of lean meat.

when the soup is boiled n bubbling again, turn off the fire. cookin lean meat for too long will cause it to be tough and dry.

serve the beehoon soup. adorn with garnishings such as shallots and chopped spring onions or parsley.

warning: it will be rather bland dependin on how much salt was added. mine's bland coz i like it simple tasting, n i think itz safer for it to be bland n den u can add seasonings like pepper and soya sauce after tasting, rather than to be drinkin salty soup dat needs diluting.

reminders: remember to soak the beehoon in some water before cookin to soften it. drain the water before use. this recipe is highly versatile so u can add almost any ingredients u like.

oh manz.. i'm so talented. lolx..
CaT cat purred at 7:28 PM

not feelin terribly well, alive n kickin these daes. =(

very lethargic lately. n my usual pickiness with food have escalated, such dat i can't swallow anythin that wasn't wat i had in mind. bah... constant hunger pangs n yet no appetite. booooo... i hate my body. nw, most of the time i'm starving while my mind goes thru a list of food available, n my throat rejects them all.

think i'll lose my mind if this goes on much longer.

will someone buy mi some nice n cold kimchi n deliver to my hse now?! so dat it can help perk up my appetite n let mi swallow some rice. *sobz*
CaT cat purred at 3:48 PM
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okie. think i shld have specified dat i saw 4 tiny white *ermz* maggots.

reallie tiny, n 4 in sight. so dun picture a big squirmin mess of it coz it wasn't dat bad. :p not sure if i accidentally sliced any into 2 though.

did i juz make it worse? oopz..

n the one dat looked at mi/ i saw tiny black dots on its end, nw dat i've about gotten over the horror, looked kinda cute.

hahaahaaa.. sick.

coz i was peerin at it, n den it turned as though to look at mi with question marks flutterin all over its head. kinda felt like it was thinkin "why is she lookin at mi lookin at her? is something wrong?"

lolx.. warped sense of humour. can't help it. hopes this alleviates some of the horror anyone might have felt after readin. :p
CaT cat purred at 12:21 PM
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watz the worst thing dat can happen when u cut open an over-ripe fruit?

u see a mottled mess of over-ripe fruit flesh......

and tiny white maggots.

*cue SCREAMS*

wanted some cold mango for dessert after dinner coz grandma said they r goin to spoil if we leave them longer, so we shld try to finish them asap. parents got them from their recent Malaysia trip.

so i took one n cut it open. had reservations before even cutting it coz i cld feel thru the skin dat one side was already a rotten mushy mess of mango flesh. n i have no qualms throwin away a whole fruit as long as a tiny part of it is rotten, coz the rotten part is basically toxic n the whole fruit will be affected by the poison whether or not the other parts r rotten. yes. dun think dat eatin onli the part dat looks okie is alrite. itz not coz the whole fruit is already toxic due to the decomposition.

so, anyway, i sliced the rotten side open first to inspect how bad it was. it was like a big patch of black-ish yellow slush. den i saw tiny white strands, n curiosity got the betta of mi. i wanted to noe if those were maggots or juz the fruit's husks.

mistake of my life. i was peerin closely at it, havin decided that those r worms, when 1 stirred!!!

FUCK!!

i saw black dots on the white maggot. those muz be the eyes.

FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!

immediately the horror registered n i sprang away frm the cutting board, screamin n hoppin coz i reallie hate bugs n the seein or thinkin abt them juz makes my entire body itch relentlessly.

so nw, i'm hypersensitive, with blotchy skin frm the scratchin, tired legs frm the hoppin, dry throat frm the screaming, n swearin off mangoes n using the knife for awhile. =(

yes. i yelled my head off. figured i had to warn my grandma of them. hahahahaa.. she cleared everything away for mi coz i was too busy hopping n vehemently refusing to ever go near the area.

i prefer unripe fruits to overly ripe fruits.
CaT cat purred at 7:22 PM
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15months later, my life is once again in turmoil.
CaT cat purred at 4:59 PM
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Of the four Individual Concept Illustrations (CIs), only three are required. All students also have the option of doing all four CIs. For individuals who do all four CIs, the best (highest) three of the four will be selected. Please follow the following guidelines for the CIs.

Only Multinational Companies (MNCs) should be selected. You should select at least three MNCs that are US based.

If you do the optional fourth CI, the fourth MNC can be based anywhere in the world.

Each CI should have the following sections, with each section clearly identified:

1. Brief Background about the MNC (what it does, 2006 sales and market share).
2. One Marketing Issue/Problem facing the MNC.
3. The Marketing Research that was conducted. Give as much detail as possible.
4. The findings of marketing Research.
5. The management decisions/actions taken based on the findings of marketing research.
6. The results of management decision/action if available.
7. Please cite ALL references and URLs.
   

PLEASE NOTE THAT COLLOBORATION IN ANY FORM FOR THE INDIVIDUAL CIs IS STRICTLY FORBIDDEN. ANY VIOLATIONS WILL BE DEALT WITH UB POLICY.

All four CIs are to be submitted in hard copy and soft copy (Word documents). All the files for the four CIs plus ALL the background materials that you consult should be emailed as ONE ZIP file. Please do NOT attach individual files. The DEADLINE for submission remains Friday, June 22 at 12:00 noon.

fucked up.. anyone wanna help mi with this?

CaT cat purred at 10:58 PM

to take myself away from the work..

glitz and glamour is....

.16. perfume and chiffon, silks and lace .06. crystal chandeliers and porcelain, dimmed lights and soft music, romance and excitement .07. long looks and soft whispers, drizzling rain and brief touches..
CaT cat purred at 6:02 PM
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feeling exceedingly choked, like the air is too thin and there is no space to breathe. i'm sick of this constant and endless stream of work, juz from a single module. if itz a mish mash of work from various modules, mayb i can take it due to the variety. but this monotonous continuation is straining mi to the point of suffocation.

i can't breathe and it feels like someone's sittin on my lungs. i need to get away from it but there's no time for dat. it seems i can onli work and wait for the oxygen to run out, or for my lungs to just stop.
CaT cat purred at 9:26 PM
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okie.. i can't see my tagboard like seriously n i think i need to change it. but i'm lazy.

hectic hectic. everything's like rushin towards mi, n if i tot last week was bad, this week will probably be worse.

currently feelin like a one-night-cinderella. lolx..
CaT cat purred at 10:44 PM
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finally, i have nothing pressing to do. phew...

bored n sleepy. muz be all the tryin to plan things out. my brain's been workin overtime.

my mum's recently gotten old n listenin to alot of Cai Qin's songs.. omg!

ya. i'm bored. ran out of stuff to watch. *snores*
CaT cat purred at 8:36 PM
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look at my tired face. -_-lll

life's been hectic, esp with sch work. seriously, 4 years courses are not meant to be cramped into 3 years.

skin's failin, grade's ugh, money's tight, time's running, energy low. i feel like i've been stretched too thin and pushed too far, to the point of suffocation.

tmr's our monthsary. he can't be here to spend it with mi. *sigh* oh well.. at least he's been messaging mi a few times a day since monday. =)

tmr's midterms. no idea wat to expect, except for the fact dat it'll probably be tough.
CaT cat purred at 10:26 PM
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