Imitation brands.

Imitation gems.

Fake flowers.

Imitation care.

Imitation attention.

It all speaks of Imitation Love.
CaT cat purred at 9:26 PM
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I lit the match and i burnt it, a warped form of exorcism. I see the hearts appear as the wax melts down, but when I'm done there'll be none left. I see the names slowly disappear into a puddle of molten red wax, the gold glitter no longer glistening, the purple and yellow words becoming nothing.

When I'm done with it, there'll be nothing but burnt wax and black charred metal left.

Why?

Tealights are meant to be burnt, aren't they?

Why?

Simply because I hate you so.
CaT cat purred at 9:45 AM
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i usually receive alot of weird calls from unknown numbers, but the one i just received takes the cake.

it was from a private number and while i usually dun answer calls frm unknown numbers, i picked this one up thinkin there's no harm since i'm in a rather okie mood.

guess who?

i heard heavily accented mandarin spoken. muahahahahaaa.. n immediately, alarm bells rang off in my head as i contemplated the possibilities, or rather, the impossibility of it all.

it's strange talking to your guy's mum when u r not sure if she's aware of who u are, wat status you hold in her son's life. she asked if he was with mi, if there's anyway i noe where he can be reached, where he might be, what he might be doing, who he might be with, whether i noe who she is, and my name. i'm thankful that i greeted her properly the moment she informed mi of her status, though i knew who she was the moment i heard her voice and i'm always polite on the phone anyway, except when i'm tellin someone off with good reasons.

i wish i cld have given her the number to call, though i doubt my boy will appreciate havin his fun interrupted thanks to my tip-off. so, no. the mum din get a way to contact him coz i was afraid dat while checkin for his fren's number to give her, i'll accidentally hang up on her without meaning to. but yes, i'm worried for both the boy and his mum. i can understand 200% how she feels when she can't find him, and i'm worried he might snap at her for callin his frens.

chances r, she have the number of dat fren he's with. :p

pls dear God, let them both be happy.
CaT cat purred at 11:34 PM
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i think i'm destined to cry a few times each month.

putting in effort in a one-sided relationship is pointless. it is a waste of time, effort and most importantly, emotions. and people should already noe i'm a usually very restrained person who doesn't show much emotions all the time, so it's tiring when i do.

i've had enough of this emotion rollercoaster, trapped with someone who doesn't care. someone who places more importance on other people and stuff, when i'm the one he claims to love.

what's the use of hearing the words and not seeing the actions. my lecturer taught us that overpromising and under-delivering is the kiss of death. then shouldn't this godforsaken relationship be dead?

i read someone that virgoes tend to make choices with the blinders dwn.. i'm still not sure if staying or leaving is the blind choice here. i know u know wat's the right choice, but wats right for you may not be right for mi.
CaT cat purred at 2:02 PM
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i ask myself.. why stay with someone who doesn't love me as much as another person is willing to?
CaT cat purred at 7:21 PM
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I'm still having problems banishing the monsters in my head, the haunting shadows from the past. They dodge me at my every step, all over again. I wish I didn't see the things I saw, heard the things I heard, asked the questions I asked. There are no definite answers and nothing that I feel I can genuinely believe in.

Yet, I don't want to be the biggest fool on Earth. I don't want to blind myself, and admit that I let people hurt me knowingly.
CaT cat purred at 1:52 AM
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Yesterday, i celebrated his 22nd birthday for him after we attended the wedding lunch of my nanny's daughter.

we went to town to run some errands before having dinner at Sushi Tei Paragon. both of us ordered their unagi bento which is one of the better ones i've tried so far.


he ordered sake too but i din take a pic of it. he didn't want the sake anymore after his 2nd cup. and one cup is about slightly bigger than a small chinese teacup. -_-lll i ended up having to finish the rest of the 3/4 bottle of sake for him.

straight after dinner, we realised we were running short of time for our booking for the Singapore Flyer's Champagne Flight. we had to check in by 8.30pm, 30mins early and by the time we were heading there from Paragon, it was about 8.15pm. he made us run after a bus!! for the first time in my life, i ran for a bus for the longest stretch of road i've even ran in town. correction: i've never ran in town until last nite. we ran from Paragon to the bus stop outside Heeren just to catch that bus. and when we alighted at Marina Square, we had to run again to reach the Singapore Flyer on time. haaaaa.. needless to say, i din get drunk from all that sake coz we were anxious about catchin our flight.

once at the Singapore Flyer, we were shown to the VIP Lounge. we were given a glass of cocktail each, with nibbles, while waitin for our flight. there was only the two of us there with all the waiters and waitresses hovering around us to make sure we were comfortable and to meet with our requests.

my view from the couch we were sitting on. air conditioned, big, cozy and extremely comfortable.

around the VIP Lounge.



we found out that there should be another couple boarding with us but they din show up. so when the time came, we were led by the personnel thru some passageway only available to us. it was a first class flight afterall, so we cut all queues since we were entitled to express boarding. cutting across all the people queuing for their turn to board their capsules was fun. they were wearin blue lanyards for the usual basic flight and we were wearin red ones with a 'Champagne' printed on our tags.

so we got on our capsule and saw the Moet and Chandon bar, with a waitress waitin to serve us. i din even have to book us a private capsule, which would have cost $2.5k. we were served champagne, chocolates and strawberries on the flight, and she helped us take as many pics as we asked her to. the capsule was built very solid, air-conditioned with benches inside and thus, we embarked on our flight to 165m high.

at the top of the flight.


Looking down.







Lights


after the 30min flight, we went to New York New York CityLink for his surprise birthday party organised by me. i was real relieved that all his friends were there and having fun by the time we got there. so it was one jovial night, with white wine, a huge Secret Recipe chocolate cake, a humongous burger known as the New York New York Challenge, and good friends gathered together to celebrate with him. we went home by about 12 midnight. really gotta thank the people at New York New York for their wonderful service and for lettin us stay til so late.


Flight + Tshirt as Birthday presents + my share of the cake = total damage of $185 for mi.


our happiness and the fun we had? Priceless. =)
CaT cat purred at 10:10 AM

the planning led to a huge success. it was a great celebration today. =)

super tired. shall update soon.
CaT cat purred at 1:25 AM
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the reason why i don't celebrate my birthday for the past few years is because, i got tired of planning and organising tiny details, trying to make it a complete event that will work smoothly. i thought it will lose meaning if i have to plan for myself, something that my 'friends' should be doing if i mean that much. to put it simpler, i will feel like i'm tryin to make myself seem more important to others than i actually am, through a shallow facade put up by me.

okie.. that doesn't look simple upon revision. the simplest version: i will feel that i'm seeking attention from people who don't willingly give it. and i have too much pride to ever want to put myself in the position of an emotion beggar.

yet, i'm currently knee deep in organising something for someone. seriously, i hate wading through details and trying to get people together. the one department i will never want to work in will be Personnel, or Human Resources. unless i have so much clout that people have to jump to attention if i so much as lift a pinky finger.

but i seem to be rather good at this. n organising can be fun sometimes. i guess the best comes out only when i'm doin it for someone else, and that's when the adrenaline rush for trying to make things work kick in. maybe i can consider a future as wedding planner or something. haa..

but left to my own devices, i probably wouldn't be celebrating my birthday again this year. :p
CaT cat purred at 11:50 PM
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i think my more insightful posts are at my previous place. i'm slowly leavin this place with only 'comic relief' moments.
CaT cat purred at 1:28 PM

because i am bored, i shall post some boring pictures of boring things.


this is an example of one of Cat's weird inclinations


the Before picture of a meal at Mos Burger.



After.



Close up on tray.



i'm a really nice customer, ain't i?
CaT cat purred at 12:04 AM
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CaT cat purred at 12:19 AM
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been doing some tweaking to my previous place todae.. think it's so much classier over there now than here, a place still stuck in teenage angst.
CaT cat purred at 3:50 PM
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read this article on Yahoo! which i think is.. enlightening.

10 Signs That You're Dating a Commitment-Ready Guy
by Caroline Presno, Ed.D,. P.C.C

1. His friends are married
If you are interested in a guy, check out his friends' left hands to see if they have wedding rings on. Research has show that if his friends are already married, he's more likely to get married. If all of his friends are still single and in the "party-with-the-boys" phase, that's a bad sign.

2. He's financially secure
Studies show that men who own a home are more marriage-ready. A man who is generally financially stable, and has his ducks in a row, feels marriage is a practical next step for him.

3. He pursues you
The guy who is commitment-ready is going to initiate doing things with you. If you're emailing him and he takes days to email you back, if you have to text him to find out where he is, if you are always calling him, you're chasing a man who's probably not marriage-material.

4. He's willing to wait
Yes, research is telling us what we already know: If a guy gets to know you before getting intimate, he is more likely to commit.

5. He watches DVDs with you when you're sick
Taking care of you when you're sick shows that this guy isn't just in it for the fun and sex. If he wants to be with you in bad times, it's a sign he's in it for the long haul.

6. He gets to know your friends and family
A guy who is thinking long-term wants to truly get to know you. Seeing you interact with your family and friends helps him learn where you come from and more about who you are. The flip side of it is that he will also want you to get to know him! He'll want to see if you fit in with his family and friends. A guy who keeps you separate from the important people in his life is just playing around.

7. He says, "we" instead of "me"
When he switches from "me" to "we", that's a sign he's committing to you at a deeper level. If your guy is all, "I", "me", and "my" instead of "we" and "us" in conversations after you've been dating a while, his mindset is still in single guy mode.

8. He's not afraid of compromise
A commitment-ready guy is going to ask your opinion, consult you about decisions he needs to make, and has the ability to meet you half-way. A bull-headed guy who needs everything his way or it's the highway, isn't ready for the compromise that's naturally part of a mature relationship.

9. He doesn't need excuses
Commitment-phobic guys always have an excuse about why they can't be with you on Saturday night, why they didn't call, and why they aren't ready for a relationship right now. A commitment-ready guy doesn't need excuses, he just needs you.

10. He likes being in a long-term relationship
Some men like being in a monogamous relationship and some don't. The sooner you realize and accept this the better. If he complains all the time about needing space, treats you like a giant burden instead of a gift, and keeps talking about taking things slow, he's telling you he's not ready for a commitment. On the other hand, if he's done with the party scene, enjoys your "couple time" together, and has a strong sense of family, you've found a commitment-ready guy.

i feel depressed already.. i don't like my not-very-commitment-ready guy.
CaT cat purred at 11:16 PM
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i did the most incredibly stupid/blur thing, AGAIN.

i know that school starts at 9am. n i set my alarm at 7.30, thinking i'll wake up earlier than usual so i wun be late since the teacher locks the door at 9am sharp.

sounds fine so far?

so, i woke up at 7.30 and prepared til about 8.30, when i left the house thinkin i'll get to school on time.

does dat still sound fine?

when sch is in clementi, and the bus ride takes up 45mins.

n when the bus came at abt 8.50+, i boarded it thinkin itz damn crowded as usual n i'm lucky to get seats. n i was happily on the bus checkin the time n noting that 'itz 9. i'll still get there on time' until something felt wrong n i thought deeper n more consciously 'class starts at 9am sharp'

omg......

it struck mi dat i'm late n i must be crazy or have my brain too fogged up not to realise my mistake til den.. so i crossed the bridge n took the bus headed home, den remembered i can enter class durin break time.. ugh..

my blurness knows no boundaries..
CaT cat purred at 10:42 AM
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met up with Manda for dinner at Mos Burger again. Manda! Marcus say must invite him nxt time. lolx..

we were there from around 4.45 til 9.30+. that's like almost 5hrs, so long dat even the auntie workin as the cashier commented that we r very capable for being able to stay there so long coz if she was to do dat, she'll get very tired.

new module started. itz Prof Csipak again! haste is waste, less is more. haaa.. shld be alrite, except dat i dun have a grp for the project work yet. i hate it when this happens. but i think itz inevitable, seeing that i'm surrounded by unfamiliar ppl who r familiar with each other. :p

does dat make sense?
CaT cat purred at 11:34 PM
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I am the queen of bad luck. how else do you explain watching my money enter a cash deposit machine, with my very own eyes, and watching the screen promptly flash "This CDM is temporarily out of service. Please call ######### for assistance."

to add insult to injury, the amount i was depositing was more than the total amount in my account.
CaT cat purred at 9:58 PM

i have nothing much to blog about and was thinking of sacrificing my bro by postin his pics up. lolx.. but i've decided to save it for another time.. and if i end this post nw, will anyone get frustrated by the time i just wasted making you read those useless stuff above? hhaaahaa..

okie.. i have a liking for taking pics of lights.

cabs queueing..


cars on the road..

and spot the ferris wheel. the pic looks betta full sized.


and if zoom doesn't make my pics smaller, i'll use it all the time.


datz all folks.
CaT cat purred at 1:55 PM
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